Service Date: 05.03.17 8PM
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see this past week enough notice the a
connection in the messages right it’s
been a message of expectation whether is
your expectation of God based on your
perception of him or the expectations
that you have of yourself based on how
you perceive yourself or you perceive
you know the things that you’ve
experienced and so in continuation see
that the title because there’s a title
right the title of this message is I
still want it now I’ll talk about well
I’ll stop right there
now I wonder my question for everyone
here I wonder what your it is I wonder
what is the thing that used to wake you
up in the middle of the night with
excitement I wonder what it is that when
God spoke to you about it you had so
much joy and now you can barely get out
of bed
I wonder how what life has done or where
where things went wrong that just the
thought of it makes you angry when
someone tries to bring it up to you you
become very defensive it used to be that
there was a time where you were excited
that you know what was that song he
would do it again and then you’re like
that I’m not sure if you’ve done it yes
[Laughter]
and so you know it lives also a passage
of Scripture it’s in Proverbs proverbs
12 13 I believe if it is my biblical
skills are getting better so look at the
Lord
30:12 reverse amen now the passage says
the past except Hope deferred makes the
heart sick but when the desire comes it
is a tree of life so there are two
things in this passage right and I want
us to focus on the first one
hope first makes the heart sick Hope
deferred we got a background music Hope
deferred right what when something you
have been having an expectation of when
something you hoped for seems like it’s
been prolonged it makes the heart sick
it makes the heart weak the heart is is
tired the heart is exhausted it’s been
drawn out
you see I wonder a lot of times we find
it difficult to say that you know what
god I’ve been having an expectation of
this Deen and the truth is you know it
hasn’t really happened but but it’s
funny because we never realized that
that statement is not like it’s not a
period that goes there is that it hasn’t
happened yet and so there is a there is
almost like a an x-block of tiredness in
the spirit the heart is weak and you see
when someone becomes weak they’re not as
active they’re not as engaged as they
used to be when the heart is sick when
the heart is weak when the heart feels
drawn out when you feel like you’ve been
having an expectation of something and
you end up feeling disappointed after
disappointment your expectation of God
or of yourself and sometimes with people
and we’re going to talk about those
different you know different fields
there it becomes weakened and I wonder I
wonder where where our expectation right
in other for us to have an expectation
and truth resentment cannot be in the
picture and oftentimes where resentment
comes in because you see family when
your heart is weak you’re not engaged
emotionally anymore when you’re not
emotionally engaged with the very thing
you desire oftentimes it is the evidence
of resentment has
been somewhere and my prayer my prayer
for each and every one here and watching
is that the Holy Spirit will bring to
the surface the areas of your life you
may have resentment because the thing
with resentment is that it is very
tricky you can actually live with it you
can come to the house of God you can
pray you can worship you can pray for
other people you can have a prophetic
word that says the Lord
uh-huh I’m not sure who said but you
can’t you can function with resentment
if only surfaces when that desire that
thing that you had a longing for you’re
having an encounter with it in some way
and so you never realize that maybe I
have resentment against myself because
there was an expectation I had for my
younger self and the things that I said
I would do that I never did
maybe there’s a resentment I have
against you know a family member because
occasion can I get a hand to help okay
it’s coming because I’m this isn’t often
done but maybe there’s an expectation I
had of a family member because whatever
I believe them to be in my life they
failed at it and maybe thank you and
maybe I have resentments against the
Lord because what I believe him to do in
my perception he failed me or he
betrayed me you see on Sunday PT talked
about and I believe that the stories in
mark chapter 6 you see he talked about
how jesus oh jesus had gone you know
Jesus I mean he was doing a lot at this
time he was raising people from the dead
healing to say doing all kinds of things
healing people like seven demons and all
you know all these kinds of stuff then
he goes to his hometown and the people
hear him
they hear the power that he’s speaking
by they see that you know what Jesus is
actually performing miracles and I’m
sure they have heard about the things
that he had done in other towns and what
was fascinating is that they were
offended by him now for our first time
gas pcs you know our pastor senior
pastor Colin passes very : PT and the
message is on our live stream on our
YouTube and you should watch it is
amazing but he talked about how they
were offended by Jesus and I wondered
you know why would they be so offended
by him that word is really heavy
you see Jesus before he went into
ministry right for thirty years of his
life he lived as Joseph boy he was a
carpenter David said is this not the
carpenter they were familiar with him
maybe Jesus even had a few friends in
the crowd that were offended by him if I
want you to realize something you know
something interesting about the Bible to
me is that it leaves a lot of open ended
question and I think it’s so that we can
fill it with our lives we can see
ourselves in the people and not just
make them some you know angels or
something like these were people that
had emotions you see for thirty years
Jesus had known and seen people and
their family members died there were
people that were sick and perhaps in his
presence they even prayed to God perhaps
they even said Jesus you know can you
pray with me
my son is ill my mother is ill there
were there were signs of even demonic
manifestations at that time but it
wasn’t Jesus’s time to move as a son of
God you see they had known Jesus in
their time of suffering and he did
nothing
and all of a sudden now you want to show
up and start healing people
where were you when my son died where
were you when I didn’t catch no fish you
know back then you know things will
happen all of a sudden you know where
were you when the economy was against me
where were you and all of a sudden you
want to show up and heal people speak
with wisdom no check this let me let me
vote let me bring it let me see it let’s
bring it to home imagine right you’ve
been struggling just financially tree no
tripping you know your account just
stays on negative and and you’re like
your best friend all along is like a
millionaire right and you you call her
you call him you’re like man I’m just
you know struggling accountants got
overdrawn again and she’s like girl you
know I just believe in God for you and
then one day years later you thought she
calls you and she’s like hey girl do you
get you know this magazine I was
featured in it was talking about how I
had all this money for ten years I will
hang up on you I’ll say say what now
click because so you’re telling me for
all this time you could have solved my
problem and you were just bare silence
I want to talk about you see sometimes
we are here with like hey yes you know
okay thank you
but there are things that we struggle
with you see personally some some may
know the story some may not my father as
a baby was murdered was a planned
assassination I don’t know what made me
more upset if it was a fact that that
okay the God did you allow him to die or
when I found out the story of how he
died you see my mother told me later on
in life that after they found him shot
and bleeding he was actually still alive
they took him to the first hospital the
hospital denied him and said they may
require the deposit before they treated
him you know back then Nigeria was a
little tripping huh so the hospital
because the people that found him were
strangers right they didn’t have you
know to deposit money somebody’s dying
here they take him to the second
hospital he’s still alive the second
hospital said we cannot treat him
without a deposit they take it to the
third hospital and there was some favor
in the third house with and they said ok
we’re going to go ahead but by then he
had lost too much blood and died so I
didn’t know if I should be more upset
that God did you allow the shooting or
you I mean you allow that to occur or
the fact that the favor was delayed to
the third hospital when it was too late
so what’s happening here and so growing
up I had a very hard time being
vulnerable with people because I had a
hard time to give my heart to someone
thinking that they could die or they
could go away because I wondered and
growing up you know the Lord is talking
to me about you know when the time
your marriage would be long and fruitful
and all this stuff and I had a hard time
believing that because though I love the
Lord and all of that
I wondered how is it possible that you
would give me something that you took
away from my mother so without knowing
even though I had the desire for love I
had a desire to want to connect I had
the desire to want to be open with
people that desire was coated in
resentment it was buried in resentment
because a part of me was yet to
understand or deal with the pain so I
wonder in this room what has been buried
in resentment you see family the crazy
thing about pain and the crazy thing
about how life happens this morning even
connected to that story this morning a
friend texts me and she said you know
her her God her God daughter’s father
was murdered in gardena in this country
state Gardena there was a shooting it
was just some guy open fire in the
street one person died a few people were
injured and the person that died was her
God baby’s father and she said you know
that his child is only one month old and
I wondered I wondered would it be easy
for the you know the baby the you know
dating or something it would be easy for
the mother of the child to connect with
someone again would it be easy I wonder
the things that we have suffered I
wonder the pains that we have been
through and is that what is keeping you
from experience in life again you see
sometimes when a woman has experienced
miscarriages for example she’s not as
excited to have to be pregnant when
you’ve gone through one two or three
miscarriages the fourth pregnancies like
well we’ll see what happens
when you’ve been through a cycle of
dysfunctional relationships you almost
give up on love when I wonder when when
your job when God gave you a word about
your career and then you move to LA and
nothing seems to be happening
I wonder where resentment has kicked in
and it is evident in our actions it is
evident in and when God talks to you
about it you get excited anymore or do
you have this disposition of Liz let’s
see what happens when someone gives you
a word you’re like well let’s let’s see
what God does but God wants you to
confess with your mouth that Lord I
still want it you see
you see the crazy thing the crazy thing
I wondered I said okay Lord how is it
that we release resentments right
because it’s not something you just say
let it go in the name of Jesus not
bright it hurts
okay I’m going through a real pain here
there was somewhere in my life I felt
betrayed by God oh I felt betrayed by
people why I felt betrayed by myself
there are times that we have these
things and and what I realize is not
it’s not really about letting go of the
pain but it’s about seeing it correctly
you see my the issue I had with believe
in God for longevity and relationships
and all of that stuff was because I
looked at the issue as in a surface
manner you took my father and now you’re
talking about giving me a husband but in
truth everything had a purpose it wasn’t
really about my father you see my mother
has a calling on her life to be a voice
for widows in my country and if you
understand the climate of widows in
Nigeria and in Africa you would you
would understand why there is a need for
someone to be a voice there literally
the voiceless
but her experience is what validated her
voice and so if I if I look at it just
on the surface of you took this so if
your power couldn’t you know give her
that Wow how would you give it to me if
I don’t understand that pain that every
pain carries purpose if I don’t
understand that the awareness of purpose
is in the embrace of pain then the pain
will cause me to be resentful
you see I’m reminded by a
none of the name by the name of David
David there was something I I noticed
about David that he could have been
resentful but he chose a different way
you see there is a scripture when it
talks about a prophet when the Lord had
chosen you know there was a king of the
time King Saul and his time the Lord
said you know what I’ve chosen a man
after my heart right and he says enough
children he tells the Prophet named Sam
well go to the house of Jesse Jesse’s
David’s father and pick you will pick
one of his sons that I would choose I
will show you one of his sons that I
would choose that you should pick to
anoint as King the Prophet goes to the
house jesse has eight sons David is in
the back turned into the Sheep his
father does not even have a desire or or
even a thought that maybe David could be
one of the people that needs to see the
process know the rest of the seven they
are lined up but then the prophet summer
goes by them one by one and the Lord is
like I didn’t choose him I didn’t you
see mine interesting to the point that
the Prophet says wait do you have any
other son am I just not hearing right
you know one of them is wrong and it was
until the Prophet said it the father
could not even initiate and say oh you
know after the last one didn’t get
picked hey I have another son by the way
it wasn’t to the prophet requested it
then he’s like oh yeah you know see
David back there taking care of the
sheep now I bring this up because
there’s a passage in scripture where
David says that in sin that how does
this crisis go it talked about how in
sins it was ice formed or something like
that and in sin did my mother conceive
me check this and sin did my mother
conceive me
I wonder if David felt as though that
maybe I’m not maybe I’m not the father
I’m not that I’m really not the son of
this
man because if he sells and sin did my
mother conceive it because remember
these are real stories these are real
people that experience real pain has
anyone here ever felt as though you’re
not the child of your father or your
mother it doesn’t change the fact that
that is your biological father or mother
but there was something about the
relationship that made you believe a lie
there was something about the way his
father might have treated him that made
him wonder okay that my mom cheated on
my dad
because there is no way you cannot
defile a marriage bed so there was no
way that he would think of his of his
birth as in sin when marriage is a
covenant by God and so I wonder that
when we read about David and and okay
David you know he concurred he he killed
a beer he killed the Lions who saved the
Sheep I wonder was he doing that to seek
validation from his father why would you
put your life at risk for sheep that
belongs to your father that does not
even acknowledge you was his ability to
protect the Sheep in in such a way that
he put his life in danger for his father
to validate him for his father to
understand that you know what I’ve long
as I be taking care of your sheep none
has gone missing I don’t need to add to
your resentment towards me or anything I
don’t know what the problem is I wonder
you see sometimes we get angry or we
have pain towards people that God has
placed something for us in because of
the way they treated us not realizing
that in David perhaps in his quest to
seek validation from his father there he
encountered the protection of the Lord
there in that place
he had an experience of God as his
deliverer it was in that place that he
had the faith to believe that he could
fight against Goliath
you see family when we blame people for
the wrong we should also blame them for
the right when we when we blame people
and say you never validated me you never
loved me never did this we should also
blame them that something about your
rejection pushed me into who I am
and so in every pain there is purpose
and it’s not to be afraid to say god I
still want it it’s not to be afraid to
say god I still want validation
ultimately David you know God the
ultimate validation from the Lord it’s
not to be afraid to say God I still
desire the marriage even though
everything else has been looking messed
up when you become so defensive I’m good
I’m good over things that the Lord has
shown you there is resentment that
creeps in somewhere and you see
resentment is like the the uninvited
guest that shows up with friends just to
make it more awkward like first of all I
didn’t invite you then you bring your
crew like I ain’t got no place for you
you or you and no for all that has
happened to me before
but because you know we are pastors I
said oh god bless you god bless you hi
how are you how did you find out about
the event so sorry I didn’t invite you I
didn’t mean to but um for realz I didn’t
say that / but I thought it you know but
real talk
right because you see resentment is
accompanied by anger and fear you become
angry at the thought that you desire
something that you fear that you cannot
have because you were disappointed but I
mean you taste disappointment that you
face in your past but family I am here
to say the truth that what you perceived
as disappointment serves a purpose
unrelated to the promise it wasn’t that
the promise didn’t manifest so it none
of that there was something about that
pain that God is using to sharpen you
there is something about that I kept
when preparing for this message is the
picture of just a mother who has gone
through several miscarriages kept coming
up and for some people that is that is
literal right and in many more ways it’s
it’s very symbolic to how you feel that
you carry within you you work at this in
and it’s taeil’s it feels like you
cannot hold something in your hand it
feels like every time you you reach to
grab something few minutes a few days
few months a year it slips away and then
you are expected to believe again God
reminds you of his promise and you’re
just like well we’ll see but family have
the confidence to say God I still
you see the truth is even in even in
losing a father and the best father you
can have is the Lord but there’s still a
reason why God gives you no earthly
father’s right oh my god I love you
you’re the best dad I could ever have
but there was a part of me that still
wanted a fatherly figure on the earth
and it was very hard for me to say that
but it was the truth oh my god there’s a
reason for that and that came in the
form of PT and I share this i shared
this because you have to be open to the
ways in which God would answer your is
because whether whatever your it is it
doesn’t die because of disappointment it
doesn’t die because literally something
might have died or symbolically or
however you may have you there is a way
that God can still bring it back into
your life you see the next part of this
passage talks about but when the desire
comes it is a tree of life
I wondered why would why would they say
when the desire comes it is a tree of
life because when I think of the tree of
life I think of the Garden of Eden and
the desire they are talking about is the
same desire in your heart it talks about
the longings of the heart and I wondered
okay the tree of life when the desire
comes it is a tree of life
you think the Garden of Eden something
that really amazed me is when you know
when Adam and Eve had eating the tree of
the knowledge of good and evil it
bothered God I mean there are several
reasons with Bible with the whole
passage you know you’ll be blessed
you’ll be fed but there are several
reasons why God was like okay there was
something in particular
that actually that stood out to me
because he said now they have eating the
tree of the knowledge of good and evil
you know God was so particular about
protecting the Tree of Life because that
if they at the Tree of Life that now
they would live forever and this would
be an issue so I wondered what if they
ate the Tree of Life first because that
means there’s something about that fruit
that would give them the understanding
of the wholeness to not eat the tree of
the knowledge of good and evil I
wondered what if it happened in Reverse
and so it was a picture that the Tree of
Life was symbolic to wholeness because
the devil or the enemy or whatever is
him I don’t really care about him you
know he he can only play on your
weaknesses he can only play on your
insecurities on your fears on your doubt
so there was something about the tree of
life that was symbolic to wholeness and
so it says when the desire comes when
the desire is fulfilled it is a tree of
life could it be that the very thing
you’re saying like I’m good now you know
it’s all good it’s actually killing a
part of you that you’re killing a part
of yourself that God desires for you to
encounter that there is something about
that being coming to manifestation that
introduces you to you family God desires
you to be whole and I don’t know even as
well as we’re going the things that have
buried your desire for life where there
was a loss the death of a loved one the
death of a dream this the perception of
what you think of how you think a dream
I have died whether it’s in your career
whether you feel like God I’ve been
tugging at this thing and tugging at
this thing and nothing seems to be
working but Hope deferred is not hope
tonight
and the same God and see what I love so
much about about Jesus is that he says
in our weakness he’s our strength and so
when it says Hope deferred makes the
heart sick makes the heart weak in those
moments the Lord is saying come to me
this is not when you run away from me
this is not when you pretend with me no
come to me what in your life are you
fighting one in your life are you so
defensive about for a moment think about
the very things at the moment someone
talks about it you become very defensive
David chose to honor his father anyway
David chose to honor his dad he didn’t
look at his father like you know what
you don’t respect me so I’m not I’m not
going to respect your sheep I’m not
going to respect any job you give him
because you don’t even acknowledge me it
would not have affected his daddy would
have affected him because in that place
is where he found himself family I’m
here to say that the truth is just like
I said earlier the Bible has a lot of
open-ended questions I can’t really tell
you why certain things happen to you
I can explain and say you know what this
happened because of this but I do know
that there’s a purpose I do know that
that purpose is for your good I do know
that the very fact that you’re alive and
that you survive
that in itself is hope I do know that
there is something about this life that
we are still learning about you see a
lot of times you know there’s a person
in scripture that talks about those that
compare without wisdom a lot of times we
we have this weight of you know this
negativity doubt depression and
questions and all these things and I
love when when Petey said on Sunday
release irrelevant questions because we
have these questions about okay why do
they happen for this person it didn’t
happen for me why do you have a for that
person it happens for me this life is
not as it seems if it’s about purpose
there is something that God put within
you that needs to be birth out and
sometimes and sometimes the ability for
that being should be born everything
childbirth is painful
I’ve never birth a child I’m praying for
a favor
when the time comes but I have witness
my mother has told me stories friends
have told me stories no one said it was
just easy and so if the process plays
God for all mothers in the house it’s
the process if the process of childbirth
is painful if the process of birthing
something that God put in you and the
natural is painful but then that pain
serves the purpose then how much more
what the very thing that God put within
you supernaturally to be birthed it’s
not going to be easy and I’m not here to
say just let it go child no it’s hard
thing to lose somebody it’s a hard thing
to feel like you’re giving your best and
nothing seems to be coming out of it
it’s a hard thing but God is with you
he said he will never leave nor forsake
you he said he talks about David talks
about that even though I walk through
the valley of the shadow of death I
shall fear no evil
you see the shadow of death is
everything that is just everything close
to death it sounds when I simply say
that passage I’m not even – I walk
through the valley the shadow that feels
actually song I think was boom fog
harmony some character I take a look at
my life right but the way the bones hug
go man good days I should try to be a
rapper but now but I do have a good
rapping voice you know I think is better
than my singing voice my singing was
glorious anyway but but I used to recite
that passage like this beautiful thing
you know like the Lord is with me but
and then it hit me one day you know I
was walking then I see my shadow and I
realize the ability for me to see my
shadow is because of the proximity and I
said if I’m walking through the valley
of the shadow of death it is everything
that is close to it is it is the ability
to want to give up it is it is
everything but it’s not death so it’s
everything within the proximity of death
and so the Bible the scripture is
already telling us that we are going to
walk through experiences that feel like
that
but it is not deaf your very presence
here is an evidence of that so family
whatever it is God is with you
Hope deferred is not hope denied there
are things that are still tugging at me
there people here and just spend with me
you can get some strings playing there
are people here that even when we talk
about resentment you have resentment
against your own self because you
believe that you are supposed to do
things at a certain point in time and
you didn’t do them so now you don’t have
any faith or belief in your own ability
to execute but that is also a lie
you see when as I was preparing for this
message and before and if you want to
start coming down you know feel free but
I was preparing for this message I
understood that there also leaders
involved leaders in this house that the
message touched you in a way and it
would it’s a hug in your heart to even
come down this altar but if you know
you’re here and their desires that have
been buried in resentment come on down
it doesn’t matter if you’re a first-time
guest you’re you know regular you’re a
leader come on down thank you please
thank you Jesus if you’re sitting
standing I’ll share something personal
you see coming down this altar is is
work listen it is it is not an easy
thing it looks easy because you’re like
come on down you just wait I’ll get on
my feet walk on down man and then enough
I think it was about last week or two
weeks ago first lady preached the
message where she talked about the
sycamore tree and she was talking about
you know this man this tax collector man
and you know and how he his desire to
see Jesus and Jesus seen him powerful
message that message moved me in a way
that I wanted to cry like a baby and
when she did the altar calls everything
in me was tugging but in my mind I’m
like Nana Nana knows but I couldn’t even
leave this house because it was so
powerful because in that moment I’m
fighting myself to come to the altar
because I’m like Nana Nana Nana now you
know this is not for me to come to the
altar I am Jesus
she got me but the Lord gave me this
picture of what the altar represents you
say the altar is where you lay things is
where you lay the sacrifice is where you
lay things down and even though I didn’t
come to the altar because he gave me the
picture later on I I didn’t leave this
house there were a few people in this
church I didn’t leave this house I just
imagined like I’m a very you know I’m
very interactive in my mind I imagined
first lady on the altar again during the
altar call and I walked down and I came
real sorry some people were here they’re
like what is she doing so please don’t
talk to me I’m calling accepting the
altar call and and I walked on down here
and I knelt down before the Lord and I
released it I released everything that
was on me and I just prayed over it
some of you are not going to have the
opportunity to for this places MC
because you know parking lot times and
all kinds of other things if you’re here
don’t let the enemy cause you to
question why was I still in my seat
lay it down what is that thing that
you’re holding on to where is that
resentment coming from lay down thank
you I see you god bless you you’re not
alone come on down come on down thank
you Jesus thank you Jesus when the
desire comes it is a tree of life the
desire will be fulfilled there’s no
questions about it the only the only
question that God has for you are you
willing to tell me you still want it are
you willing to say God I still want it I
want it I want everything that comes
with it
one thing I love you see when I would
think of people find this strange or
something that when people talk about
you know correction for my mom is a very
my momís you know she’s firm she’s blunt
you toy her mind like straight up right
I just I love her for that and when I
would think of when people talked about
you know people will talk about the
difference between you know you know who
is who’s the firm one who is a strict
one who’s a soft one and the father
maybe being a strict another soft and or
whichever how how you have it and I had
friends I used to complain about correct
receiving correction from their fathers
and I’m just like well that sounds fun
because that sounds like you know he’s
there there’s something that he pays
attention for your growth right and so
when I when I told God Lord I still want
it I know you took it away and let you
know that’s of the purpose but I still
want it and I would love I would love
love love when Peter will correct me
about certain things because I’m like
yes
looking for and so everything that comes
with it there are things that you desire
and you desire everything that comes
with it and for some people in this
house it’s not the it that you are
you’re you’re fighting against you’re
fighting against what comes with it
because what comes with it is where your
pain comes from and I’m speaking to some
of those people if you understand what
I’m talking about calm down thank you
Jesus thank you Jesus thank you Jesus
you’re not fighting the thing you’re
fighting what it comes with thank you
lord thank you lord it’s going to happen
family it’s going to happen there’s a
passage I want us to pull up it’s
Hebrews before we pray Hebrews 10:35
maybe that’s it
if not y’all should read your Bible bed
he would send 35 it says there for
everyone here everyone watching
therefore do not cast away do not throw
away your confidence your expectation
which has great reward the very thing
that the enemy wants you to see let’s do
it’s nothing
you failed you’ve been betrayed you’ve
been whatever the Lord says as long as
you still got
you see the reward the reward and it’s
not just a reward I loved when pastor
ebenezer said you know I would love to
say good evening but I say great evening
the reward is a great reward and the
reward the greatness of this reward is
connected to as long as you still have
it as long as you can still use your
mouth and say god I still want it isn’t
it funny that the very thing that we are
we afraid that if I if I talk about it
I’m afraid to fail again God is saying
that just don’t cast it away just don’t
don’t kill it because what you’re
looking for is in your ability to still
hold on to it I want before we pray
everyone in this room to scream lord I
still want it amen amen amen
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let us pray who father God I thank you I
thank you for what you’re doing in this
house
they said it not me they said it that
god I still want it they know what their
it is and you know Lord we know that
life the trials or tribulations this
season this this pool in season this the
stretch in season the season that is
causing us to be pulled in ways that we
are not used to we thank you Lord that
it would not cause us to doubt the
promise
we thank you Lord that we will embrace
the pain because we know it serves a
purpose we will embrace the pain because
we know it’s a sign of birthing we would
embrace the pain because it means that
there’s some dilation taking place that
something is opening up for us we will
embrace the pain Lord God because we
know that you’re working on our behalf
Lord God I thank you there are some
questions that we may never have
answered but we have you Lord and you
have given us life we believe in you
Lord above the questions above the whys
we believe in your goodness we believe
Lord that you will never let something
happen to us that we cannot bear that
you will never give us above our
capacity to handle and so when we think
that there is something we cannot handle
it’s just a sign to come to you and be
reminded that you are our strength I
thank you Lord that the shadow is just a
shadow it didn’t take us and for some of
us some of us Lord God we have to learn
to survive thing that you may teach us
how to thrive and so surviving is not
even a problem it’s just a process I
thank you lord
but your spirit has done what none of us
could do your spirit has touched each
and every one in this house it has
brought things to the surface and as
they’re at this altar as those watching
are before you lord I thank you that we
lay it down we lay down Lord God every
resentment every place in our lives that
we said god I don’t even know if you
ever did it everything in our life that
we have become defensive towards
everything in our life that has made us
almost just look warm in the face that
well we’ll see what happens no lord I
thank you that there is a fire that you
are reviving within us I thank you Lord
that you’re awakening our ability to
believe again to live again for you have
said that you have you will give us life
and life more abundantly no matter what
lorca we are not going to cast away our
confidence we would not be ashamed will
not deny the fact that we still want it
I thank you Lord for the testimonies for
the miracles and for the manifestation
of your word as your children have
confessed with their mouths that they
still want it
and keep asleep
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