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i’m so excited about what god’s going to

do through this word i was praying and

if you have not been connected to this

series about evidence i have to tell you

you are really missing out like i don’t

like fomo but i’m telling you you need

to have a case of fomo because pt has

been just laying down the word week

after week after week on sunday he

preached about faith and it got me so

together that i wanted to share with you

not just what i took from the message

but how it challenged me and what god

said in response i love being under pt’s

leadership because i always know that

i’m going to leave with the word that is

literally going to confront where my

weaknesses are but also introduce an

opportunity for strength i took that

word into my prayer closet and i came

out with a word that i think is going to

bless you

god knows it blessed me

my subject is wrestling doubt wrestling

doubt

and i’m going to be in exodus

exodus 4 and 1. now i’m going to be

honest with you i’ve got a lot of text

here but my prayer is that it’ll make

perfect sense when everything is said

and done exodus four and one i’m reading

from the new king james version

and my text says then moses answered and

said

but suppose they will not believe me

or listen to my voice

suppose they say the lord has not

appeared to you so the lord said to him

what is that in your hand

he said a rod

and he said god says to cast it on the

ground so he cast it on the ground and

it became a serpent and moses fled from

it

then the lord said to moses

reach out your hand take it by the tail

and he reached out his hand and caught

it and it became a rod in his hand

that they may believe that the lord god

of their father the god of abraham the

god of isaac the god of jacob has

appeared to you

furthermore the lord said to him now put

your hand in your bosom

and he put his hand in his bosom

and when he took it out behold his hand

was leprous like snow

and he said put your hand in your bosom

again so he put his hand in his bosom

again and drew it out of his bosom

and behold it was restored like his

other flesh

then it will be if they do not believe

you nor heed the message of the first

sign that they may believe the message

of the latter sign

and it shall be if they do not believe

even these two signs or listen to your

voice that you’d shall take your water

from the river and pour it on the dry

land

the water which you take from the river

will become

blood on the dry land

he gave three signs

i should have given you a little bit of

background for those of you unfamiliar

with this text

moses has

uh born in egypt he was born in egypt

and he fled from egypt because he was a

hebrew child born in egypt and he’s been

in this place where he fled for 40 years

and god has this conversation with him

and yet god says something to him that

is so unfathomable that requires so much

faith that he could not help but

experience doubt

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i want to speak to you with that in mind

spirit of the living god

man some of us know all too well what

it’s like to wrestle with doubt

to wonder how in the world could you

choose me to do something that requires

this much faith

god if we’re honest somebody’s watching

tonight and faith is too much of a

stretch

they’ve been living in this space of

doubt for so long that it has become

comfortable but father you gave me this

word for my own doubt

and because it brought me great

breakthrough god i am believing that

there is an impartation that’s going to

happen in the spirit realm

that even though we are not in the same

room we are in the same presence god

because your presence is with me and

your presence is with them we are in the

same presence and in your presence there

will be a fulfillment of every area

where we have experienced brokenness let

your glory fall as only it can do

and as your glory falls god let it

confront the areas of our heart where

there is doubt make us tender god make

us aware help us to see the areas where

we’ve just pulled back

but may this message propel us forward

even if it means stretching us god i

thank you that this is your word these

are your people this is your moment so

let there be none of me only you your

word standing tall on the inside of me

because i have no doubt

that if you step into the room

change is the only outcome if you step

into the room transformation is the only

outcome so be with them god in that car

in that office in that living room in

that kitchen god meet them where they

need you the most

and walk with them god

until they become one with you

and can say thank you on the other side

of eternity

in jesus name

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amen i don’t know if you’re watching

activate for the first time but there is

a rule where you have to type amen in

the comments or the prayer is not sealed

so i’m gonna need you to drop that amen

in the comments

you know i was studying about

doubt

in preparation for this message maybe i

don’t know if i should tell you about

how i started studying about doubt or

why i started studying about doubt

i started studying about doubt because

when i was listening to pt’s message

about faith it was so good to my soul

like it i mean

the insight connected to it the standing

under and then over like some of these

things won’t make any sense until you

actually watch the message but i was so

challenged by that word that i started

asking god where are the areas of my

life where i need to have an increase of

faith i think that that’s always

something that we have to be willing to

ask ourselves it doesn’t matter how long

you’ve been saved it doesn’t matter how

long you’ve been in church if you aren’t

asking yourself

god what is the area of my life that

needs an increase of faith you’re not in

relationship with god you’re in religion

but to be in relationship with god is to

say this word has resonated with me so

greatly what area of my life is it

watering

because i want to understand where to

look for growth

when a word comes into your heart when

it comes into your spirit it comes into

your mind and you just can’t shake it

off and it’s not just like oh that was a

good word it’s something that sticks

with you you have to be willing to ask

god what is the area in my life that

this word is watering because i want to

see when the seed starts sprouting i

want to see when that seed begins to

turn into fruit god this word is

watering me and i kept asking god what’s

happening and he told me through my

prayer and meditation he was like you’ve

got doubt

and i didn’t understand why he would say

that to me

because i didn’t really know where the

area of my doubt was but the more that i

began to study and dig into this word i

realized that i had been living in a

place of doubt in one particular area

for so long

that doubt had became had become home

for me

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yeah me

i think it’s important that we have

authenticity and transparency in our

relationship right because i’m not

telling you that i’m the standard i’m

telling you that i’m on a journey just

like you are and i received a word in

this word illuminated an area of my life

where i’ve had doubt for so long that

it’s become comfortable

this word doubt i want to define it for

you

the word doubt

means a feeling of uncertainty

or lack of conviction a feeling of

uncertainty or lack of conviction i

would have never considered doubt

as being a feeling of uncertainty

because when i feel uncertain i just

feel uncertain i don’t necessarily say

that i am doubting something but i feel

like this definition helps me to

understand that in seasons of

uncertainty the uncertainty is probably

also connected to this doubt if i feel

uncertain about whether or not i should

start a business there’s probably a

doubt that says i don’t know if i could

succeed as a business owner if i feel

uncertain about whether or not i should

apologize it’s because i have some kind

of doubt that me apologizing may change

the way the other person sees me there

is something to be said about

uncertainty having connected to it this

layer and level of doubt

i started beginning to process my own

life

and i recognize that doubt has a subtle

introduction into our lives

and i was thinking about how god was

convicting me

about my own doubt i began to recognize

how the enemy uses doubt

is subtle

it’s never blatant

but it’s subtle and that it relocates

you from a place of conviction to a

place of uncertainty and if god can get

you into a place of conviction then he

knows i can get any word to you and

you’ll move based off of that word but

if the enemy can get you into a place

where you have a lack of conviction

you’ll just start floating through life

when you’re supposed to be taking charge

having dominion and subduing the earth

that’s why doubt is dangerous i want to

let you know something doubt is not

something we should take lightly doubt

is not something that we should just

adjust to doubt is a threat to your

destiny that’s why the serpent comes in

and he’s talking to the woman and he

says to the woman did god really say i

don’t have to tell you to eat from the

fruit i don’t have to lure you with

anything that’s going to make you

greater than where you are right now all

i have to do is introduce doubt if i

introduce doubt you’ll be open to

anything if i introduce doubt you’ll

start questioning what god said if i

introduce doubt then you’ll become a

double-minded man unstable in all of

your ways am i talking to anybody who

understands what it’s like to have doubt

i know that i should but i also don’t

believe that i can i know that i can but

i don’t know how and so i’m

double-minded i’m living in a space of

doubt i don’t know who you are but i

want you to recognize that that doubt is

a weapon against your destiny that doubt

is trying to change the way that you see

god that doubt is trying to change the

way that you show up in the earth that

doubt is trying to make you no longer

live with conviction because when you

live with conviction you are a weapon

when you live with conviction anything

you do has god’s dna on it there’s

something dangerous about someone who

lives with conviction i told god when i

was studying for this word god don’t

just give me a word give me conviction

about what this word can do and that’s

the way we’ve got to show up in our

relationships i want a relationship that

i can show up to with conviction i want

to be in a ministry where i can show up

to that ministry with conviction where i

believe down on the inside of me that i

am aligned i know exactly where i’m

supposed to be i’m saying exactly what

i’m supposed to say because i’m aligned

with conviction conviction brought me

here i didn’t want to be here but

conviction kept pushing me i didn’t want

to say it but conviction kept pushing me

is there anyone in this space that knows

what it’s like to live a life of

conviction that conviction will change

you that conviction will have you

looking in the mirror and you don’t even

recognize who you are anymore because

conviction changed my identity

conviction changed the way that i saw

myself conviction changed what i thought

was possible conviction started making

me think that it didn’t matter what i

went through that god was still pushing

me conviction is when god starts pushing

you in your back and instead of you

resisting you start moving in the

direction of what god is doing god i

feel you pushing me god i feel you’re

stirring me that’s conviction working

through you it’s moving you in the

direction of your destiny somebody needs

to start praying for conviction god

convict me until i change my ways god

convict me until i don’t care what i

look like when i do it god convicts me

until i care more about what you think

than what other people think somebody’s

got to start praying for conviction

because nothing changes without

conviction nothing is transformed

without conviction when you get a

conviction down on the inside of you it

doesn’t matter what who what anybody

says to you because the conviction is in

me you can say what you want to but

conviction is that when you can do what

you want to but conviction is in me i

messed around and got some conviction

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so to live in doubt

is to live with a lack of conviction

it’s to flow through life letting life

happen to you

and i hear god saying that conviction

cuts through the noise

conviction elevates your perspective

convention conviction helps you

to navigate

the tough moments

it makes survival a necessity

not a luxury

i gotta survive this because someone is

counting on me

this is why you have to be careful

who you’re connected to

because when you’re trying to protect

your conviction

you can’t expose yourself to other

people’s doubt

doubt is contagious

and all of a sudden you’ll go from

feeling convicted to feeling weak

and now their doubt has become your

disease and you couldn’t protect your

conviction and you’re both sitting here

stagnant but just like doubt is

contagious baby so is conviction have

you ever been working out to next to

somebody who was going so hard like they

was training for the olympics and you

thought to yourself if you don’t go that

hard i’ma go that hard too conviction oh

my god i want to thank god for a minute

for the people who came into my life and

took my conviction to the next level now

i want to be holy in the way that i see

you striving for holiness now i want to

be righteous in the way i see you right

striving for righteousness there’s

something powerful about being connected

to

the contagious nature of conviction

so you got to know when doubt has become

your home

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you’re watching this message

and maybe doubt isn’t your home

in one area of your life

but i want you to be open to the

possibility that doubt has become your

home

in another area of your life

and i want you to consider what it would

look like

if we just focused in for 20 minutes

and you let me speak to that area of

doubt

where is it where is it where is it god

bring it to the surface

god you didn’t just give me this word so

that we can listen to it and go back to

being the same

god i want you to bring that area of

doubt to the surface so that we can have

deliverance oh god i feel your power so

that we can have deliverance from that

area of doubt i hear god saying that

somebody’s going to listen to this

message and they’re never going to

battle with doubt again that someone’s

going to listen to this message and

they’re going to recognize how to fight

back when it comes to doubt again i hear

god saying that somebody’s been drowning

in doubt and somebody’s getting ready to

just let go and allow doubt to have the

final say but i hear god saying that he

wouldn’t let you go out that way and

this word is going to pull you out if

that’s your word i want you to type i

receive it i receive it i receive it

there’s a lifeline headed your direction

there’s a next level of salvation headed

your direction you got saved from the

world but god said now i want to save

you from what god in you when you were

in the world i want to save you from the

mindsets that god implanted in you while

you were in the world

and doubt is one of them let’s get into

this word

moses

is struggling with doubt moses

the same moses that was born in the

realm of faith is now struggling with

doubt

moses’s mother gave birth to him at a

time when he was supposed to be killed

for being a boy

and yet his mother had faith for his

life

and because she had faith for his life

she partnered with god to create an

opportunity for him to escape death

he was born in the realm of faith

isn’t it interesting how what starts

with faith

can end in doubt

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a lot of times god allows us to feel

enough faith to get started

but it doesn’t feel like enough faith to

sustain the journey

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has anyone ever come to a place where

their faith needs a refill

it’s one thing when you have enough

faith for god doing or changing what you

know is wrong in your life but what do

you do when something starts off with

faith i knew it was god i know that god

put me in this position i know that god

allowed me to be a part of this family

but now what started with faith is now

ending in doubt now i’m doubting myself

i i felt so confident about who i was i

felt so confident about this ministry

confident about this word and now what

started in faith there’s this moment

guys when i’m preaching sometimes and i

feel so on fire when i’m praying for the

word and i feel so on fire when i close

that laptop but there is a moment on

this stage where i start off in faith

and i realize that if i don’t show up in

the fullness of who i am then the part

of me that doubts that i should be up

here will come up here and hijack this

message how is it that i start in faith

but i end in doubt and i just wanted you

to know that it is not uncommon to start

with faith and then end with doubt but i

hear god saying that you get to choose

if doubt is the end that you get to

choose whether or not you’re going to

keep pressing forward and clear your

mind so that the holy ghost can flow

through you in a fresh new way i hear

god saying that even though you started

in faith and you found yourself in a

place of doubt it doesn’t mean that the

holy spirit can’t reach down in that

doubt and pull you right on out of the

grasp of the enemy doubt is a trick of

the enemy trying to make you believe

that you are not who god has called you

to be doubt is a trick of the enemy

trying to make you feel that you are

inadequate for what god has called you

to do but when you come to a place where

you say i’m going to start doubting

myself but i’m not going to doubt what

god says i’m going to doubt me because

i’m trying to talk myself out of this

i’m going to doubt me because i’m trying

to convince myself i don’t belong here

but when i put that down on me it means

i’m putting faith on god i can’t trust

every thought i have about myself i

can’t trust every plan that i have for

myself i’ve got more doubt on me but i

got more faith with god because of the

doubt that i put on myself i want to

talk to some real people today not those

people who say that they always think

the right thoughts and they never run

out of faith i want to talk to somebody

who needs to start doubting themselves i

know it’s against what culture says i

know you’ll never see this posted on

instagram but i’m telling you there are

moments in your life when you need to

doubt yourself because you will sleep on

you you will talk yourself out of

destiny you will convince yourself that

you don’t belong but when you say i’m

going to believe what god says i’m going

to move forward in the direction that

god has called me to be you’ll be

standing in rooms that you couldn’t even

imagine because god’s faith

god’s trust god’s picture of who you are

led you

when your own doubt was trying to hold

you captive

moses

born a hebrew

started in the realm of faith

but he couldn’t quite figure out

how do i navigate

being hebrew in my ethnicity

but being egyptian in my upbringing

and he tried to balance it and tried to

navigate it for about 40 years

until he came to a place where he

decided to move away

from the place of doubt

oh god help me to say it the way i

studied it

doubt can be so expensive

that instead of leaning into doubt

we choose instead to live in such a way

that the doubt doesn’t scare us

god i want to

avoid doubt by any means necessary

and because i want to avoid doubt by any

means necessary i’m going to relocate

myself from where you place me

because sometimes god places us in

environments and circumstances that make

us question who we are

the goal is that we would question who

we are and receive who god says we are

but because we can’t survive the

questioning of who we are we leave the

relationship we leave the job we leave

the ministry because you’re causing me

to feel so doubtful about myself that

i’m going to move away from this place

that is meant to transform me oh i hear

god saying that somebody left because

you started doubting yourself and i hear

god saying that if you would have stayed

in position a little bit longer you

would have seen that doubt was the wound

that i was going to use for

transformation to bring about faith that

you never experienced i hear god saying

that sometimes you gotta wrestle with

doubt sometimes you gotta wrestle doubt

down to the ground until faith comes up

and says i had to wrestle you down right

here oh god i feel like riffing cause

this don’t have anything to do with my

note but when moses left he gave up

territory when no with moses left he

gave up identity and god says i’m not

going to allow you to stay away from the

place that is meant to transform you i

don’t know who you are but i hear god

saying that you’ve got to go back to

that place where you gave up so that you

can recognize that until you wrestle

that doubt that’s down on the inside of

you then power cannot be released

through you you got to wrestle that

doubt down to the ground because if you

don’t wrestle that doubt down it’s going

to pull you away from where god can use

you i know you don’t feel qualified i

know you don’t think you’re ready but i

hear god saying that’s just your doubt

talking and i hear god saying that you

got to start wrestling with doubt you

got to start putting your paws on doubt

you got to start speaking back to doubt

and letting doubt know you may be right

but i’m going to stay here because it’s

where god placed me you may be right but

i’m going to stay positioned here

because god called me here in this

moment i feel like prophesying in this

place i feel like doing something crazy

in this place because god’s calling me

out of my own town and god told me sarah

if you come out of town i still haven’t

seen what you can do you still haven’t

heard what will come out of you but you

gotta wrestle that doubt down to the

ground you gotta get a hold of that

doubt stop running from it and start

looking at it head on greater is he that

is in me then he that is in the world

i’m gonna have a standoff with doubt

because doubt cannot stand in the

presence of god

i feel the presence of god in this place

that’s gotta let somebody go

i’m not even talking to you anymore

i want to talk to your doubt

i want to talk to that thing that’s down

on the inside of you that keeps pulling

you back that keeps making you question

yourself that makes you want to quit and

you just got started how could you quit

and i haven’t even gotten you to the

finish line yet

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doubt you can’t stay here

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doubt you gotta let her go

doubt you gotta get your hands off of

him it is a trick of the enemy and i

rebuke you in the name of jesus and i

prophesy in the name of jesus that every

stronghold is gonna come down every

mental paradigm that keeps making you

feel that doubt you are that anointed

you are that appointed you are the one

for the job and no one else can do it

but you it is you and you alone and

until you get rid of that doubt you may

see progress but you won’t see

transformation because the

transformation can’t come

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until you wrestle with doubt

moses has got to

wrestle this thing down

moses has got to wrestle this thing down

cause he’s got to be in position

the time has come who are you who are

you watching this message the time has

come for him to step into the fullness

of who he is the time has come for him

to realize why he had to be saved when

other people couldn’t be saved you’ve

been wondering god why me i’m no

different i’m no special than anyone

else and god said stop asking me

questions and step into it the time has

come for you to step into this thing

it’s time for you to come out of that

land of unbelief it’s time for you to

come out of that land of comfort it’s

time for you to become

and bring your doubt with you

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because god’s got an answer for that

i don’t think i can do it god says bring

your doubt with you

i got something for that bring your pain

with you bring your second guessing with

you i got something for that when i get

finished with you there will be no doubt

when god gets finished with you there

will be no doubt that god was with you

every step of the way that the weapons

were formed but they didn’t prosper god

says when i get done they’ll have to let

you go

and moses

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moses is stepping into something

and he’s bringing his doubt with him

y’all i’ve been preaching

for a few years now

but i’ve been preaching with doubt

i’ve been preaching with doubt

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and i brought my doubt with me but i

still said yes

i brought my doubt with me but we still

went on tours

i brought my doubt with me but i still

had a conference

because the answer to doubt is faith in

action and every time i kept pushing i

wanted doubt to know that you couldn’t

dictate who i was gonna be you’re gonna

have to come and sit in the audience

while i tell these women to refuse to

lose that is gonna have to come and sit

in the audience while i tell the nations

to activate that i’m going to take you

with me everywhere god takes me and i’m

going to let you come with me because

when god gets finished there will be no

doubt

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moses

gets ready to go i’m packing up my doubt

and i’m gonna move to that city i’m

packing up my doubt

and i’m gonna go back to that place i’m

packing up my doubt and i’m gonna be

your mouthpiece i’m packing up my doubt

but god i just have a few questions what

am i gonna do

if they don’t believe me

god you finally convinced me

but what about them

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what if the very people i’m called to

don’t believe that you called me

god says i’m gonna give you three

weapons

three tools to use

when you have to wrestle with the doubt

connected to your call

three weapons three weapons

i’m gonna give them to you real fast

god says to moses

and if you’re taking notes

this might be what you want to write

down this is what i want to stick with

us

more than anything

god says to moses

well first i’ll say moses asks what am i

going to say

if they don’t believe me

and god doesn’t give moses words to say

back

if i say god what am i supposed to say

i’m expecting for god to give me

something to say god doesn’t give him

words he gives him action

don’t worry about what you’re going to

say just focus on what i give you to do

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your greatest ability to hush your

naysayers has nothing to do with what

you say back and everything to do with

what you act on as it relates to what

god gave you

god gives them something to act on

if you want to silence the doubt god

says act on it

so he gives him he says that staff

that’s in your hand

the first weapon

that moses is going to use to wrestle

doubt is already in his hand

he says take that staff

that’s in your hand

he didn’t have to gather anything

he didn’t have to go and get someone he

didn’t have to go meet someone it’s

already in your hand your weapon for

doubt is already in your hand

and he says take that

and throw it on the ground take what’s

in your hand my question was when did

moses get this staff

because i wanted to understand how did

moses come to a place where he already

had it in his hand because i want you to

understand how you’ve come to a place

where you already have it in your hand

what you’re going to use what god is

going to allow you to use to fight doubt

is already in your hand

and god simply told me he picked it up

along the way

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that’s so good to me

because a lot of times we think that the

things that we’ve picked up along the

way the experiences that we have picked

up along the way cannot be used for what

god is calling us to as a matter of fact

if we’re honest some of us believe the

fact that we picked up some things along

the way is exactly why we have a reason

to doubt because if you knew what i

picked up along the way then you would

know that i shouldn’t be standing here

but god says i want you to understand

that i can use what you picked up along

the way whose word is that you’ve picked

up some things along the way some things

that look useful some things that have

made your heart hard some things that

don’t even make sense god why would you

have me working that job god says

because i needed you to pick it up along

the way god why would you take me

through that relationship and then allow

it to break me god says because i needed

you to pick up some things along the way

because when you take what you picked up

along the way and throw it at something

you’ll see the power connected to what

you picked up along the way god help me

it doesn’t matter what you picked up

along the way what matters the most is

how you throw it at what god is doing

when you throw it at what god is doing

you’ll start reaching people you could

have never reached and they’ll wonder

how did you do it how did you connect

with those people and you’ll know it’s

just something that i picked up along

the way the weapon for your doubt

is in the experiences that you picked up

along the way

when you use those experiences don’t

don’t hoard them

because so often we hoard those

experiences we hoard those lessons we

just keep them tucked away on the inside

thinking they have no value

but it wasn’t until moses threw it at

something

that he saw that it was more than what

he thought it was

as a matter of fact it scared him

when he threw that staff to the ground

when i was studying that part of the

message god said to me specifically that

there’s somebody who’s going to be

connected to this word and you’re gonna

be shocked at what happens when you

throw what god gave you into the

direction of what god is doing

god i didn’t know

that you could use this for that

god i didn’t know that you could take

the foolish things of the world god i

didn’t know that you could do that i

didn’t know that you could use this for

that i didn’t know that you could use my

past for my present god i didn’t know

that that pain was going to turn to

purpose god i didn’t know that you were

going to take that heartbreak and turn

it into transformation how could you

turn it into ministry how could you turn

it into a business god says what you

picked up along the way will help to

silence your doubt

the second thing he does

you remember the text he put his hand in

his bosom

and he pulled it out and it was leprosy

and then he put his hand back in his

bosom and he pulled it out and it was

clean

the weapons that we are going to use to

fight doubt

it is one already in our hand

and two

already in our hand

it’s

you’re holding it and you are

it you’ve gone through it but you are it

i’m just gonna tell you all my business

activate slash getting to know pastor

sarah when i was asking god how did this

message apply to me

god kept saying that teen pregnancy that

you think made your ministry

was just what was in your hand it was

the staff

and my doubt resonates with me

because it is me thinking that it had it

not been for that teen pregnancy that

that i wouldn’t have an anointing

that had it not been for what i’d gone

through

that i wouldn’t have any power any glory

or the ability to help other people and

god says you keep saying that and as

long as you believe that story then

you’ll think that you’re here because of

what’s in your hand but i just want you

to understand that it’s not just what’s

in your hand it’s what i put down on the

inside of you too and what you went

through just broke open the seal i want

to talk to somebody who’s been thinking

that the only reason why you’re in this

room is because of a connection the only

reason why you’ve got this opportunity

is because of something that you’ve gone

through and i hear god saying that it’s

time to cancel the struggle olympics

that i anointed everybody that i put in

this earth and what’s happened to you is

just broken open the seal of what i

already placed down on the inside of you

i wish i could say that thing the way

that i feel it but i heard i heard god

tell me when i was studying this message

you were anointed before you got

pregnant i predestined this moment for

your life that pregnancy was just

helping to crack open the seal this is

important for someone to understand

because you’ll continue to believe that

something needs to happen to you in

order for you to be anointed and i hear

god saying before i formed you in your

mother’s womb i knew you you were

anointed before you ever went through it

and you will be anointed if you never go

through it again you don’t have to go

through struggle in order to be anointed

that that struggle that you go through

is just gonna pop the oil for the

anointing that’s already in you that oil

is already down on the inside of you so

anytime you start that olive already has

oil in it the crushing produces what’s

already in it you were already gifted

you were already talented just because

someone got you into the room just

because you had an experience doesn’t

mean that the experience put it in you

god put that gift in you god put that

oil in me god put that anointing down on

the inside of me and everything that

happened for me was just cracking open

the seal and anytime you get in some

struggle i want you to start recognizing

that god must have some more oil down on

the inside of me god must have something

else that he put down on me god crack it

open god break it open because it’s

already in you

it’s not just what you do with your hand

it is your hand itself

i can’t move past this point until i get

it or somebody gets it

i’m gonna preach myself out of doubt and

i’m gonna take someone else with me god

said i put that down on the inside of

you before they even knew you were

coming into the world you’ve got a

divine date with destiny moses didn’t

become moses when he stepped back into

egypt he was born a deliverer

you were born that way

you were born compassionate

you were born sensitive

you were born that communicator god said

i gave that to you

so don’t make it become

something that was produced as a result

of experiences when it started in heaven

it started in heaven

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and what happened along the way what you

picked up along the way

is an extension of what’s already in you

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it’s difficult

to come to a place where you just trust

that who you are in god

is enough

with no additions

imagine if moses

was standing in front of pharaoh but he

didn’t have his staff

he would think to himself i can’t show

up in this moment because i don’t have

my staff

god wanted him to know before he even

stood in front of

pharaoh it’s not just in his staff

it’s in him

what is your crutch

that you have come to believe makes you

who you are

what is that crutch that you’re carrying

that you feel like if i don’t have it

then i can’t show up in this moment

i was about to come out and preach and i

don’t have my childhood bible with me

and god says you don’t have to have your

childhood bible in order to deliver what

i gave you to say

that’s your crutch

i feel like god is bringing us to a

place

where we can stand flat-footed in our

identity and believe that it is enough

without any doubt

i know you don’t want to do it without

that person you lost but that person was

an extension of the anointing it was not

the extent of the anointing

i know you don’t want to face that room

i know you don’t want to face this new

life i know you don’t want to step into

this new identity without the things

that have become your staff your support

system but god says just as they were

anointed to be your staff you are

anointed to be you do you hear me

you are anointed to be who god is

calling you to be

and you’ve got to be willing to come out

of that place of doubt

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and trust god’s opinion over your own

to just to trust god’s power over the

power of doubt

my challenge for myself

and maybe it’s the challenge for you too

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is to stop believing

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the anointing happened on accident

or that the anointing is just temporary

but to fully embrace the fact

that it’s just in me

it’s just in me it’s always been in me

there wasn’t just this moment where god

says i’m gonna deposit it the anointing

that god placed on your life was not an

afterthought

it wasn’t a consolation prize whose word

is this is my word who who else

the gift was not a consolation prize

that because you didn’t get x y and z

i’m gonna give you anointing

that anointing was there before the

trauma ever happened

and if you don’t come out of the place

of doubt

you’ll think that you only need trauma

in order to progress

instead of recognizing that the trauma

just

broke the seal open

the third thing i’m almost out of time

it’s very easy very simple

then i’m going to pray with you

the third sign that god gives moses to

fight is dealt with

he says you won’t get it

until you go

he said it’ll be in the river

you’re not standing by a river

but i’ve got provision connected to

where you’re headed

that will help you fight the doubt when

you get there

when you get to the place when you

finally muster up the courage

to trust what’s in your hand and to

trust what’s in you

you’ll still have opportunity for doubt

but if you stay close to the river

the river is the other weapon for doubt

in my text it says that

you’ll take water from the river

and pour it on the dry land

and the water which you take from the

river will become blood on dry land

god was telling moses if you stay close

to the river

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you’ll be close enough to fight against

doubt

i gotta stay close to the river guys

the river is where i fight the doubt

the same river that carried you into

safety moses

that same river that preserved your life

80 years ago it’s that same river

that’s going to help you fight against

doubt

when you came to know the lord maybe

somebody’s watching in this

is just you dipping your toe in the

river

someone else is watching and you know

where the river is but you lost your way

somewhere along the way

god says i want you to come into the

river

i want you to live your life in such a

way

that you can trust

the movement

of the river that you can pull from the

river anytime that you need a reminder

that doubt cannot have the final say

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god what is our river

the river we have is through jesus

the closer i stay to jesus

the more weapons i have against doubt

jesus says in the new testament

that he who believes in him that there

will be

rivers

of living water

flowing through our belly

so when i stay close to jesus i stay

close to the river

and i need to be close to the river

because i’m wrestling with doubt

i’m going with

i’m going with wherever god takes me but

sometimes my doubt is coming too

sometimes there’s new doubt along the

way

i only had enough faith to get here but

i didn’t realize how hard it was going

to be when i got here and now i have new

doubt based off of the landscape that i

see but when i stay close to the river

the new doubt doesn’t scare me i want to

give you tools family

for every season every stage of life

and those tools come down to those three

things that god gave moses

don’t you love that god is the same

yesterday today and forevermore

because those same tools that god gave

moses

are the tools that he has available to

us as well

that when we throw what we picked up

along the way

in the direction of what god is doing

that there will be no doubt that god is

with us

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how are you using those experiences how

are you using that talent how are you

using those lessons you learned along

the way certainly there’s a non-profit

somewhere that could benefit from it

certainly there’s a ministry there’s a

person there’s a soul that could benefit

from what you picked up along the way

what about owning our identity

trusting in who we are

that’s a weapon too

where you don’t feel like you don’t have

what it takes just because you don’t

have what it took

moses used that staff to get him there

but god says i could just send you

without the staff and accomplish my will

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you got to trust who god says you are

but that last thing the river is a

decision

that requires faith

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do you believe

that if you stay connected with god

that you’ll always have the ability to

wrestle and win

against doubt

if i follow the steps of jesus

if i allow the holy spirit to lead me

i’ll always have access

to the ultimate weapon against god i

want to pray with you

if it’s okay i’m going to pray in

reverse

i’m not going to pray that you come to a

place where you recognize what’s in your

hand or you recognize who you are

i’m going to pray instead

that you would simply

stay close to the river

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if you stay close to the river

you’ll have everything you need

you’ll have a mirror you’ll have trees

planted by living waters to make a staff

when you need it

you have perspective on what you’ve gone

through you’ll have peace you’ll have

comfort you’ll have joy most importantly

you will experience the absence of doubt

i want to pray with you spirit

spirit of the living god

you are the river

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and you sent this word as a river to run

through our fears to run through our

doubt to confront our situation and our

circumstance god

we acknowledge that this is not just a

word it is a river

and it is meant to move us and change us

and transform us

father we repent

and the holiest

most sacred way

god i believe doubt over

what i believed from you

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god i believed fear over what i believed

from you god i repent

forgiven my doubt more power than you’ve

granted it

god the truth is i’m just scared

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the truth is we’re just nervous to get

it wrong god the truth is that we were

just nervous that we couldn’t take

another heartbreak we were calling it

nerves but you call it doubt we were

calling it fear but you call it doubt

god if it’s doubt then we say

yes we’ve been feeling uncertain

and in moments we’ve had a lack of

conviction but you sent this word and it

confronted us

and we want to move to a place of

certainty

jesus i thank you that you’re meeting

each and every last one of my brothers

and sisters right where they need it

right now

and that as you meet with them

that you are meeting them with

compassion

and conviction

conviction that says it’s time to move

conviction that says it’s time to grow

conviction that says step into it

you’ve got this step into it you won’t

do it alone step into it heaven has

already gone ahead of you step into it

this is a part of why god has created

you i hear you cheering us on jesus

thank you for being in our cheering

section jesus thank you for making

intercession on our behalf jesus thank

you for calling this doubt out and

putting it on the table so we can

finally deal with it and we see it and

we don’t want it to stay with us any

longer so spirit of the living god we

make a demand on doubt and we rebuke it

right now in the name of jesus we

destroy it right now in the name of

jesus lord let your power fall as only

it can do we are covered in the blood

and if we are covered in the blood then

doubt cannot penetrate our destiny doubt

cannot penetrate our identity we rebuke

you down and we send you back to hell

where you came from and when doubt gets

up off of us let it get off of

everything connected to us you can’t go

with us any further you can’t move into

this ministry you can’t move into this

marriage doubt you can’t go you’re no

longer welcomed here you can’t move into

this family doubt you cannot stay here

because the presence of god has stepped

in

we receive you jesus

as continuous salvation

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sanctification coming to us now

god make us more holy

more righteous more beautiful

and less like a reflection of what we’ve

gone through

because where the spirit of the lord is

there is liberty

we receive our freedom

and father if anyone’s watching right

now

and they’re just dipping their toe in

the water

i hope this word pulled them all the way

in

i hope it submerged them god

god i pray

that after this is done that they would

take the time to connect with us

so that we can lead them in the prayer

of salvation

and they can begin this beautiful

sanctification god thank you

for allowing their heart to be pulled in

the direction

of jesus

may they receive him

as their lord and their savior

the one rescuer who can rescue them from

anything they’ve gone through

in jesus name i pray

amen

amen family you know you got to say it

with me

i shared so much in my heart with you in

this word

my own wrestling with doubt

and i’m not afraid to say that

i’ve been wrestling with god i’m not

afraid to say it because i’m human

and one thing i did say when i started

preaching and i didn’t i doubt it

seriously that this was a good idea but

i told god

i’m gonna do it anyway but i’ma always

keep it as 100 as i can

because i want people to know they

aren’t alone

i hope in some way as you were watching

this

that you felt a little less lonely

and a lot more convicted

to surrender that doubt so that you can

see what springs up in the place where

your doubt once lived

i’m personally going to sow into this

word

we’re going to take our tithes and our

offerings but

for me this is going to be something

more personal and intimate and i want to

ask you to join me if you feel led

i want to sow

into the place where doubt once lived

this word this moment

is something that god brought to me

and now what’s coming through me

but i don’t want to miss it

i don’t want to put the microphone down

and go back to second guessing

i want to stay anchored to this word and

i want you to stay anchored to it too

so whatever a sacrifice is for you i’m

not going to call out a number

but maybe you sow on the level that

doubt has cost you

if doubt has only cost you a little then

maybe you just sow a little

but if you have a feeling that doubt is

costing you a lot

maybe you should sow into this word

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so that you can send a sign to doubt

that there will be harvest in the place

where you took up space

for those of you who are giving your

tithes that’s

10 of your increase

it’s our way of saying god every

job every gig every opportunity that i

have received may have come from a

company or organization but ultimately

the gift and the talent came from you

there are instructions on the screen i’m

not going to make this long

but if you’re sewing whether you’re

giving your tithes or you’re giving a

special offering connected to this word

i want you to find a way to lift it to

heaven

if it’s your phone girl

fella put me up in the air that’s fine

if it’s your laptop throw it in the air

if it’s your tv just tilt the screen up

a little bit put your hand in the air

because we want to make this an offering

an offering is something that says

i want to reach up to heaven with

heaven touched down but heaven you don’t

have to come any further i’m going to

reach up to heaven with this

and so i want you to put it in the air

father receive

our offering

receive our tithes god you keep touching

down

just when i’m ready to give up just when

i don’t know what to do you keep

touching down god i felt you touched

down in this place

you touch down in my soul you touch it

down in my doubt

and father i’m offering this seed as as

acknowledgement that i see you i heard

you

i received that word god

now i’m presenting this offering to you

as a sign of my obedience

to no longer being ruled and governed by

doubt

receive this offering god and build your

church

may you continue to snatch souls out of

the hands of doubt souls out of the

plans of the enemy god do with this seed

which only you can do and that is turn

it into transformed lives god thank you

for this rich ministry

that it’s not just changing lives but it

is feeding souls and helping those in

need god thank you for allowing us to be

a part of what you’re doing in the earth

continue to build your church

and thank you for building me in the

process

in jesus name

amen

amen family man i love you so much i’m

going to be walking this thing out would

you all pray with me i’m going to keep

praying for you and with you

next week is going to be just an

incredible week for us with woman evolve

and god told me that i couldn’t go into

it holding on to this doubt that the

only reason why i’m in this position is

because of who my father is or because

of what i’ve gone through and i just

want you to touch and agree with me that

as we walk into woman evolve and if

you’re going to be there i can’t wait to

see you but as we walk into one evolve

that god would help me to step fully

into who he’s called me to be i’m going

to pray with you you’re going to pray

with me and we’re going to keep

activating until the wills fall off i

love you family i’ll see you next time