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amazing word god bless you

i’m so excited about what god wants to

do tonight and activate every night has

been so unique and so special and i

don’t doubt that this night will be

exactly in that same rhythm and flow

i’ve been studying and praying and i’m

going to do something a little bit

differently than i usually do usually i

take some consecutive scriptures and i

really kind of unpacked what i believe

god was saying

this time i kind of want to pick some

scriptures

they’re all in the same chapter

they’re all related

but there are some pivotal themes that i

think are important for us to recognize

so i’m going to be in psalm 51 and i

just have three scriptures

the first scripture is

verse 6. i’m going to start with verse

six

then i’m going to go to verse 10 and i’m

going to go to verse 13.

this psalm is a prayer of repentance

from david this is after the prophet

nathan comes and tells david that god

saw something he did i’m going to break

it down for you so that you understand

the power of it but first i want to

start with these scriptures

so verse 6 begins it says

behold

you desire truth in the inward parts

and in the hidden part

you will make me to know wisdom

and then in verse 10 it says create in

me a clean heart oh god and renew a

steadfast spirit within me we’ve heard

that scripture before over and over

again and verse 13 says then

i will teach transgressors your ways and

sinners shall be

converted to you

father god

there’s truly no one like you

and when you speak we have no choice

but to understand who you are and who we

are more clearly

it is my prayer that this would be a

moment just like that

that we would create space that allows

you to really permeate our thoughts our

excuses our distractions and that just

for a moment this would be an intimate

encounter with you father i turn myself

over to you and i said quite literally

have your way

i cannot do this without you as a matter

of fact i will not do this without you

and i have a feeling that when we come

together that there will be no choice

but for those who are receiving this

word to feel your presence to feel your

love to feel your peace and to fill a

womb

that is meant to birth the best versions

of them and so father we turn this

moment over to you and we say do that

thing that you do when you sit in a room

in jesus name i pray

amen

my subject

for those of you who like to take notes

is out of control

out of control i’ve been

thinking a lot about control especially

with us being in this you know

self-isolation

and one of the things that i am really

trying to navigate even within my own

household is still having some

element of control now and home are all

the same space work home and school are

now all this work home school and

restaurants are now all of the same

place and for me sometimes it can feel

like things in my house are literally

out of control

so kind of early on in this process i

realized that if i was going to make

this season work for me that i needed

one place that really felt organized and

in control and for me that has become

our bedroom and i told my husband this

is the space that i want to keep clean i

want to keep it organized i want this to

be the place that we come into after the

family room has been destroyed and the

kitchen has been torn up we come into

this room and this is the place of peace

and so i’ve been very intentional about

making sure that the room is clean

but the way my schedule is set up i

can’t like make it all the way clean the

way i know it’s supposed to be clean so

i’ve learned a trick

and this is my trick right so make the

bed if you make the bed that’s like 50

of the room being clean okay so i make

the bed in the morning then i take all

of the things that are laying around the

room pile them up in my arms throw them

in the closet i’ll talk to them later

okay the room has suddenly gone from

being chaos into being this place of

peace and tranquility and organization

my husband has been telling me for weeks

oh my gosh thank you so much for just

working so hard to keep the room clean

i’m i’m a he’s been picking up his stuff

he’s like let me get this off the floor

i know you worked so hard to keep the

room clean he doesn’t know that the

closet has all of these things piled up

in it it doesn’t matter the room is

clean that’s all he needs to know

then this weekend happened

this weekend i’m doing the girl’s hair

because now the the hair salon the

restaurants the school the work the home

it’s all the same thing i’m doing the

girl’s hair i’m right in the middle of

trying to finesse these cornrows when my

husband asked me for something problem

is what he’s looking for is in the

closet

the closet where i’ve been piling things

up that he doesn’t know about

so now i’m in a dilemma because my

dilemma is i can either stop finessing

this cornrow that i’ve been studying on

youtube for hours or i can dare to let

him go into the closet

so i let him go into the closet because

ain’t nobody spend all that time on

youtube to let these cornrows just fall

apart

so i just told him you know what it’s in

the closet if you look in the corner

it’s still in the gray bag you can find

it no problem and i’m waiting

i’m waiting for this moment when he

comes downstairs and he’s like hey what

is happening in the closet i’m there and

i’m waiting and i hear his footsteps

coming down the steps and i do one of

them big gulps and i’m like you know

what whatever you know how you start

preparing yourself for what you think is

going to happen and so you start telling

yourself what you’re going to tell that

person when they come listen i’m only

one person we have six children i’m a

chef i’m a man i’m a teacher i’m doing

all of these things i don’t have time to

make sure everything is speaking span

and do you not know that he comes

downstairs and he says nothing

about the mess that’s in the closet not

one word and now i’m really bugging

because i’m like i’ve been spending all

of this time trying to make sure that

the room doesn’t look a mess and you

walk into a mess and don’t even

recognize that it’s a mess

and that’s when i realized that all of

this time i had been trying to control

this atmosphere trying to make this

atmosphere be something that it really

was not what i lost in that moment was

not really control it was the illusion

of

control

you see

i would navigate this stuff being in the

closet seamlessly i would just pull the

clothes that were in my dresser and i

would walk around as if that issue that

mess that big pile of things i needed to

sort through didn’t exist at all and i

thought i was in control but the truth

is that it was really in control of me

because it was dictating how i showed up

in my own house

i wonder

how many of us

think that we are in control

but in reality all we have done is learn

to move around

the areas that we need to have

confronted

i was studying this message and and i

was praying and i just kept hearing

this message about control this message

about the illusion of control i was even

doing a podcast the other day and we

were talking about how this isolation

has not just robbed us of control what

it really robbed us of was the illusion

that we were in control in the first

place and i realized that so many of us

are unwilling to let go of the illusion

of control we have over our issues over

our bitterness over our brokenness

because we are too afraid to spend the

time

and develop the intimacy required to

really sort through

what became a mess

in our life

you see sometimes we talk about how

people only like the highlight reel on

instagram people only show their

highlight reels they only show the

things that make people want to

celebrate them and want to acknowledge

them but the truth is that the highlight

reel is not just for instagram there are

many of us who can only see ourselves

through our highlight reel

because we’re afraid that if we start to

look at those areas where we know we

need to grow in the areas where we know

we need god to touch our lives i need

you to help me navigate these

abandonment issues these trust issues my

pride my ego we don’t want to look at

those things so we only look at the

things that we do well and as i was

preaching last week i thought about this

notion of coach versus cheerleader and

if it’s okay i want to dig a little bit

deeper into what it means to really be

able to have a coach instead of just

having a cheerleader because if you only

look at what you’re good at and you only

celebrate what you do well then you will

end up becoming a lesser version of who

god has called you to be because the

truth is you are strong not in the areas

where you think you are strong but in

the areas where you must allow god to

step in and show you what he knows about

you so you never have to be a danger to

yourself again if you don’t decide to

start sorting through those things that

are dictating how you function and how

you show up and how you connect with

people then what’s going to happen is

you’re going to think that you are in

control of it because you fixed your

trust issues i just don’t trust anybody

i fixed the way that i have bitterness i

learned to roll my eyes whenever they

came into the room i think i’m in

control of it but the truth is that it

is now controlling me and i’m not going

to lie to you i came into tonight with

an agenda i came into tonight with the

agenda of making you open the door to

that part of your life to that part of

your spirit to that part of your soul

that you cannot bear to look at because

it doesn’t make you feel like a winner

and it doesn’t make you feel like you

have it all together but i came here not

to shame you but to let you know that

the secret sauce to who you are the

secret sauce i feel this prophetically

for somebody that your creativity is

laying dormant in your vulnerability and

you refuse to be vulnerable and i hear

god saying until you release yourself to

be everything that i’ve called you to be

not just the good things then you will

be emulating someone else’s work and

emulating someone else’s path instead of

taking that unique vulnerability that

god gave you and using it to channel it

into ideas and creativity that can

change the path that is ahead of you

sometimes we don’t want to look at those

areas of our life where we know we need

to have confrontation

because we’re afraid of the shame

connected to it

and the enemy makes us believe that

because we feel shamed and we don’t want

to feel shame then we shouldn’t address

it at all

but i want you to know that there is a

voice past shame

that if you dare to look past the shame

if you dare to look past what you did

and to start asking god why did i do it

to look past what you feel and to start

asking god show me how i ended up in

this situation in the first place then

he can show you how to transform it you

see change shame rather tries to keep

you chained i want to say that again

shame tries to keep you chained but

worship tries to change you your worship

from that place of vulnerability is

meant to change you your worship from

that place of knowing where your

weaknesses is you will never ever be as

strong as you can be until you recognize

where your weaknesses are that is in

business that is in relationships that

is in any area of your life you are only

as strong as the awareness of your

weaknesses while everyone else wants to

know where you’re strong when someone

really wants to be in relationship with

you what they want to know is where

you’re weak i want to know how i can

serve you i want to know how i can make

you better the most profitable

businesses are not businesses that

steady keep on producing based off of

what is already working the businesses

that come in and take over overnight are

the ones who started looking at an area

where there was a need i dare you to

start asking yourself if you want to be

a better friend if you want to be a

better employee if you want to be a

better sister if you want to be a better

lover to start asking yourself where do

i need someone to connect with me i hate

i’m sorry hate is such a strong word but

sometimes i get so frustrated because

people say i want to be in a

relationship i want to be in a

relationship and the question i always

have is why and it’s like well i want to

have company what you need to understand

is when you want to be in a relationship

you need to know the areas where you are

weak so you can know what you’re looking

for in a partner i need someone to help

me balance out how critical i am i need

someone to help me balance out the way

that i spend money i’m looking for a

partner i can go to the movies with

anybody i can netflix and chill with

anybody i don’t need any more company i

need a partner i need a strategy and you

cannot have a proper strategy until you

dissect where you are weak and that’s

why we are constantly telling people

until you learn to know yourself and

learn to know who you are on the inside

and love yourself you will never pick

someone who was worthy of who you are

because you will pick someone who makes

you feel good in the places you know you

are already good instead of the person

who challenges you to grow and

challenges you to think better and

challenge you to show up in the world

differently

i don’t need anyone

to stroke my ego

i need someone who can recognize

that as strong as i am on this side

i still have some areas of growth and

development on this side

and someone who is wise enough

to recogni recognize that neither of

those sides define who i am but it is

rather the combination of them both

who make me who i am

you see

you do no one

any

any promises you do no one any good

when you allow them to just see

your highlight reel

and i want to break this notion

that the only way that you can look at

the areas in your life where you need

growth is to see them through shame

and rather to see them through the

opportunity to transform

our director of operations at woman

evolved whenever we have something that

we need to work on she doesn’t call it

an area of weakness she calls it an

opportunity for growth we have an area

where we have an opportunity for growth

i wonder when is the last time you

really asked yourself where is an area

that i have an opportunity for growth

there’s nothing like listening to

yourself preach and i’ve been listening

to myself preach lately and part of the

reasons why it takes me a really long

time to pick out clips is because i’m

just not looking to see the parts where

it sounds good i’m not just looking for

the parts where people i feel are going

to resonate with it i look for the

places where i will have an opportunity

for growth people who are constantly

looking for opportunities for growth

will always experience growth because

they’re looking for ways to become

better

i think

what happened to david

is that he stopped looking for

opportunities for

growth in psalm 51

this is a prayer of repentance

but it’s connected to second samuel 12

and i if i gave you any homework it

would be to read all of second samuel

12.

i’m going to give you the abbreviated

cliff note jerry springer version

this is what happened all right so david

david is supposed to be a battle david

ain’t that battle david is at the house

kicking it david is at the house kicking

it he looks out the window he sees bad

sheep but bathsheba is naked for the

lord okay she has given him a praise i

don’t know if it was appraised okay too

much she is out there she is naked she

is bathing david sees her david desires

her david ends up sleeping with

bathsheba the problem is that bathsheba

is somebody else’s wife

not just somebody else’s wife he’s she’s

like his right hand person’s wife

and he sleeps with her

and then she gets pregnant

and his remedy for fixing this is not

owning up to what he did it’s ultimately

having uriah killed

and when he has him killed he feels like

he has solved the problem that he tucked

it away in the corner and no one is

going to know what he did until 2 samuel

12.

and in 2nd samuel 12

god sends a prophet named nathan to

david

and this prophet tells david tells david

basically god saw what you did

he uses this analogy he’s so cold with

it he uses this analogy and when he uses

this analogy he makes david kind of

wonder what he’s talking about but he

doesn’t know that in the analogy that

one of those characters is representing

david you got to read second samuel 12.

and when he recognizes that he’s

actually talking about a character trait

that exists within him he realizes that

he has sinned against god

isn’t it funny

that we are sometimes able to pick out

what’s wrong with other people better

than we are able to identify what’s

happening with us

i always challenge people who come to me

and they’re talking about what someone

else did i’m like but what role did you

play into it because the reason why we

are most of the time able to highlight

what’s wrong with someone else it is

because it is the same area where we

have a deficiency within ourselves when

i’m looking at people’s pictures and i’m

looking at maybe their bodies and i’m

looking at their hair what i’m really

looking at are the areas that i see as

trouble within myself to compare myself

to what they look like when you start

looking at someone’s character traits

when you start looking at the way that

someone talks to somebody and it just

gets underneath your skin and you just

don’t like it what you should really ask

yourself is does that exist within me

god why am i so able to see that in

someone else is there something in me

that looks like what i’m pointing out in

someone else because when you start

pointing the finger it’s the old school

saying when you point one finger there’s

three of them pointing back at you david

starts pointing this finger

not realizing that there are still three

fingers pointing back at him

first of all one of the things that i

loved about this moment that nathan and

david has is that it proves to me why it

should say why the bible says that

vengeance is the lord’s

you see

uriah wasn’t there

when god ends up calling david on the

carpet for what he did

but that’s a word for somebody who has

been wondering is someone who wronged me

ever going to receive the the karma are

they going to receive the revenge that

they should get based off of how they

treat me and this is when the the bible

saying vengeance is mine say if the lord

is so important because god sees i want

you to know this that god sees

everything that has ever happened to you

and sometimes we are tormented by the

fact that we think that someone got away

with what they did to us and i hear god

saying that no one gets away with what

they’ve done on this earth but that they

are going to pay the price for it but

listen they’re not just going to pay the

price you see we want revenge god wants

transformation and that’s why vengeance

needs to be his and not ours because

what we want is for someone to hurt the

same way that they hurt us and what god

wants is for the person to understand

why they did it so that they will never

do it again and he’s about to have a

radical moment with david where david is

going to recognize not just what he did

but why he did it and it’s going to

bring him to his knees i want you to be

crazy enough to stop asking god to make

someone hurt the way that they hurt you

and to start asking god to make them

change god so that they never have to

hurt someone the way that they hurt you

before it’s too cheap to ask for god to

give you revenge when he wants

transformation so god i’m gonna come

into alignment oh and sometimes it hurts

and sometimes i have to become a bigger

person to do it but god i’m gonna ask

that you would bring me into alignment

with how you see that person god you see

them whole god you see them healed but i

experienced them broken and i

experienced them shattered and so father

i’m asking you that you would begin to

touch them so that they change so that

they can be transformed we’re talking

about big girl panties we talk about

putting on your big girl draws and start

acting like someone who recognizes that

it is too cheap for me to ask god to

lower someone down to what i want them

to experience instead god elevate them

grow them up help them to recognize the

implications of their actions help them

to understand that you can’t just treat

people any kind of way father i don’t

want you to have them out here more

broken than they already are father i’m

asking you to heal the person that hurt

me i’m asking you to change the person

who set me back i’m asking you to help

me to no longer make them a weapon but

instead to use them as a tool father

that you would place a testimony down on

the inside of them so that they can not

only be changed but they can change

everyone connected to them as well and

that is the type of radical prayer that

we must pray when we say father i’m

going to leave it up to you if you left

it up to me i may wish harm on them if

you left it up to me i may wish evil on

them but if i leave it up to you they

may actually change they may actually be

transformed and i don’t want to see any

more darkness in this world and i don’t

want to see any more evil in this world

so let me not add my bitterness into the

mix let me not add my anger into the mix

father instead i’m asking that you would

help my father break that addiction i’m

asking that you would help my mother

recognize that she can’t talk to anyone

any kind of way father i tried to fix it

on my own now i’m turning it over to you

and i’m saying father let the vengeance

be in your hands let the transformation

be in your hands father it hurt me long

enough now i relieve myself from the

expectation of needing the same person

who broke me to heal me now i’m just

asking father that you would heal me and

them imagine what kind of christian you

would be if you stopped asking god to

heal me and punish them and instead

father heal both of us father make us

both brand new help us both to

understand who we are and how we should

operate and function in the world father

i don’t need our destinies to be tied

together for me to wish somebody well i

can wish you well while i go this way

and you go that way but i am not

satisfied

i’m not satisfied

allowing my anger and my bitterness

to control how i want another person’s

outcome to be

and that’s the kind of maturity

that’s the kind of spiritual maturity

that we have to have when we recognize

that i trust god is capable

and i trust that he’s able to bring

awareness to every area that needs to

touch from him so what nathan does

when he has this moment with david

as he lets david know god saw that

that’s a word from somebody right there

god saw that god saw that i know it

looks like they got away with it but god

saw that i know it looks like they moved

on and that they won and they were happy

but i’m telling you god saw that you may

not see how god deals with them but you

have to know that god sees everything

and you have to be confident enough with

what god sees that you come to a place

where you say i don’t have to see how

you fix it i don’t have to see how you

work it all out i just need to know that

you saw that that’s a word for somebody

who’s been wondering god did you see how

they treated me god did you see how they

broke me god did you see how they

damaged me and god says i saw that i saw

that and i’m going to make sure that it

never happens again in my own

timing

and nathan

has this conversation with david

and he explains to david exactly what he

did and the implications of what he did

and i started studying and praying i

wanted to understand how is it

that david ended up in this situation in

the first place david this valiant

warrior

how did he end up in a situation

where he was willing to commit adultery

and even murder

and i realized that what happened to

david

is that david

lost the posture of honor

and instead

he started feeling entitled

you got to start looking

at the areas where you once felt honored

and start asking yourself do i now feel

entitled

in the place where i once felt honored

when god first gave you that spouse when

god first gave you that job opportunity

remember when you felt

honored i feel the presence of god on

this

when we recognize the honor connected to

what god gives us we treat it

differently

god i honor you for what you gave me god

i honor you that you chose me god i

honor you that you using me you could be

using anyone else but father you dare to

use me god the honor what if we lost the

posture of honor what if we gain the

world and gain the kingdoms and gain

riches and jewels and fame but we lost

the honor connected to it god help us to

never lose the honor connected to being

a part of what you’re doing in this

earth david was the one who had a who

was a man after god’s own heart he was

acknowledged and celebrated for the

honor that he had connected to what god

did in his life and in this moment he

went from being honored

to being entitled

i want to challenge you

especially in this season where we can

be so stressed

and so at our wits end and so

unsure of what tomorrow holds

to start looking for honor again

father i’m looking for

the honor that i have a job it may not

be the best job i may not have the best

boss in the world but father i have a

job and a season where 20 plus million

people are filing for unemployment

father i honor that that is you honor

says that i recognize that this came

from you that’s why giving and tithes

and offerings are so important for me

it’s important for me because it’s my

way of saying father i honor you i honor

that you spoke to me i honor that you

gave this word to me and honor releases

god’s presence over your life there’s

somebody who’s been wondering when god’s

presence is going to show up and i hear

god saying that my presence needs a

place that is befitting of the honor

connected to it if you start honoring

what i gave you then you will start

seeing my presence showing up in your

household it’s going to sound crazy but

when you open your eyes in the morning

instead of just wondering what’s on your

to-do list and wondering what all you

have to accomplish to take a minute and

say father i honor you for waking me up

this morning father i honor you that i

woke up with a roof over my head that i

don’t even know what the weather is like

outside because you provided somewhere

for me to stay father i recognize that

that is not happenstance and i don’t

ever want to start taking for granted

what you gave me i remember when i used

to feel honored to take this stage i

remember when i used to feel honored to

show up in my marriage god that is the

same kind of honor that is going to

sustain you for the next few years the

next few decades your next is connected

to how you honor your now and if you

don’t see any honor and now you can stop

praying that god would give you next

until you see the honor and what you do

now until you get a heart posture that

says father if you don’t do anything

else for me i honor the fact that you

brought me this far father if i never

get to do it the way that i feel like i

could do it i honor the fact that you

exposed me father i honor the fact that

my family’s still together we may be

calling each other from all across the

world but somebody doesn’t have it and

father i honor you that i got this

chance to show up this morning honor

releases the presence of god i hear god

saying that you don’t know how to pray

but start honoring me you don’t know how

to worship but start honoring what i did

in your life start honoring that i gave

you that idea this isn’t just an idea

father it is an honor to wake up in the

morning and to possess something that i

know only came from you father it is an

honor that i get to hear a word from you

father i honor the fact that you brought

people into my life in a time when i

felt like i was all by myself god you

brought someone into my life i want to

rebuke the spirit of fear and i’m going

to tell you how we rebuke it we rebuke

it by honoring what god is doing now i

don’t care what fear is doing i care

what god has been consistently doing

he’s been consistent throughout the

years father i honor you father i honor

who you are in my marriage i honor who

you are in my family i feel like heaven

wants to break out over your house i

feel like heaven wants to break out over

your depression father i forgot to honor

you i forgot to place you on the throne

i forgot to make room for you in the

midst of all of this so father

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father

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restore me

to the posture of honor

where all i wanted to do was serve

where all i wanted to do was love

where it wasn’t about whether or not

someone was going to sign a check or

someone was going to acknowledge me i

used to show up just excited because you

had been ordering my steps and taking me

places that i never should have been

father i honor you you went ahead of me

you made my crooked path straight father

i honor you

i honor

that there’s still air in my lungs

father i honor you

that somebody buried their child and i

hug my night father i honor you

that my ends are being met right now i

don’t have time to worry about next week

i honor you for what you did this week i

honor you for what you did last month

father take me back to the place of

honor not need not regret not worry not

fear not concern father help me to live

in the consciousness of honor david felt

entitled to someone else’s wife

and it made him lose access to god

because he was no longer the person

who said father

i’m honored to use this slingshot

to slay any giant coming against your

people

and so

david has to do something crazy

that we don’t always like to do because

it sounds so churchy and religious

but david has to repent

he has to repent because somewhere along

the way

he changed his mind on his position

and when he changed his mind it changed

his actions

and the only way to get back to who he

was

is to repent that is

to change his mind again

so that it would change his actions

and as i was studying this prayer

and as i was studying for tonight

i felt like god was saying to me

specifically

that someone is not

in the place of honor anymore

that someone is

so inundated with thoughts about where

they should be and who they should

become that they feel entitled to a

destiny when they haven’t even honored

the present that they’re in right now

i feel entitled to more i feel like i

should have more i feel like i should

have i should have i should be i should

be that is the spirit of entitlement it

is not just ambition it is entitlement i

feel entitled to something i should have

it i should have it and you are so

consumed with what you should have that

you don’t see god has blessed where you

are right now

this is not one of those feel good

jump up and down messages

this message is meant to break open your

heart

and to ask god am i complaining about

something i once prayed about

am i stressing and

anxious and worried

about something that used to be an honor

because when you really honor something

and hear me clearly honoring doesn’t

mean you stay trapped honor means that

even when you leave you leave with honor

you leave with respect because you

recognize that god is watching it’s

almost as if david forgot that god was

watching god was watching the entire

time he thought that he was getting away

with it but god is watching god is

watching how you talk about that thing

he gave you he knows that it’s time for

you to move on to next he knows that

you’re ready for more growth but he says

it doesn’t matter how you leave you will

know that you know how to adult and you

will know that you are mature when you

recognize that even when i leave i leave

with honor that even when i leave you

don’t have to worry about me betraying

your secrets you don’t have to worry

about me talking badly about you because

i know without a shadow of a doubt that

god brought me into it and because god

brought me into it i’m not going to

dishonor it even when i’m out of it

because i am protecting the honor that

was connected to it in the very first

place i honor

what god does in my life

and so david

david has to get back to the place of

honor

where he recognizes that

his actions led him away

david’s actions led him to be king

and it was his same actions that led him

to be separated to have this separation

from god

your actions are leading you somewhere

i know it’s so cute for everyone to say

live in the moment you better not live

in the moment hear me clearly now don’t

you live in the moment you mess around

and live in the moment and end up five

ten years down the road and don’t know

how you got there your actions are

leading you somewhere you are not just

out here doing whatever you want to do

your actions have consequences and you

have to ask yourself can i deal with the

consequences connected to my actions

you’re married talking about you a flirt

child you’re gonna flirt your way all

the way to divorce court your actions

are leading you somewhere you talk about

i just like to spend money and then you

somewhere evicted because your actions

are leading you somewhere do not live in

the moment start asking god what is the

consequence connected to this action

because your actions are leading

somewhere and on the contrary when you

start building a life that you want god

to bless you have to know that he is

looking at your actions he’s looking at

how you handle what he has given you in

this moment i can know whether or not i

trust you by your actions your actions

speak louder than your words ever will

you keep telling me you want to get

closer to god you keep telling me that

you want to have this time so that you

can build your relationship with god but

your actions are telling me that you

would rather be on tick tock doing

challenges child your actions are

leading you somewhere and if they’re

leading you further away from god god

will always send you a prophet that says

wait a minute

you’ve gone too far

wait a minute god wants to bring you

back

and when god sends this prophet nathan

to david

it’s because his actions have led him

astray

and i just for a minute want to dissect

this prayer of repentance

i want you to read all of psalm 51 i got

all kinds of homework for you i want you

to read second samuel 12 and then i want

you to read all of psalm 51

and i want you to study this prayer of

repentance

the first thing that david does in this

prayer of repentance is that he

acknowledges who god is he honors god

and then he acknowledges his sin he

acknowledges that he is now seeing what

he did the same way that god sees it

you will never have breakthrough over

that lust over that addiction over your

bitterness over your brokenness until

you begin to see it the same way that

god sees it when you see it the same way

that god sees it you will see that it is

keeping you from being who god has

called you to be to sin means to

literally miss the mark the reason why

god hates sin is because it means that

you miss the mark for who he has called

you to be and when you start to see what

is standing in your way the same way

that god sees it you will not see it as

a cute little issue anymore you will not

see it as a little dilemma that you can

tuck away in the closet and keep there

and it won’t affect your life anymore

when you start seeing it the way that

god sees it you will start recognizing

that if i don’t get a handle of this

this thing is going to sabotage my

destiny i came here to tell you

something yes you are ambitious yes you

have ideas yes you have creativity but

you are human and that means that there

is something in you that has the ability

to sabotage what god has placed down on

the inside of you and the greatest thing

you can do yourself is to ask god to

show you who you are so that i can

recognize what is in me that will

sabotage the very thing that i’m praying

for there are some issues that i have

seen pop up in my own life that i

realize are trying to sabotage what god

has placed down on the inside of me

feelings of inadequacy feelings of

insecurity and i believed those thoughts

for as long as i could and then one day

i got a revelation that those feelings

and those the emotions were leading me

astray and i started getting curious

about if they were leading me astray

then what were they taking me away from

i came here to let you know that you got

to take depression seriously you got to

take those suicidal thoughts seriously

i’m tired of people just living with

these emotions that lead them astray and

you got to start asking god god if these

are leading me somewhere what is it

taking me away from and i hear god

saying that there is a version of you

that you haven’t even met yet that there

is an identity that you haven’t even

tapped in yet and when you start to see

those limitations the same way same way

that i see them then you will get

aggressive and you will start going to

therapy and you will start going to

rehab because you will become so

intrigued with what it’s taking you away

from that you will start getting

aggressive about recognizing that i

won’t let anything not even what’s in me

keep me from laying hold of what god has

placed down on the inside of me i got

tired of talking bad about myself i got

tired of having low self-esteem and i

started getting curious i want to

prophesy over you right now that you

would stop that you would start getting

tired of you talking to yourself any

kind of way and every place where you

were talking negatively about yourself

in every place where you were doubting

what god is doing down on the inside of

you that he would replace it with

curiosity

i hear god saying i want you to be

curious again

that i want you to be curious about who

you are

and i know failure failure comes and it

makes us believe that we can’t be

curious anymore

but i hear god saying that it will be

your curiosity about what i can do

through you

that will unlock the healing that you

need for the insecurities that plague

you

god i’m curious

that out of all the people who could

have been alive in this season you chose

me father why is that

of all the people who could have been in

this room why did you choose me father

i’m curious about why you placed me in

this marriage i’m curious about why you

chose me to raise this child while you

chose me to build this business god i’m

curious it’s not a burden anymore i

don’t feel like it’s just something that

i have to do anymore now i’m curious

that every time i tried to run away you

kept pulling me back and every time i

tried to push you away you kept pulling

me in father i’m tired in front and i’m

finally curious i dare you to start

asking god what is it that you see what

is it that you know god i’m gonna keep

serving and i’m gonna keep showing up

and i’m gonna keep humbling myself until

i figure out what it is that you place

down on the inside of me and then when

you figure it out make sure you go the

extra step to worship and honor god

because he showed you something about

you that you never knew was down on the

inside of you don’t be one of those

leopards who get healed and forget to

turn around i dare you to be that one

crazy leopard that says before i can

live in this celebration of what god

said i gotta be a church man for a

minute i gotta be a church girl for a

minute and i gotta say first give an

honor to god who is the head of my life

who saw me when i didn’t see myself who

placed me in rooms i had no business

being in father i honor you

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david

david he

he honors god

and what

god did for him

and then he acknowledges he comes into

agreement with god god i’m in agreement

with you that this relationship is less

than me father i’m in agreement with you

that this mindset is paralyzing me i’m

in agreement with you i hate it i don’t

want to live with it any longer i don’t

want to accept it any longer i come into

agreement with god i come into agreement

with god about the way that you have

been living your life i come into

agreement with god about the way that

i’ve been thinking about this listen i

had to start preaching and i kept saying

god i don’t feel qualified god i don’t

know if i can do it and god says you

will never have power until you come

into agreement with what i see and i

messed around and came into agreement

with god and i said god has an anointing

over my life i didn’t understand it at

first but when i couldn’t trust my own

thoughts i decided to trust his thoughts

i started to say his ways are not my

ways his thoughts are not my thoughts

and so if i got to choose between my

thoughts and his thoughts between my

ways and his ways i’m going to choose

his ways father i come into agreement

with what you say about me

i am fearfully and wonderfully made

father i do have the power to walk away

from this

father you’re making all things work

together for my good i’m not talking

about just quoting scriptures i’m

talking about literally coming into

agreement father

i want to prophesy somebody’s watching

this video right now and they have so

many doubts and so many fears that they

cannot come into agreement with what you

have said about them father i’m asking

right now in the name of jesus that you

would remove it right now that you would

remove every limitation that you would

remove every paradigm that’s keeping

them from coming into agreement i rebuke

it in the name of jesus i rebuke it in

the name that is above every other name

i rebuke it and i send it back to hell

where it came from it’s only standing in

their way because if it ever got out of

their way they would get a revelation

about who they are they would get a

revelation about who you have called

them to be and they would wage war on

hell you think it’s about you i hear the

enemy saying that you are the greatest

threat to his kingdom and if you ever

get a revelation about what god placed

down on the inside of you then rivers of

living water would start flowing out of

you i came here to let somebody know

that the rivers are flowing i came here

to let somebody know that the drought is

over i feel the river coming i feel the

river coming somebody better get into

the flow the flow is what god is doing

the flow is what god is saying

and david recognizes

he says i gotta get back in the flow

i gotta get back in the flow of what god

is doing

i saw myself slipping away and i don’t

wanna be anywhere but in the presence of

the lord so i gotta change my mind so i

can change my actions i feel that for

somebody i don’t know who you are but i

hear god saying you gotta get back in

the flow you’ve been in the flow of fear

you’ve been in the flow of anxiety

you’ve been in the flow of being

paralyzed and not moving and i hear god

saying that you were never supposed to

be in those flows that it’s time for you

to get back in the flow of who i called

you to be pride’s gotta let you go

eagles gotta get up off of you i’m

getting back in the flow if that’s you i

want you to drop me a comment i want to

know who’s getting back on the flow on

the live stream i want to know who’s

getting back on the flow on facebook you

better watch out devil i’m getting back

in the flow you better watch that

depression i’m getting back in the flow

you better watch out i’m calling my

therapist i’m getting my health together

i’m getting back in the flow the flow

the flow the flow the flow i got

somewhere to go so i gotta get in the

flow i have someone to become i gotta

get back in the flow i gotta grow i

can’t grow unless i’m in the flow

this is why

this is why they say david is a man

after god’s heart

he didn’t always have a hold of god’s

heart

but when he realized that he was out of

the flow of god’s heart

he did whatever was necessary to get

back in the flow

fear is not in the flow

pride is not in the flow ego was not in

the flow

and so he says to himself

in verse six very quickly i’m gonna say

this i’m gonna close verse six says

behold you desire truth in the inward

parts truth

that word truth in the hebrew it means

stability

says god

part of why i need to

get back in the flow

is because my inward parts

they’re not stable

my inward parts are only stable

when i’m aligned with who you are

he acknowledges in verse six

that what god wants for you god wants

you to have stability

in your inward parts he wants you to be

confident he doesn’t want you to be

shakeable he doesn’t want you to hear

one thing and lose it all he wants you

to trust him he wants you to know that

he’s not a man that he shall lie he

wants to give you those things he wants

you to have stability i know your mother

couldn’t give it to you i know your

father couldn’t give it to you i know

the relationship didn’t give it to you

but god is the one who wants to give you

stability and you will thank god that no

person could give it to you because when

god gives you stability no man can take

it away from you if a relationship gives

you stability and it leaves then you

will be undone but when god gives you

stability

it can never be taken away from you

psalms 51 and 6 says behold you desire

your truth in the inward parts and in

the hidden part you will make me to know

wisdom

you’re going to give me stability

because in the places that i’ve been

keeping hidden

you’re going to give me wisdom

god’s not going to make you figure this

out on your own

god says if you let me in i’m going to

give you wisdom

i’ll show you how to walk away

i’ll show you how to build the business

i’ll show it to you i’ll give you wisdom

that 51-6 that part of his repentance is

letting god into those inward parts

because he recognizes i need wisdom on

how to handle this i need wisdom on how

to recover from what i did i need wisdom

on how to walk with my head held high

after all that i’ve gone through i need

wisdom god i need you to speak to me

and then verse 10

what i love so much about verse 10 and

we quote this scripture all the time

creating me a clean heart oh god and

renew as steadfast

spirit within me that word create is not

like create that we see in genesis

this word create means to cut back

that means that he gave god permission

to cut him back

into a clean heart

what if

the only way you can get back

to having a clean heart

is if some things are cut away

are you bold enough

to give god permission to cut you to

heal you

are you hungry enough

to say god i don’t care if it hurts if

it means that it’s going to heal me

i don’t need you to be my feel-good

genie i don’t need you to be my

feel-good doctor

what i want more than anything

is for you to show me

what you’ve seen in me

then he says renew a steadfast spirit in

me your spirit is supposed to be

steadfast and he says to take me back

i’m reminded reminded of jeremiah when

it says before i formed you in your

mother’s womb i knew you god breathed a

steadfast spirit in you it wasn’t

shakeable

he says take me back to that

and then lastly verse 13.

he says then i will teach

after i’ve gone through this process

sometimes we want to teach before we’ve

gone through the process but i hear god

saying that your testimony is most

powerful when you can give someone else

tools he says then i will teach

transgressors your ways

and sinners shall be converted to you

i’m reminded of revelation

12 and they overcame by the word of

their test by the blood of the lamb and

the word

of their testimony

what is this all about

sometimes

we feel like when we are in control

of our different idiosyncrasies

when we feel like we have them figured

out and tucked away neatly where they

don’t show up in our life we think that

we have our lives under control

that’s just like david in this text

he kind of thought that he’d gotten away

with what happened and then this prophet

comes and he lets him know i know you

think you’re in control but you’re

really out of

control and if you really want to be in

control then you got to be out of

control and let god

take control

and so he has to repent for trying to

manage things himself

and instead create a space

where he can be out of control

so god can be in control

when i came to this place and my walk

with god

i realized that i had spent so long

trying to be in control

of how people saw me of how people

experienced me

but it wasn’t until i decided you know

what

who i am is who i am

and how i speak is how i speak

and my truth is my truth when i decided

that i didn’t want to be in control

anymore that’s when god took over i

changed my mind and then it changed my

actions

my prayer for you

in this season

is that you would be hungry

for a change of mind

so that god can change your actions

that you would be bold enough to open up

the closet of your soul

and see what patterns have accumulated

what

character traits have accumulated that

have not come from god

and that you would ask god not so that

you can feel ashamed but so that you can

be transformed to see them

and to show you what he can do with them

in his hands

my goal and my agenda for this moment

simply and purely

is to bring you to a place of

surrender

and i believe that as you

open up your heart

to getting back in that place of

surrender

that god is going to give you so much

truth

so much wisdom so much revelation

that you won’t be afraid any longer

someone’s been battling the spirit of

fear

and i hear god saying that he’s got

wisdom for your fear he has strategy for

your fear

but we got to be willing to first honor

who he is

then come into agreement about how he

sees fear god has not given me the

spirit of fear i come into agreement

that anything that hasn’t come from god

can’t stay into my life god didn’t give

me this spirit of anxiety i come into

agreement with what god wants for my

life and then my actions have to look

like what i come into agreement with

and when your actions come into

agreement

then you’re going to be restored

you’re going to be renewed and you are

going to be

unshakable

but it starts with you first being out

of control

i want to

pray for you tonight

you’re watching this message

and you pride yourself on your ability

to be in control

i don’t let anything get to me i don’t

let anything shake me i’m in control i’m

in control

are you in control or is god in control

you see the thing about god is he’s not

going to fight you for control

he gave us free will you can do it

however you like

but i’m telling you that your life will

be so much more hard and challenging

than it has to be when you insist on

being in control

there’s something we say at my house

whenever things are like out of control

we’re like there’s nothing we can do

about it

and that’s the truth and there’s nothing

i want to do about it

because if i do something about it i may

mess it up

but if god gives me insight on what i am

to do about it then i never have to

question what i have to do next or what

the outcome will be

because i allowed him to give me wisdom

instead of me forcing my life to fit

into this pretty little box that makes

me comfortable

so i want to pray for you

you need a mind change

you need

a spiritual shift

and i believe that it starts with you

first honoring god

i feel that

that as you shift him where he belongs

that he’s going to shift you as well

when we honor and we worship we grab

ahold of god

but it’s not because we bring god down

to us it’s because he pulls us up to him

and right now no matter where you are in

your house in your car at the job within

yourself i want to challenge you to

create an altar

an altar of honor

i’m going to pray with you

but i want you to pray from that altar

i want you to bring an offering to that

altar god i want to bring my fear to

this altar i want to bring my shame to

this altar father i’ve been functioning

in my pride and my ego and now all of

these things are coming in my direction

and i can’t keep my walls up any longer

people are going to see that i’m

actually human that i’m actually

vulnerable i want you to take that pride

to the altar i want you to take it to

the altar and we’re going to honor god

from the place where you feel

like you

are in control

and we’re going to honor god from that

place because when we honor him we give

him permission to be in control

and then what i’m going to pray

is that you would come into agreement

with what god sees

when he sees those areas of your life

and that as you come into agreement with

what god sees that you’re also going to

come into agreement with god’s power to

break it i feel the spirit of god on

that when we come into agreement with

god when we come into relationship with

god i see it the same way you see it you

don’t think that you can break that

thing off of your life because you’re

looking at it from your perspective but

when you come into it with god’s

perspective you also get god’s power and

god’s going to give you the power to

break mindsets and addictions and

relationships and ways of being that you

were never supposed to be in and i hear

god saying that it is going to be easier

than you think it is that you think it’s

going to be hard and you think it’s

going to be challenging and that’s why

you haven’t done it but i hear god

saying when you come into agreement with

how i see it you won’t have any choice

but to change it because you will

recognize that that is an area that is

keeping you from seeing the glory of god

i want to prophesy glory over every area

right now where you feel like there’s a

stepping stone that you have to overcome

there’s glory waiting on you on that

next level

then god’s going to give us a clean

heart

we’re going to give him permission to

cut it away

and then we’re going to be monuments of

his glory and we’re going to reach back

and pull someone else up

in the area where we were once

struggling

so get those things if you got them and

you feel comfortable type them in the

chat room god i’m bringing my fear to

the altar

god i’m bringing my pain to the altar

god i’m bringing my anxiety to the altar

father i’m bringing it to the altar and

i’m not just pleading with you i’m going

to honor you over those things the

spirit of the living god

father we honor you

father you are a waymaker

father you are a healer there is no one

else like you father you are my provider

father you are my healer you are a

miracle worker father you are though you

are there for those who are

brokenhearted father i prophesy right

now that from the place where these

people are feeling lack from the place

where these people are feeling like they

are disconnected from you from the place

where they feel all of these emotions

that are keeping them from laying hold

of who you call them to be that if they

would allow you to rise to the top then

everything else would be drowned so

father i’m asking that your presence

would begin to invade their atmosphere

right now father let your glory fall

like never before spirit of the living

god and you are a living god you cannot

be bound you cannot be buried you cannot

be killed you are a living god who

breathes and has a being father let your

spirit fall let it fall in a fresh new

way i speak the spirit of the living god

over every sacrifice father let it die

so new life can come above father let it

die some new life can be resurrected

father i speak to every principality i

speak to every chain i speak to every

demonic influence that has been waging

war over these your sons and daughters

and i prophesy in the name of jesus that

you have no more power that you have no

more ability to control them i speak to

shame you’ve got to go i speak to pain

you’ve got to go bitterness you cannot

stay the spirit of the living god is

moving like never before and it is

stirring up the gift of god that is down

on the inside of them father we come

into agreement that this is not just you

this is standing in the way of who you

have called me to be this is standing in

the way of the kingdom you’ve called me

to establish and father i hate my sin i

hate this insecurity i hate this fear i

hate this addiction i hate what it’s

doing to my family i hate what it’s

doing to my mind i hate it father and

because you hate it too i asked that you

would strip it from its power that you

would strip it of its ability to control

me i don’t want to be addicted anymore i

don’t want to be lost and insecure

anymore i hate it

i hate it

i hate it i hate it i hate it and i come

into agreement with you father that this

was never supposed to be my portion that

this came from the father of all lies so

i send it back to hell where it came

from loose your hold off of them in the

name of jesus lose your hold off of

their mind loose your hold off of their

path lucid right now in the name of

jesus i bleed the blood of jesus over

them the blood of jesus that covers them

the blood of jesus that heals them i

bleed the blood of jesus

and i speak breakthrough

i speak breakthrough i speak

breakthrough i prophesy breakthrough i

hear god saying that somebody’s laid

hold of this message and you’re never

gonna have to fight that devil again

that god’s gonna give you strategy that

you used to be afraid of that devil and

i hear god saying you’re going to start

going to war with that devil you’re

going to start talking back to that

devil you’re going to start telling that

devil you can’t have my mind you’re

going to tell that devil you can’t have

my marriage you can’t have my child i

hear god saying your courage is coming

back i hear god saying your power is

coming back that you’ve been silent too

long

unleash your mouth

unleash your mouth

unleash your mouth

and speak god’s truth

god’s name it has power

god said release my power when you don’t

have power

release my glory when you don’t have

glory

release my truth when you have questions

don’t just sit back and take this

and live with it

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pull it out so he can see it

pull it out so he can change it pull it

out so he can transform it i hate this

thing that’s keeping me from you

when you start to hate it

then you can ask god

to give me a clean heart

cut it out of me

cut it back father

father we give you permission

to cut us into purity

to cut us oh father how can we be in

covenant with you unless we are willing

to be cut

father we bring ourselves into covenant

with you

cut out my pride cut out my ego father i

come into covenant with you and i don’t

want one of those covenants that don’t

cost me anything father i’m willing to

give you even the things that once made

me feel good father i’m saying you can

cut it away

if it means i can be in covenant with

you

and so father

the goal of this message

is to not leave

feeling like lions

but allowing ourselves to be lambs

father make us tender

make us vulnerable

father give us the power to say i need

you i don’t trust myself i don’t trust

the way i think i don’t trust the way i

believe father i need you give us a

heart like david’s in this moment

and father the only way i want to move

is if i move with you

and when you have transformed me father

then

then i’ll go back and i’ll tell everyone

else

that you saved a wretch like me

father we repent

father we change our mind

so that we can change our actions

we only want actions that lead us closer

to you

so father remove from us anything that

doesn’t look like you

we give you permission to have your way

in our lives

so that we can grow and become

everything

that you’ve called us to be

but most importantly

so that we can experience you

in every area of our life when we give

you full reign father we get to

experience you and what we want more

than anything is to experience your

glory i don’t want to experience fear i

want to experience your glory i spend

enough time with shame i want to

experience your glory i spend enough

time with god i want to experience your

glory father my pride is keeping me from

your glory my egos keeping me from your

glory father i just want to be in your

glory god i could spend a lifetime in

your glory that’s why i gave my life to

you father

i want to experience you afresh

and so father let this sermon end

but their transformation begin

may their altar not stop burning just

because the video has ended

but may it burn with even more fire

because they found something else to lay

down at your feet

father help us to never run out of

things to lay at your feet

that you would constantly search us

so that we may lay down what’s keeping

us from connecting to you

father it is my prayer that you would

allow this word to be one that sticks

for a long time

that it changes the way they see you and

see themselves

that they would never be distant from

you

when they could be intimate with the

knowledge

of who you are in every season

seal this word allow it to take root

and produce fruit

in jesus name

amen