Service Date: 06.07.17 8PM

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so we’ve been doing the book club for

first lady’s look it’s an amazing if

you’re not screaming suspicious you

haven’t been paying attention to it but

the book is truly amazing and I

definitely recommend for everyone to

read it there is there’s a chapter that

something she said that stood out to me

and coming to speak today that was

highlighted again and so it’s on Chapter

two the chapter is called learn your

pattern and so there’s something she

says and it’s our read so if you have

chosen to maintain an unhealthy mindset

out of fear of starting over you will

never be able to realize the full

potential of your life

so today’s message is called starting

over so so she talks about if you are

afraid of starting over you will never

go back you will never be able to

realize the full potential of your life

so there is a connection between

realizing the full potential and

starting over you see starting over is a

word we don’t like you know it has this

negative connotation of it doesn’t mean

that all the years have been wasted

resources wasted you know what does that

mean for everything I’ve invested myself

into right we hold on to you know for

some people you’re holding on to a place

some people hold on to positions some

professions some people right and we’re

holding on to this because of what we

have invested in it and so the idea of

starting over it’s like okay lord have I

wasted my time

have I wasted my years you see there was

a time that the very thing you’re

holding on to now you

work for you the times that you know

everything seems right it seemed like it

was all great but in this moment if

you’re honest instinctively you’re

disconnected from that thing and God has

allowed you to encounter a door that is

supposed to be open to you if everything

was right but it was shut and so you see

found like this is a season of open

doors right if and that’s exciting but

it also means that if you’re in front of

a door that is closed

God is not requiring you to knock not

you know knock knock now that’s nothing

for those that song oh oh that is not

real even listen to that song it’s not

on his playlist right listen so that is

not he’s not requiring any knocking he’s

not requiring any effort there is open

doors in front of you there open doors

for your destiny so if there is a door

that is shut then perhaps you’re in the

wrong place you see starting over it’s

not even about wasted years it’s not

even about highlighting the wrong

decisions you make or the wrong choices

you make because ultimately you know a

wrong decision is a decision made in

darkness you cannot choose right if you

don’t see right and darkness is not

something to be afraid of darkness is

not an evil thing creation started in

darkness God has a way of abusing

darkness at the beginning because

without darkness without darkness you

will never value or understand the

essence of light

you know in Genesis 1 it talks about how

the earth was without form and it was

void and darkness covered the face of

the deep

but it’s so fascinating to me because in

that darkness God says let there be

light so in that very thing that seems

scary that seems like oh my gosh I just

made all the bad decisions light is

contained inside it because God wasn’t

creating like he just said light be and

you see we’re in the season where God is

speaking to you let there be light and

what that means is he’s calling forth

your true self and so starting over is

not about it’s not everything that

you’ve been through is what will cause

you to value where he’s taking you and

so it’s not that you wasted years you

see a lot of times we like to probably

stay in relationships with something

because you invested a lot in the

relationship

you’re like listening I don’t pay for

views on you I need a return but it’s

not even that because if that

relationship is not meant to be what if

you know everything that went wrong with

that will show that you would value what

is right when God brings your person

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y’all need some my husband’s alive oh

great I just a lot of learn y’all to

tell yourself

but but let’s reel back right and so

when God gave me this message about

starting over I understood that it

really deals with a renewal of the mind

it deals with you seeing the same thing

but differently so you want to send how

to make the right choice you see the

Bible talks about as a man thinketh so

is he so that means the renewal of the

mind ultimately is the reinvention of

yourself

and that self is that is the true

version of you that God is calling forth

you see in life we we make a lot of a

lot of decisions we make a lot for a lot

of choices we make you know the truth is

there’s a lot of things even when you’re

in Christ and you’re you know Jesus yes

there’s something that you make out of

your own wisdom there are some things

you make out of the counsel of people

that might not be led by God

there are some decisions you make based

on what it looks like and what society

says if it looks like this it must be

this and so we make these decisions and

you know I love it Hebrews 12 talks

about how when God will shake things up

so that which cannot be shaken will

stand and so God is aware that we create

things in our lives and it comes to a

place it comes to an appointed time in

the season where he starts causing

things to be shaken up so for some of

you this is a season where your

frustration for some reason has

increased you’re very like you’re just

it’s kind of like this disturbing thing

like what is going on with me what’s you

know I’m not really sure I just get

irritated easily it’s you’re not weird

it’s not a it’s not like you know

there’s no spirit against you right it’s

just the atmosphere of what’s happening

spiritually there is a shaking taking

place and so define that properly God is

calling you to yourself but you see in

order for this to happen

we have to come to a place of surrender

we have to come to a place to say god I

am going to lay down everything I know

of myself even what I believe is my

purpose even what I believe is my

calling

even who I believe is for me I I am

willing to lay it all down to you so

that you would show me what is your

willingness not being afraid to say you

know what maybe I had it wrong not being

afraid to say maybe I followed something

that wasn’t led by you but it seems to

be you see the passage in Proverbs this

proverbs 3 and we can pull that up it’s

proverbs 3 4 to 5 right and this is a

very familiar passage of script

because it tells us to not lean on our

own understanding right but in all our

ways we should trust in the Lord

right I’m paraphrasing but yeah depends

no lolly you know trust the Lord with

all your heart right really and that’s

especially versions trusting the Lord

with all your heart and do not depend on

your own understanding and then verse 6

says seek his will in all you do and he

will show you which path to take we see

some versions talked about and he will

make the crooked path straight so that

means that sometimes in life we are on a

crooked journey which leads to closed

doors and we’re trying to figure out why

is the door in front of me but it’s

supposed to be open closed and then God

reminds us do not lean on your own

understanding seek me let me find out

what is what is my will in everything

you’re doing that you also say it’s for

me you see sometimes the very things

that we that becomes a stronghold

it’s a stronghold sometimes because we

believe like this is what God wants me

to do but you see if that is what God

wants you to do there’s no issue

surrendering it to him because if it is

he will give that thing back to you

Abraham and Isaac God is the one who

told him I would give you a son the same

God tells him sacrifice the son is not

making sense but are we willing to

surrender everything we think we know

about ourselves so that that which he

has purposed will stand you see the path

we’re going to look into and the passage

of familiar but the person is not really

someone we talk about and it’s someone

by the name of Ely AB Elias was David’s

oldest brother you see we can actually

even go to First Samuel 16 if you know

the time we’re obviously you know Israel

one in a king God picked the king he

takes the King Saul

and then solve it some things that were

just a little you know out of hand

God said look Brock we’re going to

choose somebody else all right here so

that says God tells his prophet he’s

prophets I’m oh he says you know what go

to the house of Jesse he has eight sons

I have chosen a king amongst his son and

I will show you who to choose who to

anoint right and so the prophet Sam wall

he goes to Jesse’s house and this is

what happened so Wednesday so he you

know he comes in he tells you know the

father Jesse like you know bring all

your sons and all that stuff so that we

would see who the Lord has chosen so

when they answered Elia is the first

time he looked at Elia and thought

surely the Lord’s anointed is before him

verse 7 but the Lord said to Samuel do

not look at his appearance or at the

height of his stature these two things

are very important because I have

rejected him for God sees not as man

sees for man looks at the outward

appearance but the Lord looks at the

heart

now that’s a powerful Scripture God

looks at the heart beautiful but that’s

not a message but if he wanted

fascinating that word we you know I have

rejected him I was looking into that

word and it also carries the the meaning

of to disappear and what I to not look

at it even in a negative way what what I

understood about it it’s almost as

though you see what God was appointing

right a king for Israel you know what

something disappears it’s not it’s not

even existing he could not see Ilia

because it was never for him so it’s not

just rejection in the terms of I have

rejected you it cannot see you it can

only see who it has been appointed to

but now

Helia my heart went towards Iliad

because you see why I said it’s very

important to notice appearance and

height when Israel needed a king so God

had been ruling over Israel Israel gets

up and says we want a king like every

other nation and God is like you know

first the Prophet summer was like you

know what are they doing God says it’s

okay it’s not you the Prophet they’re

rejecting it is media rejecting all

Israel knew was that they want a king

now when God gave them King Saul you see

who they saw was God has BC got actually

chose King so it wasn’t a random thing

he appointed handy he said okay you know

what this is the person anoints him and

all that stuff right but when God chose

King Saul he wasn’t choosing the king in

the manner of who he would have chosen

for Israel his chosen nation he chose

King Saul in a manner of what every

other person does because the motivating

factor behind Israel one in a king was

we want to be like every other nation so

let’s go to 1st Samuel I believe is um

verse 9 you see when God chose King Saul

there were things that were very

distinct about him so now he had so he

had a son is referring to Saul father so

he said he had a soul whose name he had

a son whose name was Saul a choice and

handsome man and there was not a more

handsome person than he among the sons

of Israel from his shoulders and up he

was taller than all of the people Saul

first of all this is God God chose him

the people don’t know the motivating

factor be Wow God chosen nothing like

that oh they know is that God has chosen

a king now this King is someone that

when you see him there were things that

were very distinct about him his

appearance and his height so he was

chosen among the house of Israel among

all the men of is

girl God shows the man who was the

tallest and preferably the most handsome

so the standard of what it appears is

that when God is looking for a king it

deals with beauty and height now comes

Aliyah he’s aware of that now jesse is

in the house yeah I mean um prophet

Samuel is in the house the Prophet is

saying God has you know God God brought

him here to anoint a king le AB when he

sees himself amongst his brothers he

sees a man who is the tallest and the

most handsome now but first of all we

know that the firstborn does not always

me or the tallest right or the most

handsome right I’ve seen a lot of

firstborns there were the shortest and

not the most handsome okay but for some

reason when God created and formed Elia

and when God was aware of all the other

brothers he was going to bring on the

earth through Jesse he caused Ilyas to

be the tallest and the most handsome

even the prophet the prophet of God in

his own wisdom believe this is

definitely the one that God has chosen

what they didn’t realize is that that

was never God’s standard you see Israel

is a chosen nation when God wants to do

things based on the fact that you are

chosen by him it is never the same as

what works for other people and when he

was calling when he chose David he was

not going to choose David in the manner

because now it is his choice now he’s

making a choice based on what he desires

for the people you see I share this to

say a lot of times you can have the gift

right let’s say you think you see

someone else that is saying gain and

it’s working for them

this person is singing God this person

is you know making money fame all of

that you’re looking at yourself and I’m

a singer you know hook why do they

happen for me what is going on

thank you very much

but what you don’t understand is that

God can give you a very similar gift but

how what he wants to do with that could

be very different and so we have come

week we have accustomed to you know what

I have this gift I have this talent I

have this ability I can do this this

should be the profession I go into you

know I am this this should be the place

because of this and things are like this

is a place I should live you know this

is my budget so this is where I should

be

we have this idea based on what society

what people what the Council of people

have told us and so when it’s not

working in our wisdom and we don’t think

of it this is the truth you’re not

thinking of it as your wisdom you’re

just thinking of it as what makes sense

it makes sense for iliad to be king all

they knew of God’s standard was when God

chooses a king well he’s obviously

beautiful and he saw see some of you are

in this room and you’re angry if you’re

honest there’s this anger because anger

just masks hurt and the anger is that

God why is it not working and it’s not

just why is it not working because

someone within your very missed the same

thing that could work for you is working

for them

Elia was David’s brother his oldest

brother and now he’s watching his

brother be anointed king if the prophet

Sam will thought that Iliev should be

the one anointed what do you think Ilya

thought you see Ilya after this it

appeared to be that he he carries some

bitterness and some hurts because if we

go to first time wall I believe it’s 19

there was an encounter that he had with

David 17 hallelujah

as a counselor he had with David Soucie

their father so ilya first of all was in

Saul’s army right and this is when God

the very thing that you believe about

yourself God will cause something to

come in the mist to show you this is not

the door I have for you you see there’s

a point where you know Ilya is in the

army

Goliath obviously we know you know the

story of Goliath Goliath shows up the

finished signs of fighting the

Israelites right

the lion is a warrior he’s not good life

is not the king he’s just a warrior like

Ilya was a warrior the lion shows up and

he says look look look we don’t need to

do all this fighting each other I am a

warrior select one of your warriors and

let’s fight

whoever wins you know the loser would

submit to the winner you know if you

guys went to the philistines of submit

to the israelites so during this period

their father

david father sent David on an errand he

says you know what bringing food to your

brothers and let me know about your

welfare David goes over to meet his

brothers David hears about Goliath he

hears about what’s happening here is

that you know Goliath is saying all

these things you know just define the

name of you know the God they serve and

all these things about what he’s going

to do so David starts to inquire so now

it says now Ilyas his oldest brother

heard when he spoke to the men so this

is when he’s hearing David speak to the

men so David is interested about what

would happen to the person who

challenges Goliath now Goliath has said

give me a warrior just like I am a

warrior David even though we have knows

you have an anointed king it’s still

like here see the shepherd boy I don’t

care what happened right so Ilya and it

says an ileus anger burns against David

you see like I said anger is only a mask

for hurt

eally ab is in a place I believe of

confusion how is the thing that was

supposed to be for me it makes sense

that the

should be the path for me is given to my

brother and now my brother is here for

what if his insecurities about his

inability to perform as a soldier

because all along you know they’re doing

things that every soldier can do they go

in for battles you fight all that stuff

but now Goliath is trying to single out

a person Ilya is very aware he’s not

going to fight Goliath because if he was

he would have signed up for it

so there was a door in front of him that

he cannot walk through and David who he

has watched anointed that probably

obviously has the ability to do it he’s

angry at him and he says why have you

come down and with whom have you let

those few sheep this is just anger

talking right in the wilderness and then

he says to David I know your insolence

and the wickedness of your heart for you

have come down in order to see the

battle so in helium’s mindset David

seeing the battle carries an evil

motivation he’s thinking that perhaps

David is here to watch me fail and he’s

angry at that you see from Elliott’s

perspective and from what I believe God

was doing with Ilya AB was given him the

opportunity to surrender what he had

believed about himself all along Ilya

was a warrior in Saul’s army and if he

looked at himself when when the Prophet

comes in he’s probably thinking I should

probably be the king that they’re going

to anoint but this is an opportunity for

him to start over it was an opportunity

for a new beginning in his life but the

fear of failure and failure is never

really failure failures morale is it’s

more of the perception of how people

would view you that we fear because

failure in itself is always a lesson we

learn something we are taught something

we are taught how to do

something different it’s what trains

that is what builds us the fear that we

have is how people would perceive us

Illya what was what what would he went

when the story comes out that way God

chose David and not you aren’t you like

the most handsome in the family aren’t

you the tallest in the family

you see family what God showed me in

this room those watching there certain

gifts their talents their places their

professions their things that you’re

holding on to their people and and there

is a disconnect for some reason you

cannot move forward at this point it has

been working all along and I’m not

talking about you know enduring or you

know you know waiting it out I’m not

talking about that instinctively you

know that something is wrong it’s not

about you have a need for patience

there’s something wrong and in this

season God desires for you to be in

front of your open door he’s not

desiring for you to be in the wrong

place

and so seeing a shut door is just room

for redirection it’s wrong to say Lord

maybe I got this wrong and that’s okay

because it would it would allow me to

value what’s right you see when I was

reading this there were four thoughts I

had about starting over and I’ll share

that the first one we could put that up

the first one deals with the God thing

is not designed to fit you is designed

to stretch you you see we like if Iliad

was king if they chose him right it’s

what fits him he fits the part he has

the look he has the height it fits him

but when God is calling you can we have

the background in black please when God

is calling you God is never calling you

to something that fits he calls you to

something that will stretch you

you see when I was prepared for this

message there was this almost this image

God gave me when when when God calls us

right it’s almost as though God is let’s

say right here there’s a version of me

right here when he calls you I see my

friend guy in the back guy key please

stand up we’re going to do a

demonstration here when he calls you so

stay right there you’re all the way

you’re all the way for those watching

he’s all the way back there you’re all

the way back there and you might be

doing all kinds of crazy things right

party and do around what you do but

hopefully not now right but there was a

version of you that is with him

that is the highest version of you so

when he when he says the whole thing

about the calling of God that’s why you

never talk yourself out of the calling

God is very aware of where you are he’s

very aware of all the stuff you’re doing

but when he calls you just like when he

says a name so if I say and guy right

come forth first of all he has a

decision to say yes that’s the whole

thing when we say would you give God

your yes he has a decision to say do I

want to do I want to answer the calling

do I not want answer the calling if he

says yes he starts walking towards me

right and so every step you could walk

every step he takes he’s walking into a

higher version of himself a higher

version of himself and so what God does

and ultimately so if this is if this is

where God is standing and the final you

know the final thing obviously heaven

when guy is now standing right here with

the Lord right and so when when he calls

you every door he opens is to call you

to a higher version of yourself it’s not

about it’s not about what’s supposed to

make sense because you haven’t even met

that person you knew the person at the

door you don’t know the person here

but God knows every version of you and

he knows what would ultimately cause you

to be here and so the calling of God is

a process it’s not because he called you

that means oh my gosh I need to get my

life right I don’t know why I keep doing

this

Lord I’m not sure you called me because

I keep doing this no God was aware and

he knows every platform every door that

would lead you to a higher version of

yourself you see with Illya it was not

about him becoming King no no no no no

there was a purpose I believe those a

very powerful purpose on on his life but

if we are stuck in this place of anger

which is not even dealing with the real

emotion which is just hurt if we don’t

say God I feel I’m hurt about this guy

you’re there thank you very much if we

don’t say if we don’t say god this thing

I know I haven’t had a belief about

where my life is supposed to be right

now I had a belief about what this

profession was supposed to do I had I

had a belief about this relationship I

had you know I had add an idea about

this an idea about that it’s okay to be

hurt

it’s that’s you know that God is not

afraid of me it’s just like saying it is

the answer worried about the question

you know it can be an answer be scared

if you give it a question the answer

needs a question right so so God is not

afraid of you bringing your questions to

him he is the way right he is the truth

and so your questions it does not bother

him your questions does not mean you you

are an unbeliever God values

relationship that’s why it’s a visible

scripture that says that come let us

reason together God desires for you to

talk to him and so if something hurt you

like Ilya was hurt bring that to him I

thought this was supposed to be like

and this is supposed to be like this why

is it not working

could it be that the even when you know

there’s a profession that you love let’s

say you you love to run or something

right and for some reason the mindset

the career that you had in mind with

running it’s not what’s panning out

and what if God has a vision of you

training high school students oh I don’t

know something right he has a vision of

maybe it’s not about you doing what you

wanted to do but I want this to become a

purpose for you to use this and build

other people what we have we have a

vision based on what has been working

for others and that brings to my second

thought that the idea that that you know

the idea that God no that idea I can’t

even read what I’m writing the idea that

inspired your birth wasn’t an existent

idea you see that the scripture talks

about that God is the beginning and the

end but in him there is no end so he’s

just trying to tell you that everything

is in me I am infinite I wouldn’t create

you to duplicate someone else you are

not the copy of someone else’s life as a

child of God you are chosen by him he

would not operate he would not function

in your life like he does for or like

you see for every other person and so

whatever it is that is a weight on you

when I was praying about this message I

pray that the Holy Spirit would reveal

to each person listening what their it

is what is that thing that is is

weighing on you that you cannot seem to

figure out God but what is this

disconnect this was working at a point

in time and he wants to show you that

look if your mindset is based on what

you have seen there’s a renewal of the

mind that needs to take place

because I am so endless I don’t need

copies God does not need another you

walk in the streets even twins there

don’t come out at the same time and the

third thing third thing there is more to

life than winning

hashtag winning now when I say this I’m

not talking about you know being a

conqueror in God I’m not I’m not talking

about that way because and that we are

always winners why we have the victory

to try Christ Jesus I wanna say trust we

have the victory through Christ Jesus

what I’m talking about is our

generations obsession with winning that

we are so obsessed with this idea of

winning at the cost of destiny we are so

obsessed with with looking like we have

we are winning that we are we are

winning as things that have no business

in our lives

you see I remember just are in college

though this guy was talking to him right

he just looked like a you know daddy

would is he right yeah I mean just a

beautiful man

our our best conversations where when we

didn’t have conversations as also and

get to Eppie if he opened his mouth I

was off you know I’m just okay why why

why what you see because of his beauty I

was winning

I felt listen I am winning in this some

relationship Fame because why people

would see here I’m like yep winning you

know haha but when nobody was around I’m

like lord have mercy

this man should never speak he should

not creep because when he speaks I’m

just like why am I here

right and so I should I share this to

say that sometimes this obsession with

winning it’s all about validation it’s

about how would people perceive me you

see was it could it have been that Elia

prostrations had nothing to do with if

he was king if he wasn’t king who could

I mean he wasn’t king right there was

already a king he was fine with that but

now looking like a failure before people

that when God decided to pick someone in

your house he picked the one that

doesn’t look the part

what is this obsession we have with

winning and not in God’s Way I’m talking

about the world’s way where we will

restrict to things just to look like yes

hashtag CEO hashtag boss hashtag winning

and you know and the CEO is not the

purpose that God has called for you it’s

a beautiful thing to run your company is

a beautiful thing to be an intrapreneur

but it’s even better to be authentic and

so all I’m saying is that God can call

you in in a variety of things but is it

your but let it be that which he called

you to do let it be that okay you know

God this is this is a theme that you’re

telling me to do so you know yes and it

might not look like I’m winning in the

beginning but if I’m walking in my truth

that’s the real definition of winning

that is when you have the victory in

Christ Jesus because the truth is God

will never you know validate something

that it’s not his and so I bring this up

to say even as we are here what is that

thing that you are so obsessed with

people knowing you have a hand over and

is that saying God or is that based on

this need to for validation this need

for people to you know like you if it’s

garden that’s beautiful because guess

what got to here know he’s a boss see

hashtag winning but he wants you to win

in your truth he wants you to win in

what He has called you to do not to win

in a life the fourth thing is do not be

afraid to seek you see Elia

it’s so interesting the name Aliyah

actually means God is my father I don’t

think it’s coincidence that he would

have such a name because there’s a

passage in Matthew I believe is Matthew

7 or so 9 to 11 when it talks about

hallelujah you see it says what man is

there among you when his son asks for lo

will give him a stone and then it says

or if or if he asks for a fish will he

not give him or will he not give him a

snake will he doesn’t interesting on

work now if you hallelujah if you then

being evil know how to give good gifts

to your children how much more will your

Father who is in heaven give what is

good to those who ask him

family I’m here to tell you that where

there was confusion God desires to give

you clarity if Ilia God being a good

father

if Elia was willing to seek the Lord and

we don’t know the end of his story so

perhaps Munoz maybe it’s open-ended but

even I will remove his name and output

your name what is it that has caused you

confusion what is it that is causing you

hurt and and God is saying look I am a

good father don’t be afraid to seek me

because God is willing this season is so

critical God is willing to show you who

you really are so you can walk down the

path of open doors don’t be afraid to

seek things out don’t be afraid takes

time for some people perhaps you might

need to go in too fast and I don’t know

but take some time it is so important

that you in this season be willing to

surrender everything you think you know

about yourself and sick father Who am I

what have you called me to do you see I

have some really good cheekbones right

after them but that’s another story

with that i’ma show sorry yes Oh what

you got listen so for so long people

will tell me Stephanie you should model

because you got cheekbones right I’m

like you know it’s sort of natural right

so everyone said like Stephanie shamalia

smiley smile on my life you know and I

used some other when I was younger in

Nigeria and I just I never liked it

right to naija

I never it was never my saying I just I

just didn’t like it I was just like I

don’t want to model and then everyone

will keep telling me Stephanie should

model you should model you tomorrow you

should model and so you start hearing so

many people’s voices and you’re like God

I even talking about a conversation I’m

even having the Lord I’m just like God

you know everyone is telling me the

model I don’t want to be afraid to miss

something that would bless me you see we

have this thing where we are afraid to

miss God we are afraid to miss the

purpose we’re afraid to miss the calling

God knows how to get information to you

there’s no need to be afraid of

something and so oh my god you know I

don’t want to miss this you know what

but but something deep down I was not

connected with it right and so one day

and I would get these messages and oh my

god are you the one talking about

modeling and and there are tongues where

he would talk to me about modeling but I

never really inquired further so I

assumed that the moment he says modeling

I filtered that through the counsel of

people oh you know what God said Marlon

I think I should be a model so one night

you know I was like okay god I really

need to understand this thing you know

am I missing out on my blessing you know

is there like checks out there for me

that I need to be cashing in on lesson

so one night oh my god really talk to me

about this thing

so he says to me very simply he says

just give me your yes towards modeling

and I will show you what it is I said

okay boom I say okay yes God you know

yes two hours later a friend text me

she’s like hey girl what are you doing

tomorrow at 6:00 a.m. I’m like um what

do people do at 6:00 in the morning

I don’t know coffee front chatter of

what 6:00 a.m. that’s just crazy like

what am i doing you know studying I

don’t know um so I’m like what’s up all

right because I can’t really answer that

question and so she’s like hey you know

um she’s like XS Hollywood needs a model

for something I’m supposed to be there I

can’t make it can you do it normally I

would be like yeah right

but I’m like God I were to give you a

yes oh Lord I was like sure girl you

know

wink face haha looking excited but I’m

not emojis or deceitful so the next day

I’m just like Stephanie why what are you

doing right so I go there I’m like okay

fine I get to the studio where like you

know so I see where you know they have

the clothes or whatever he goes ahead

and she says she tells them like oh you

know she’s a pastor I didn’t know she

told him that so I’m in there I see the

outfit they had laid for me and you’re

like what we heard your pastor said Oh

awesome just great

Oh My isn’t that fascinating and so they

had they had this dress if with the

dress there’s a story behind it there’s

a story that would cause you know give

praise to Jesus so what is jazz they had

the giving keys for the necklace they

had two given keys from China have one

of them on me somewhere in there the

lady comes in she’s like so one of the

the hosts he comes and she’s like wow

that is so fitting for you being that

you’re a pastor so praise God

you know hallelujah the whole time I

really do

to be here but I’m here because I said

yes God so funny enough every other

model there and not really models you

know one was an actress on the show I

love another one was talk-show host but

everybody’s there to model I’m like okay

right so the show is going live and

they’re like hey you’re going to go

first I’m like sure so I’m out there

walking on the camera and you’re like

wow you know she’s a pastor this is live

TV I was like yes do you want a sermon

oh I didn’t say that though well I guess

the hello praise God I get off the stage

I don’t even know if he’s here or not

one of the guys in the studio who works

with them he comes up to me he’s like

passed and I said oh I say hi first wow

you model as I sure do

praise God and so he’s like yeah you

know I just you know once you’re just

one Church ha ha

praise God um so when I left I figure

out what what did I do is I sign up for

what was this right and the Lord spoke

to me he said I told you I would show

you something he says I have not called

you to modeling the way everyone models

I have called you to represent because

modeling right is about representing a

brand that’s that’s what it is he says I

have called you to represent me and so

even having even having the chain for

the giving keys the given keys is a

brand that you know when you look into

their look into what they’re about every

every purchase you made they use it to

actually support people that are

transitioning from homelessness right

forgive to offer them jobs and things

like that so the very thing I had on was

was what was representing the hand of

God

and then he tells me he says look at the

look at the necklace they gave you what

does it say so I looked at it it says

create and it said I’m calling you to

create I never knew what that meant I

was like okay god I say first of all i’m

i’m glad to clarify huh

this modern situations are bye-bye

and so we accepted that god starts

speaking to me about you know there’s a

movie that i want you to do with the

movie i want you to make oh my god I’ve

never done that that’s not me no you

know that’s not what we do but I was

very fast to say yes even though in my

mind I’m like god this movie sounds

crazy right this idea like this is the

first time we’re doing this and it’s a

very weighty topic but what I’m sharing

this is because out of something that I

wondered god is this you is this not you

being open to him he used that to show

me first of all I’m calling you to

represent me so even though you were in

a place to model all they were talking

about is pastoring what you were

representing was a brand that is almost

like my hand and I caused them to give

you something that would show you an

open door I have set before you you see

even when the idea with the film God God

gave those connected to this project

know that that are involved with it it’s

been a god thing all the way there was

no need there was no knocks it was open

doors all the way from the beginning to

what is happening right now and so I’m

sharing this family because for some of

you God is going to redirect you to a

door that you’re very unfamiliar with

but if you say yes to him say yes ask

questions later right because he will

answer the questions but just give that

if you went when you have a relationship

with him you have that trust in him and

so you can just say God you know I am

not really sure but hey um you know I’m

in and he would explain the details as

you go well family don’t be afraid to

seek don’t don’t define yourself by

what everyone tells you you’re supposed

to do don’t define yourself by what it

looks like you should do what is God

saying God what is your will in this

what are you showing me in this season

who am i if your will is engaged in this

question I guarantee you from what he

showed me concerning you he will show

you and why say if your will is engaged

this is not a question you ask in

passing it’s not a thing of God just let

me know who I am and I’m going to run

off to do other things it’s a it’s a

question you ask in waiting God Who am I

show me who I am show me myself if I’m

going to wait on you in prayer if I’m

going to wait on you in fasting give me

myself because he desires to do that all

he’s waiting for is your voice and for

you to mean it family stand with me

thank you Jesus thank you Jesus

you see family if you are here and you

know that you’re holding on to something

but it feels like there is a disconnect

everything we talked about and you’re in

this place of God I just need to know

who I am I want to know who you’ve

called me to be in the season so I can

walk through the door that already

opened I’m not where God is not in the

business of trying to have you struggle

jiggle wiggle you know none of that is

it’s open if that is you come on down

thank you Jesus thank you Jesus thank

you Jesus thank you Jesus

Who am I Who am I God

that’s a question that it’s on your

heart come down Lord show me myself give

me me I don’t want to just do things

just because I’m told to it’s just

because I’ve been doing it all my life

Who am I God desires to lead you to the

door that he has set before you

but it’s the race that the renewed mind

is that it is a different version of you

that would see that door thank you Jesus

thank you God

if there is a hurt you’re carrying and

it’s been mashed with anger you’re

you’re in this house you walk into this

building you’re watching a live stream

but you’re angry you’re angry are you

willing to surrender that heart to God

calm down thank you Jesus you don’t have

to be you don’t have to be see we’re

children of God

no matter that you know we have this

idea of age on the earth you know you’re

babied whatever dot but we’re all

children of God there’s no need to be

tough before him it’s there’s no need

he’s not afraid of your questions and

he’s not afraid of your pain he’s not

he’s not require you to have this

robotic life of just like no pain no

gain no no not some pain there is some

game right it’s not a gym lifestyle with

Jesus you can’t have pain right if

you’re still out there and you’re

holding this hurt and that is even what

is limiting you from walking down here

because if you’re honest and I will

speak what’s in your mind it’s like it

doesn’t even matter that’s what you’re

saying to yourself it doesn’t even

matter if I go down there if I go down

whatever it doesn’t really matter but

the truth is what pulls you to this

house shows that it does matter

and so you’re standing your ground

almost as though you don’t really

believe he’s going to show you something

if that is you come down

thank you Jesus I see you thank you

Jesus thank you Jesus I feel you see

from me

God will wait on you he will wait on you

thank you Jesus

it doesn’t matter it doesn’t matter Wow

have your way God

you see if you’re battling with the idea

like and not to say this again you have

not lost anything you have not lost any

years you have not lost the relationship

didn’t work out that doesn’t mean your

life the years your you invested in that

was in vain the job didn’t work out that

doesn’t mean a lot that whatever you

invested was in vain

someone might you might have I don’t

know if you’re here watching a live

stream and it’s almost like your

apartment might have caught on fire and

and there were so many things you lost

in the process but that does not mean

everything you’ve worked for was in vain

it doesn’t mean that you had a car

accident and the car was totaled and you

couldn’t there was no insurance and it

was almost like it was lost there’s

there is no loss in God it is not in

vain I need to keep saying this for

someone you have not wasted your years

you move somewhere it didn’t work out

you have to move back then you move back

again and and it’s almost like if my

life just in this cycle of loss it is

not in vain you see the Bible says that

the ways of God and the thoughts of God

are higher than our ways we believe that

you know if I if I put this in here it

has to give me something back right if

it doesn’t there’s a loss but with God

if you’re patient enough you might not

see anything you see that’s why they’re

studying trees they’re selling seeds if

once you throw a seed in their will and

growth there are some things that it

takes years before you ever see

something shoot out and so you’re upset

because it seems like well that was

wasted but at some point if you’re

patient if you if you’re willing to

trust him that you know what all things

do work for my good

you will see the very thing that you

planted there is no loss in him thank

you Jesus thank you Jesus

let us pray and even as we pray if

anyone if there’s an illness in your

body just touch that part of your body

if it’s a thigh if it’s the ball just

touch you know we got bones everywhere

as well hey you know if there’s anything

lungs touch your chest just touch

whatever part of your body and let us

pray father God we thank you we thank

you Lord Jesus without which you are

doing Lord and I thank you that your

children would know you as the

resurrection and the life

you are the resurrection and you are the

life you conquered death so there is

nothing that can die in our lives time

cannot be wasted resources cannot be

wasted they’re all serving a purpose I

thank you Lord that even the things that

seemed and still you know they I hear I

there are many they’re thinking about

how I’m this age and I haven’t done this

and I haven’t done that it doesn’t

matter what if your your purpose and

your create and and the reason he

created you was not for you to start at

18 but for you to start at 45 I thank

you Lord Jesus that this this this

mentality of comparing ourselves this

this obsession with winning as culture

to find I thank you Lord God that it is

broken in this house in Jesus name I

thank you Lord that every hurt your

children carry that has been masked in

in this anger I thank you that as their

undivided altar they are laying it down

before you

I thank you Lord that we all hear

everyone listening that we are willing

to say God I surrender I surrender all

of me to you I surrender who I think I

am I even surrender what I’ve what I

think you said because if you said it

you say it again I thank you Lord that

we would not live in a fear of missing

you or missing is or missing missing the

the time of the purpose Lord God but in

this moment in this time in this season

we’re willing to say God have your way

that maybe I’ve been doing things by my

wisdom of a Council of people that were

not instructed by you I want to hear

your voice Lord I want to know you

because in you I find me for some for

some God is calling you to a place of

intimacy with him he’s not calling you

to rely on the voices of people but he’s

saying my child come to me he’s saying

that it’s almost like he’s like where

have you been I’m waiting for you I want

to speak to you make time for me God is

your father he will not die for you to

not speak to you he will not give the

ultimate sacrifice and withhold his

voice so withhold his voice is to

withhold himself you see I’m praying and

I’m speaking thank you Jesus in Genesis

the Lord was known as the voice and

we’ll talk about how the voice was

walking in the cool of day for him to

not speak to you is to withhold himself

God desires to speak to you are you

willing to listen are you willing to

shut out all the voices and say God I am

Here I am here

talk to me are we willing to lay it down

and say Lord what do you have to say in

the midst of every other person’s

opinion and mine Lord as we are standing

before you I think you that this is an

army of people that are waiting on your

command I thank you Lord that we would

be okay to pause for a second to know if

the path we are going is the crooked

path or the straight path thank you God

guide us lead us we are yours and I

thank you for everyone who has touched a

part of your body that needs healing I

thank you Lord because you are the

healer and I thank you Lord that you are

having your your angels are surrounded

in this place and they are touching your

people and so we thank you God for that

which you are doing in this house in

Jesus name for this for someone even as

we talk about as we talk about praying

for healing

I want to qualify something you see

sometimes sickness is not always what we

call sickness because I only there’s

someone in your family that might be

battling with something sometimes

because it’s all about the perspective

and and how the perspective of God

sometimes an illness is almost God’s Way

of allowing a person to slow down

it’s almost God’s Way of allowing a

person to just pause for a second and

and become in tune with their life

becoming feeling what their surrounding

and so for someone it seems like you

know you feel as though you’ve been

praying for healing and it’s not

happening you feel like you know God why

isn’t this thing happen

but I want you to also change your

perspective even in that area seek God

because what we often may call illness

might not be an illness sometimes a

person might even pass away from

something like let’s say someone passes

away from cancer but the truth is cancer

then kill them you see the cross is not

what killed Jesus even though he was on

the cross he gave up his own spirit and

I believe that is an example that often

times we look at it as though the

sickness took a person away but no God

called them and it could be that this

illness

was just to allow them to slow down say

goodbye for someone that might be

mourning someone and you’re wondering

why didn’t God heal that person what if

that thing just allow them to slow down

and for someone else you’re going to be

praying for someone who might be ill and

God is just trying to give them a chance

to just catch up catch up with your

family catch up with the people around

you and so whatever area it is family

all I’m saying is that I don’t have all

the answers but he does give that give

that to him to where it’s so easy to

just want to both you know be healed but

what if what we are calling sickness is

not an illness and so open these areas

to God thank you Jesus thank you God for

we would move and we will live by your

wisdom by your voice by your truth

because you are the way and if there is

any way that we needed seeking would be

through you and so I thank you for

people that are not afraid to seek you

they’re not afraid to ask you because

they know that you will not withhold

yourself from us

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