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god
i’m so excited about what god’s going to
do through this word i was praying and
if you have not been connected to this
series about evidence i have to tell you
you are really missing out like i don’t
like fomo but i’m telling you you need
to have a case of fomo because pt has
been just laying down the word week
after week after week on sunday he
preached about faith and it got me so
together that i wanted to share with you
not just what i took from the message
but how it challenged me and what god
said in response i love being under pt’s
leadership because i always know that
i’m going to leave with the word that is
literally going to confront where my
weaknesses are but also introduce an
opportunity for strength i took that
word into my prayer closet and i came
out with a word that i think is going to
bless you
god knows it blessed me
my subject is wrestling doubt wrestling
doubt
and i’m going to be in exodus
exodus 4 and 1. now i’m going to be
honest with you i’ve got a lot of text
here but my prayer is that it’ll make
perfect sense when everything is said
and done exodus four and one i’m reading
from the new king james version
and my text says then moses answered and
said
but suppose they will not believe me
or listen to my voice
suppose they say the lord has not
appeared to you so the lord said to him
what is that in your hand
he said a rod
and he said god says to cast it on the
ground so he cast it on the ground and
it became a serpent and moses fled from
it
then the lord said to moses
reach out your hand take it by the tail
and he reached out his hand and caught
it and it became a rod in his hand
that they may believe that the lord god
of their father the god of abraham the
god of isaac the god of jacob has
appeared to you
furthermore the lord said to him now put
your hand in your bosom
and he put his hand in his bosom
and when he took it out behold his hand
was leprous like snow
and he said put your hand in your bosom
again so he put his hand in his bosom
again and drew it out of his bosom
and behold it was restored like his
other flesh
then it will be if they do not believe
you nor heed the message of the first
sign that they may believe the message
of the latter sign
and it shall be if they do not believe
even these two signs or listen to your
voice that you’d shall take your water
from the river and pour it on the dry
land
the water which you take from the river
will become
blood on the dry land
he gave three signs
i should have given you a little bit of
background for those of you unfamiliar
with this text
moses has
uh born in egypt he was born in egypt
and he fled from egypt because he was a
hebrew child born in egypt and he’s been
in this place where he fled for 40 years
and god has this conversation with him
and yet god says something to him that
is so unfathomable that requires so much
faith that he could not help but
experience doubt
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i want to speak to you with that in mind
spirit of the living god
man some of us know all too well what
it’s like to wrestle with doubt
to wonder how in the world could you
choose me to do something that requires
this much faith
god if we’re honest somebody’s watching
tonight and faith is too much of a
stretch
they’ve been living in this space of
doubt for so long that it has become
comfortable but father you gave me this
word for my own doubt
and because it brought me great
breakthrough god i am believing that
there is an impartation that’s going to
happen in the spirit realm
that even though we are not in the same
room we are in the same presence god
because your presence is with me and
your presence is with them we are in the
same presence and in your presence there
will be a fulfillment of every area
where we have experienced brokenness let
your glory fall as only it can do
and as your glory falls god let it
confront the areas of our heart where
there is doubt make us tender god make
us aware help us to see the areas where
we’ve just pulled back
but may this message propel us forward
even if it means stretching us god i
thank you that this is your word these
are your people this is your moment so
let there be none of me only you your
word standing tall on the inside of me
because i have no doubt
that if you step into the room
change is the only outcome if you step
into the room transformation is the only
outcome so be with them god in that car
in that office in that living room in
that kitchen god meet them where they
need you the most
and walk with them god
until they become one with you
and can say thank you on the other side
of eternity
in jesus name
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amen i don’t know if you’re watching
activate for the first time but there is
a rule where you have to type amen in
the comments or the prayer is not sealed
so i’m gonna need you to drop that amen
in the comments
you know i was studying about
doubt
in preparation for this message maybe i
don’t know if i should tell you about
how i started studying about doubt or
why i started studying about doubt
i started studying about doubt because
when i was listening to pt’s message
about faith it was so good to my soul
like it i mean
the insight connected to it the standing
under and then over like some of these
things won’t make any sense until you
actually watch the message but i was so
challenged by that word that i started
asking god where are the areas of my
life where i need to have an increase of
faith i think that that’s always
something that we have to be willing to
ask ourselves it doesn’t matter how long
you’ve been saved it doesn’t matter how
long you’ve been in church if you aren’t
asking yourself
god what is the area of my life that
needs an increase of faith you’re not in
relationship with god you’re in religion
but to be in relationship with god is to
say this word has resonated with me so
greatly what area of my life is it
watering
because i want to understand where to
look for growth
when a word comes into your heart when
it comes into your spirit it comes into
your mind and you just can’t shake it
off and it’s not just like oh that was a
good word it’s something that sticks
with you you have to be willing to ask
god what is the area in my life that
this word is watering because i want to
see when the seed starts sprouting i
want to see when that seed begins to
turn into fruit god this word is
watering me and i kept asking god what’s
happening and he told me through my
prayer and meditation he was like you’ve
got doubt
and i didn’t understand why he would say
that to me
because i didn’t really know where the
area of my doubt was but the more that i
began to study and dig into this word i
realized that i had been living in a
place of doubt in one particular area
for so long
that doubt had became had become home
for me
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yeah me
i think it’s important that we have
authenticity and transparency in our
relationship right because i’m not
telling you that i’m the standard i’m
telling you that i’m on a journey just
like you are and i received a word in
this word illuminated an area of my life
where i’ve had doubt for so long that
it’s become comfortable
this word doubt i want to define it for
you
the word doubt
means a feeling of uncertainty
or lack of conviction a feeling of
uncertainty or lack of conviction i
would have never considered doubt
as being a feeling of uncertainty
because when i feel uncertain i just
feel uncertain i don’t necessarily say
that i am doubting something but i feel
like this definition helps me to
understand that in seasons of
uncertainty the uncertainty is probably
also connected to this doubt if i feel
uncertain about whether or not i should
start a business there’s probably a
doubt that says i don’t know if i could
succeed as a business owner if i feel
uncertain about whether or not i should
apologize it’s because i have some kind
of doubt that me apologizing may change
the way the other person sees me there
is something to be said about
uncertainty having connected to it this
layer and level of doubt
i started beginning to process my own
life
and i recognize that doubt has a subtle
introduction into our lives
and i was thinking about how god was
convicting me
about my own doubt i began to recognize
how the enemy uses doubt
is subtle
it’s never blatant
but it’s subtle and that it relocates
you from a place of conviction to a
place of uncertainty and if god can get
you into a place of conviction then he
knows i can get any word to you and
you’ll move based off of that word but
if the enemy can get you into a place
where you have a lack of conviction
you’ll just start floating through life
when you’re supposed to be taking charge
having dominion and subduing the earth
that’s why doubt is dangerous i want to
let you know something doubt is not
something we should take lightly doubt
is not something that we should just
adjust to doubt is a threat to your
destiny that’s why the serpent comes in
and he’s talking to the woman and he
says to the woman did god really say i
don’t have to tell you to eat from the
fruit i don’t have to lure you with
anything that’s going to make you
greater than where you are right now all
i have to do is introduce doubt if i
introduce doubt you’ll be open to
anything if i introduce doubt you’ll
start questioning what god said if i
introduce doubt then you’ll become a
double-minded man unstable in all of
your ways am i talking to anybody who
understands what it’s like to have doubt
i know that i should but i also don’t
believe that i can i know that i can but
i don’t know how and so i’m
double-minded i’m living in a space of
doubt i don’t know who you are but i
want you to recognize that that doubt is
a weapon against your destiny that doubt
is trying to change the way that you see
god that doubt is trying to change the
way that you show up in the earth that
doubt is trying to make you no longer
live with conviction because when you
live with conviction you are a weapon
when you live with conviction anything
you do has god’s dna on it there’s
something dangerous about someone who
lives with conviction i told god when i
was studying for this word god don’t
just give me a word give me conviction
about what this word can do and that’s
the way we’ve got to show up in our
relationships i want a relationship that
i can show up to with conviction i want
to be in a ministry where i can show up
to that ministry with conviction where i
believe down on the inside of me that i
am aligned i know exactly where i’m
supposed to be i’m saying exactly what
i’m supposed to say because i’m aligned
with conviction conviction brought me
here i didn’t want to be here but
conviction kept pushing me i didn’t want
to say it but conviction kept pushing me
is there anyone in this space that knows
what it’s like to live a life of
conviction that conviction will change
you that conviction will have you
looking in the mirror and you don’t even
recognize who you are anymore because
conviction changed my identity
conviction changed the way that i saw
myself conviction changed what i thought
was possible conviction started making
me think that it didn’t matter what i
went through that god was still pushing
me conviction is when god starts pushing
you in your back and instead of you
resisting you start moving in the
direction of what god is doing god i
feel you pushing me god i feel you’re
stirring me that’s conviction working
through you it’s moving you in the
direction of your destiny somebody needs
to start praying for conviction god
convict me until i change my ways god
convict me until i don’t care what i
look like when i do it god convicts me
until i care more about what you think
than what other people think somebody’s
got to start praying for conviction
because nothing changes without
conviction nothing is transformed
without conviction when you get a
conviction down on the inside of you it
doesn’t matter what who what anybody
says to you because the conviction is in
me you can say what you want to but
conviction is that when you can do what
you want to but conviction is in me i
messed around and got some conviction
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so to live in doubt
is to live with a lack of conviction
it’s to flow through life letting life
happen to you
and i hear god saying that conviction
cuts through the noise
conviction elevates your perspective
convention conviction helps you
to navigate
the tough moments
it makes survival a necessity
not a luxury
i gotta survive this because someone is
counting on me
this is why you have to be careful
who you’re connected to
because when you’re trying to protect
your conviction
you can’t expose yourself to other
people’s doubt
doubt is contagious
and all of a sudden you’ll go from
feeling convicted to feeling weak
and now their doubt has become your
disease and you couldn’t protect your
conviction and you’re both sitting here
stagnant but just like doubt is
contagious baby so is conviction have
you ever been working out to next to
somebody who was going so hard like they
was training for the olympics and you
thought to yourself if you don’t go that
hard i’ma go that hard too conviction oh
my god i want to thank god for a minute
for the people who came into my life and
took my conviction to the next level now
i want to be holy in the way that i see
you striving for holiness now i want to
be righteous in the way i see you right
striving for righteousness there’s
something powerful about being connected
to
the contagious nature of conviction
so you got to know when doubt has become
your home
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you’re watching this message
and maybe doubt isn’t your home
in one area of your life
but i want you to be open to the
possibility that doubt has become your
home
in another area of your life
and i want you to consider what it would
look like
if we just focused in for 20 minutes
and you let me speak to that area of
doubt
where is it where is it where is it god
bring it to the surface
god you didn’t just give me this word so
that we can listen to it and go back to
being the same
god i want you to bring that area of
doubt to the surface so that we can have
deliverance oh god i feel your power so
that we can have deliverance from that
area of doubt i hear god saying that
somebody’s going to listen to this
message and they’re never going to
battle with doubt again that someone’s
going to listen to this message and
they’re going to recognize how to fight
back when it comes to doubt again i hear
god saying that somebody’s been drowning
in doubt and somebody’s getting ready to
just let go and allow doubt to have the
final say but i hear god saying that he
wouldn’t let you go out that way and
this word is going to pull you out if
that’s your word i want you to type i
receive it i receive it i receive it
there’s a lifeline headed your direction
there’s a next level of salvation headed
your direction you got saved from the
world but god said now i want to save
you from what god in you when you were
in the world i want to save you from the
mindsets that god implanted in you while
you were in the world
and doubt is one of them let’s get into
this word
moses
is struggling with doubt moses
the same moses that was born in the
realm of faith is now struggling with
doubt
moses’s mother gave birth to him at a
time when he was supposed to be killed
for being a boy
and yet his mother had faith for his
life
and because she had faith for his life
she partnered with god to create an
opportunity for him to escape death
he was born in the realm of faith
isn’t it interesting how what starts
with faith
can end in doubt
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a lot of times god allows us to feel
enough faith to get started
but it doesn’t feel like enough faith to
sustain the journey
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has anyone ever come to a place where
their faith needs a refill
it’s one thing when you have enough
faith for god doing or changing what you
know is wrong in your life but what do
you do when something starts off with
faith i knew it was god i know that god
put me in this position i know that god
allowed me to be a part of this family
but now what started with faith is now
ending in doubt now i’m doubting myself
i i felt so confident about who i was i
felt so confident about this ministry
confident about this word and now what
started in faith there’s this moment
guys when i’m preaching sometimes and i
feel so on fire when i’m praying for the
word and i feel so on fire when i close
that laptop but there is a moment on
this stage where i start off in faith
and i realize that if i don’t show up in
the fullness of who i am then the part
of me that doubts that i should be up
here will come up here and hijack this
message how is it that i start in faith
but i end in doubt and i just wanted you
to know that it is not uncommon to start
with faith and then end with doubt but i
hear god saying that you get to choose
if doubt is the end that you get to
choose whether or not you’re going to
keep pressing forward and clear your
mind so that the holy ghost can flow
through you in a fresh new way i hear
god saying that even though you started
in faith and you found yourself in a
place of doubt it doesn’t mean that the
holy spirit can’t reach down in that
doubt and pull you right on out of the
grasp of the enemy doubt is a trick of
the enemy trying to make you believe
that you are not who god has called you
to be doubt is a trick of the enemy
trying to make you feel that you are
inadequate for what god has called you
to do but when you come to a place where
you say i’m going to start doubting
myself but i’m not going to doubt what
god says i’m going to doubt me because
i’m trying to talk myself out of this
i’m going to doubt me because i’m trying
to convince myself i don’t belong here
but when i put that down on me it means
i’m putting faith on god i can’t trust
every thought i have about myself i
can’t trust every plan that i have for
myself i’ve got more doubt on me but i
got more faith with god because of the
doubt that i put on myself i want to
talk to some real people today not those
people who say that they always think
the right thoughts and they never run
out of faith i want to talk to somebody
who needs to start doubting themselves i
know it’s against what culture says i
know you’ll never see this posted on
instagram but i’m telling you there are
moments in your life when you need to
doubt yourself because you will sleep on
you you will talk yourself out of
destiny you will convince yourself that
you don’t belong but when you say i’m
going to believe what god says i’m going
to move forward in the direction that
god has called me to be you’ll be
standing in rooms that you couldn’t even
imagine because god’s faith
god’s trust god’s picture of who you are
led you
when your own doubt was trying to hold
you captive
moses
born a hebrew
started in the realm of faith
but he couldn’t quite figure out
how do i navigate
being hebrew in my ethnicity
but being egyptian in my upbringing
and he tried to balance it and tried to
navigate it for about 40 years
until he came to a place where he
decided to move away
from the place of doubt
oh god help me to say it the way i
studied it
doubt can be so expensive
that instead of leaning into doubt
we choose instead to live in such a way
that the doubt doesn’t scare us
god i want to
avoid doubt by any means necessary
and because i want to avoid doubt by any
means necessary i’m going to relocate
myself from where you place me
because sometimes god places us in
environments and circumstances that make
us question who we are
the goal is that we would question who
we are and receive who god says we are
but because we can’t survive the
questioning of who we are we leave the
relationship we leave the job we leave
the ministry because you’re causing me
to feel so doubtful about myself that
i’m going to move away from this place
that is meant to transform me oh i hear
god saying that somebody left because
you started doubting yourself and i hear
god saying that if you would have stayed
in position a little bit longer you
would have seen that doubt was the wound
that i was going to use for
transformation to bring about faith that
you never experienced i hear god saying
that sometimes you gotta wrestle with
doubt sometimes you gotta wrestle doubt
down to the ground until faith comes up
and says i had to wrestle you down right
here oh god i feel like riffing cause
this don’t have anything to do with my
note but when moses left he gave up
territory when no with moses left he
gave up identity and god says i’m not
going to allow you to stay away from the
place that is meant to transform you i
don’t know who you are but i hear god
saying that you’ve got to go back to
that place where you gave up so that you
can recognize that until you wrestle
that doubt that’s down on the inside of
you then power cannot be released
through you you got to wrestle that
doubt down to the ground because if you
don’t wrestle that doubt down it’s going
to pull you away from where god can use
you i know you don’t feel qualified i
know you don’t think you’re ready but i
hear god saying that’s just your doubt
talking and i hear god saying that you
got to start wrestling with doubt you
got to start putting your paws on doubt
you got to start speaking back to doubt
and letting doubt know you may be right
but i’m going to stay here because it’s
where god placed me you may be right but
i’m going to stay positioned here
because god called me here in this
moment i feel like prophesying in this
place i feel like doing something crazy
in this place because god’s calling me
out of my own town and god told me sarah
if you come out of town i still haven’t
seen what you can do you still haven’t
heard what will come out of you but you
gotta wrestle that doubt down to the
ground you gotta get a hold of that
doubt stop running from it and start
looking at it head on greater is he that
is in me then he that is in the world
i’m gonna have a standoff with doubt
because doubt cannot stand in the
presence of god
i feel the presence of god in this place
that’s gotta let somebody go
i’m not even talking to you anymore
i want to talk to your doubt
i want to talk to that thing that’s down
on the inside of you that keeps pulling
you back that keeps making you question
yourself that makes you want to quit and
you just got started how could you quit
and i haven’t even gotten you to the
finish line yet
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doubt you can’t stay here
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doubt you gotta let her go
doubt you gotta get your hands off of
him it is a trick of the enemy and i
rebuke you in the name of jesus and i
prophesy in the name of jesus that every
stronghold is gonna come down every
mental paradigm that keeps making you
feel that doubt you are that anointed
you are that appointed you are the one
for the job and no one else can do it
but you it is you and you alone and
until you get rid of that doubt you may
see progress but you won’t see
transformation because the
transformation can’t come
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until you wrestle with doubt
moses has got to
wrestle this thing down
moses has got to wrestle this thing down
cause he’s got to be in position
the time has come who are you who are
you watching this message the time has
come for him to step into the fullness
of who he is the time has come for him
to realize why he had to be saved when
other people couldn’t be saved you’ve
been wondering god why me i’m no
different i’m no special than anyone
else and god said stop asking me
questions and step into it the time has
come for you to step into this thing
it’s time for you to come out of that
land of unbelief it’s time for you to
come out of that land of comfort it’s
time for you to become
and bring your doubt with you
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because god’s got an answer for that
i don’t think i can do it god says bring
your doubt with you
i got something for that bring your pain
with you bring your second guessing with
you i got something for that when i get
finished with you there will be no doubt
when god gets finished with you there
will be no doubt that god was with you
every step of the way that the weapons
were formed but they didn’t prosper god
says when i get done they’ll have to let
you go
and moses
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moses is stepping into something
and he’s bringing his doubt with him
y’all i’ve been preaching
for a few years now
but i’ve been preaching with doubt
i’ve been preaching with doubt
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and i brought my doubt with me but i
still said yes
i brought my doubt with me but we still
went on tours
i brought my doubt with me but i still
had a conference
because the answer to doubt is faith in
action and every time i kept pushing i
wanted doubt to know that you couldn’t
dictate who i was gonna be you’re gonna
have to come and sit in the audience
while i tell these women to refuse to
lose that is gonna have to come and sit
in the audience while i tell the nations
to activate that i’m going to take you
with me everywhere god takes me and i’m
going to let you come with me because
when god gets finished there will be no
doubt
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moses
gets ready to go i’m packing up my doubt
and i’m gonna move to that city i’m
packing up my doubt
and i’m gonna go back to that place i’m
packing up my doubt and i’m gonna be
your mouthpiece i’m packing up my doubt
but god i just have a few questions what
am i gonna do
if they don’t believe me
god you finally convinced me
but what about them
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what if the very people i’m called to
don’t believe that you called me
god says i’m gonna give you three
weapons
three tools to use
when you have to wrestle with the doubt
connected to your call
three weapons three weapons
i’m gonna give them to you real fast
god says to moses
and if you’re taking notes
this might be what you want to write
down this is what i want to stick with
us
more than anything
god says to moses
well first i’ll say moses asks what am i
going to say
if they don’t believe me
and god doesn’t give moses words to say
back
if i say god what am i supposed to say
i’m expecting for god to give me
something to say god doesn’t give him
words he gives him action
don’t worry about what you’re going to
say just focus on what i give you to do
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your greatest ability to hush your
naysayers has nothing to do with what
you say back and everything to do with
what you act on as it relates to what
god gave you
god gives them something to act on
if you want to silence the doubt god
says act on it
so he gives him he says that staff
that’s in your hand
the first weapon
that moses is going to use to wrestle
doubt is already in his hand
he says take that staff
that’s in your hand
he didn’t have to gather anything
he didn’t have to go and get someone he
didn’t have to go meet someone it’s
already in your hand your weapon for
doubt is already in your hand
and he says take that
and throw it on the ground take what’s
in your hand my question was when did
moses get this staff
because i wanted to understand how did
moses come to a place where he already
had it in his hand because i want you to
understand how you’ve come to a place
where you already have it in your hand
what you’re going to use what god is
going to allow you to use to fight doubt
is already in your hand
and god simply told me he picked it up
along the way
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that’s so good to me
because a lot of times we think that the
things that we’ve picked up along the
way the experiences that we have picked
up along the way cannot be used for what
god is calling us to as a matter of fact
if we’re honest some of us believe the
fact that we picked up some things along
the way is exactly why we have a reason
to doubt because if you knew what i
picked up along the way then you would
know that i shouldn’t be standing here
but god says i want you to understand
that i can use what you picked up along
the way whose word is that you’ve picked
up some things along the way some things
that look useful some things that have
made your heart hard some things that
don’t even make sense god why would you
have me working that job god says
because i needed you to pick it up along
the way god why would you take me
through that relationship and then allow
it to break me god says because i needed
you to pick up some things along the way
because when you take what you picked up
along the way and throw it at something
you’ll see the power connected to what
you picked up along the way god help me
it doesn’t matter what you picked up
along the way what matters the most is
how you throw it at what god is doing
when you throw it at what god is doing
you’ll start reaching people you could
have never reached and they’ll wonder
how did you do it how did you connect
with those people and you’ll know it’s
just something that i picked up along
the way the weapon for your doubt
is in the experiences that you picked up
along the way
when you use those experiences don’t
don’t hoard them
because so often we hoard those
experiences we hoard those lessons we
just keep them tucked away on the inside
thinking they have no value
but it wasn’t until moses threw it at
something
that he saw that it was more than what
he thought it was
as a matter of fact it scared him
when he threw that staff to the ground
when i was studying that part of the
message god said to me specifically that
there’s somebody who’s going to be
connected to this word and you’re gonna
be shocked at what happens when you
throw what god gave you into the
direction of what god is doing
god i didn’t know
that you could use this for that
god i didn’t know that you could take
the foolish things of the world god i
didn’t know that you could do that i
didn’t know that you could use this for
that i didn’t know that you could use my
past for my present god i didn’t know
that that pain was going to turn to
purpose god i didn’t know that you were
going to take that heartbreak and turn
it into transformation how could you
turn it into ministry how could you turn
it into a business god says what you
picked up along the way will help to
silence your doubt
the second thing he does
you remember the text he put his hand in
his bosom
and he pulled it out and it was leprosy
and then he put his hand back in his
bosom and he pulled it out and it was
clean
the weapons that we are going to use to
fight doubt
it is one already in our hand
and two
already in our hand
it’s
you’re holding it and you are
it you’ve gone through it but you are it
i’m just gonna tell you all my business
activate slash getting to know pastor
sarah when i was asking god how did this
message apply to me
god kept saying that teen pregnancy that
you think made your ministry
was just what was in your hand it was
the staff
and my doubt resonates with me
because it is me thinking that it had it
not been for that teen pregnancy that
that i wouldn’t have an anointing
that had it not been for what i’d gone
through
that i wouldn’t have any power any glory
or the ability to help other people and
god says you keep saying that and as
long as you believe that story then
you’ll think that you’re here because of
what’s in your hand but i just want you
to understand that it’s not just what’s
in your hand it’s what i put down on the
inside of you too and what you went
through just broke open the seal i want
to talk to somebody who’s been thinking
that the only reason why you’re in this
room is because of a connection the only
reason why you’ve got this opportunity
is because of something that you’ve gone
through and i hear god saying that it’s
time to cancel the struggle olympics
that i anointed everybody that i put in
this earth and what’s happened to you is
just broken open the seal of what i
already placed down on the inside of you
i wish i could say that thing the way
that i feel it but i heard i heard god
tell me when i was studying this message
you were anointed before you got
pregnant i predestined this moment for
your life that pregnancy was just
helping to crack open the seal this is
important for someone to understand
because you’ll continue to believe that
something needs to happen to you in
order for you to be anointed and i hear
god saying before i formed you in your
mother’s womb i knew you you were
anointed before you ever went through it
and you will be anointed if you never go
through it again you don’t have to go
through struggle in order to be anointed
that that struggle that you go through
is just gonna pop the oil for the
anointing that’s already in you that oil
is already down on the inside of you so
anytime you start that olive already has
oil in it the crushing produces what’s
already in it you were already gifted
you were already talented just because
someone got you into the room just
because you had an experience doesn’t
mean that the experience put it in you
god put that gift in you god put that
oil in me god put that anointing down on
the inside of me and everything that
happened for me was just cracking open
the seal and anytime you get in some
struggle i want you to start recognizing
that god must have some more oil down on
the inside of me god must have something
else that he put down on me god crack it
open god break it open because it’s
already in you
it’s not just what you do with your hand
it is your hand itself
i can’t move past this point until i get
it or somebody gets it
i’m gonna preach myself out of doubt and
i’m gonna take someone else with me god
said i put that down on the inside of
you before they even knew you were
coming into the world you’ve got a
divine date with destiny moses didn’t
become moses when he stepped back into
egypt he was born a deliverer
you were born that way
you were born compassionate
you were born sensitive
you were born that communicator god said
i gave that to you
so don’t make it become
something that was produced as a result
of experiences when it started in heaven
it started in heaven
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and what happened along the way what you
picked up along the way
is an extension of what’s already in you
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it’s difficult
to come to a place where you just trust
that who you are in god
is enough
with no additions
imagine if moses
was standing in front of pharaoh but he
didn’t have his staff
he would think to himself i can’t show
up in this moment because i don’t have
my staff
god wanted him to know before he even
stood in front of
pharaoh it’s not just in his staff
it’s in him
what is your crutch
that you have come to believe makes you
who you are
what is that crutch that you’re carrying
that you feel like if i don’t have it
then i can’t show up in this moment
i was about to come out and preach and i
don’t have my childhood bible with me
and god says you don’t have to have your
childhood bible in order to deliver what
i gave you to say
that’s your crutch
i feel like god is bringing us to a
place
where we can stand flat-footed in our
identity and believe that it is enough
without any doubt
i know you don’t want to do it without
that person you lost but that person was
an extension of the anointing it was not
the extent of the anointing
i know you don’t want to face that room
i know you don’t want to face this new
life i know you don’t want to step into
this new identity without the things
that have become your staff your support
system but god says just as they were
anointed to be your staff you are
anointed to be you do you hear me
you are anointed to be who god is
calling you to be
and you’ve got to be willing to come out
of that place of doubt
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and trust god’s opinion over your own
to just to trust god’s power over the
power of doubt
my challenge for myself
and maybe it’s the challenge for you too
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is to stop believing
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the anointing happened on accident
or that the anointing is just temporary
but to fully embrace the fact
that it’s just in me
it’s just in me it’s always been in me
there wasn’t just this moment where god
says i’m gonna deposit it the anointing
that god placed on your life was not an
afterthought
it wasn’t a consolation prize whose word
is this is my word who who else
the gift was not a consolation prize
that because you didn’t get x y and z
i’m gonna give you anointing
that anointing was there before the
trauma ever happened
and if you don’t come out of the place
of doubt
you’ll think that you only need trauma
in order to progress
instead of recognizing that the trauma
just
broke the seal open
the third thing i’m almost out of time
it’s very easy very simple
then i’m going to pray with you
the third sign that god gives moses to
fight is dealt with
he says you won’t get it
until you go
he said it’ll be in the river
you’re not standing by a river
but i’ve got provision connected to
where you’re headed
that will help you fight the doubt when
you get there
when you get to the place when you
finally muster up the courage
to trust what’s in your hand and to
trust what’s in you
you’ll still have opportunity for doubt
but if you stay close to the river
the river is the other weapon for doubt
in my text it says that
you’ll take water from the river
and pour it on the dry land
and the water which you take from the
river will become blood on dry land
god was telling moses if you stay close
to the river
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you’ll be close enough to fight against
doubt
i gotta stay close to the river guys
the river is where i fight the doubt
the same river that carried you into
safety moses
that same river that preserved your life
80 years ago it’s that same river
that’s going to help you fight against
doubt
when you came to know the lord maybe
somebody’s watching in this
is just you dipping your toe in the
river
someone else is watching and you know
where the river is but you lost your way
somewhere along the way
god says i want you to come into the
river
i want you to live your life in such a
way
that you can trust
the movement
of the river that you can pull from the
river anytime that you need a reminder
that doubt cannot have the final say
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god what is our river
the river we have is through jesus
the closer i stay to jesus
the more weapons i have against doubt
jesus says in the new testament
that he who believes in him that there
will be
rivers
of living water
flowing through our belly
so when i stay close to jesus i stay
close to the river
and i need to be close to the river
because i’m wrestling with doubt
i’m going with
i’m going with wherever god takes me but
sometimes my doubt is coming too
sometimes there’s new doubt along the
way
i only had enough faith to get here but
i didn’t realize how hard it was going
to be when i got here and now i have new
doubt based off of the landscape that i
see but when i stay close to the river
the new doubt doesn’t scare me i want to
give you tools family
for every season every stage of life
and those tools come down to those three
things that god gave moses
don’t you love that god is the same
yesterday today and forevermore
because those same tools that god gave
moses
are the tools that he has available to
us as well
that when we throw what we picked up
along the way
in the direction of what god is doing
that there will be no doubt that god is
with us
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how are you using those experiences how
are you using that talent how are you
using those lessons you learned along
the way certainly there’s a non-profit
somewhere that could benefit from it
certainly there’s a ministry there’s a
person there’s a soul that could benefit
from what you picked up along the way
what about owning our identity
trusting in who we are
that’s a weapon too
where you don’t feel like you don’t have
what it takes just because you don’t
have what it took
moses used that staff to get him there
but god says i could just send you
without the staff and accomplish my will
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you got to trust who god says you are
but that last thing the river is a
decision
that requires faith
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do you believe
that if you stay connected with god
that you’ll always have the ability to
wrestle and win
against doubt
if i follow the steps of jesus
if i allow the holy spirit to lead me
i’ll always have access
to the ultimate weapon against god i
want to pray with you
if it’s okay i’m going to pray in
reverse
i’m not going to pray that you come to a
place where you recognize what’s in your
hand or you recognize who you are
i’m going to pray instead
that you would simply
stay close to the river
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if you stay close to the river
you’ll have everything you need
you’ll have a mirror you’ll have trees
planted by living waters to make a staff
when you need it
you have perspective on what you’ve gone
through you’ll have peace you’ll have
comfort you’ll have joy most importantly
you will experience the absence of doubt
i want to pray with you spirit
spirit of the living god
you are the river
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and you sent this word as a river to run
through our fears to run through our
doubt to confront our situation and our
circumstance god
we acknowledge that this is not just a
word it is a river
and it is meant to move us and change us
and transform us
father we repent
and the holiest
most sacred way
god i believe doubt over
what i believed from you
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god i believed fear over what i believed
from you god i repent
forgiven my doubt more power than you’ve
granted it
god the truth is i’m just scared
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the truth is we’re just nervous to get
it wrong god the truth is that we were
just nervous that we couldn’t take
another heartbreak we were calling it
nerves but you call it doubt we were
calling it fear but you call it doubt
god if it’s doubt then we say
yes we’ve been feeling uncertain
and in moments we’ve had a lack of
conviction but you sent this word and it
confronted us
and we want to move to a place of
certainty
jesus i thank you that you’re meeting
each and every last one of my brothers
and sisters right where they need it
right now
and that as you meet with them
that you are meeting them with
compassion
and conviction
conviction that says it’s time to move
conviction that says it’s time to grow
conviction that says step into it
you’ve got this step into it you won’t
do it alone step into it heaven has
already gone ahead of you step into it
this is a part of why god has created
you i hear you cheering us on jesus
thank you for being in our cheering
section jesus thank you for making
intercession on our behalf jesus thank
you for calling this doubt out and
putting it on the table so we can
finally deal with it and we see it and
we don’t want it to stay with us any
longer so spirit of the living god we
make a demand on doubt and we rebuke it
right now in the name of jesus we
destroy it right now in the name of
jesus lord let your power fall as only
it can do we are covered in the blood
and if we are covered in the blood then
doubt cannot penetrate our destiny doubt
cannot penetrate our identity we rebuke
you down and we send you back to hell
where you came from and when doubt gets
up off of us let it get off of
everything connected to us you can’t go
with us any further you can’t move into
this ministry you can’t move into this
marriage doubt you can’t go you’re no
longer welcomed here you can’t move into
this family doubt you cannot stay here
because the presence of god has stepped
in
we receive you jesus
as continuous salvation
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sanctification coming to us now
god make us more holy
more righteous more beautiful
and less like a reflection of what we’ve
gone through
because where the spirit of the lord is
there is liberty
we receive our freedom
and father if anyone’s watching right
now
and they’re just dipping their toe in
the water
i hope this word pulled them all the way
in
i hope it submerged them god
god i pray
that after this is done that they would
take the time to connect with us
so that we can lead them in the prayer
of salvation
and they can begin this beautiful
sanctification god thank you
for allowing their heart to be pulled in
the direction
of jesus
may they receive him
as their lord and their savior
the one rescuer who can rescue them from
anything they’ve gone through
in jesus name i pray
amen
amen family you know you got to say it
with me
i shared so much in my heart with you in
this word
my own wrestling with doubt
and i’m not afraid to say that
i’ve been wrestling with god i’m not
afraid to say it because i’m human
and one thing i did say when i started
preaching and i didn’t i doubt it
seriously that this was a good idea but
i told god
i’m gonna do it anyway but i’ma always
keep it as 100 as i can
because i want people to know they
aren’t alone
i hope in some way as you were watching
this
that you felt a little less lonely
and a lot more convicted
to surrender that doubt so that you can
see what springs up in the place where
your doubt once lived
i’m personally going to sow into this
word
we’re going to take our tithes and our
offerings but
for me this is going to be something
more personal and intimate and i want to
ask you to join me if you feel led
i want to sow
into the place where doubt once lived
this word this moment
is something that god brought to me
and now what’s coming through me
but i don’t want to miss it
i don’t want to put the microphone down
and go back to second guessing
i want to stay anchored to this word and
i want you to stay anchored to it too
so whatever a sacrifice is for you i’m
not going to call out a number
but maybe you sow on the level that
doubt has cost you
if doubt has only cost you a little then
maybe you just sow a little
but if you have a feeling that doubt is
costing you a lot
maybe you should sow into this word
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so that you can send a sign to doubt
that there will be harvest in the place
where you took up space
for those of you who are giving your
tithes that’s
10 of your increase
it’s our way of saying god every
job every gig every opportunity that i
have received may have come from a
company or organization but ultimately
the gift and the talent came from you
there are instructions on the screen i’m
not going to make this long
but if you’re sewing whether you’re
giving your tithes or you’re giving a
special offering connected to this word
i want you to find a way to lift it to
heaven
if it’s your phone girl
fella put me up in the air that’s fine
if it’s your laptop throw it in the air
if it’s your tv just tilt the screen up
a little bit put your hand in the air
because we want to make this an offering
an offering is something that says
i want to reach up to heaven with
heaven touched down but heaven you don’t
have to come any further i’m going to
reach up to heaven with this
and so i want you to put it in the air
father receive
our offering
receive our tithes god you keep touching
down
just when i’m ready to give up just when
i don’t know what to do you keep
touching down god i felt you touched
down in this place
you touch down in my soul you touch it
down in my doubt
and father i’m offering this seed as as
acknowledgement that i see you i heard
you
i received that word god
now i’m presenting this offering to you
as a sign of my obedience
to no longer being ruled and governed by
doubt
receive this offering god and build your
church
may you continue to snatch souls out of
the hands of doubt souls out of the
plans of the enemy god do with this seed
which only you can do and that is turn
it into transformed lives god thank you
for this rich ministry
that it’s not just changing lives but it
is feeding souls and helping those in
need god thank you for allowing us to be
a part of what you’re doing in the earth
continue to build your church
and thank you for building me in the
process
in jesus name
amen
amen family man i love you so much i’m
going to be walking this thing out would
you all pray with me i’m going to keep
praying for you and with you
next week is going to be just an
incredible week for us with woman evolve
and god told me that i couldn’t go into
it holding on to this doubt that the
only reason why i’m in this position is
because of who my father is or because
of what i’ve gone through and i just
want you to touch and agree with me that
as we walk into woman evolve and if
you’re going to be there i can’t wait to
see you but as we walk into one evolve
that god would help me to step fully
into who he’s called me to be i’m going
to pray with you you’re going to pray
with me and we’re going to keep
activating until the wills fall off i
love you family i’ll see you next time