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so much security when you’re in the

presence of god

these moments where we get to connect

through activate they’re some of my

favorite because it is that midweek

reminder that we all need that man i’m

not in this thing on my own

not only am i not in this thing on my

own but i am literally connected with

other people who are on a journey

different parts of the world but same

journey different circumstances but same

journey different past but same journey

different destiny but same journey and

what is that journey that journey is

choosing to activate everything that god

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each and every week through activate

whether it’s me or our incredible team

of speakers who come together one thing

is for sure

that when we think about activate we

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message who’s going to be connected to

this moment and how can we serve them

that’s exactly what we’ve done not just

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now let’s get into the word

man i prayed about this message and

in my mind it makes perfect sense

but i’m praying that god would make up

the difference between what i sense and

what he wants to speak

i’m going to be in genesis

chapter 29

my subject is blinded by

want

blinded by want

genesis 29 verse 21

if i can set this up for you

this is when jacob is trying to get his

wife

back then in the old days they didn’t

swipe left or swipe right

there were

family members and kinsmen who were

connected and when it was time for you

to find a wife they would say go to this

specific family member go to this

specific region and find a wife from

that area avoid this area jacob is on a

pursuit for his wife he’s at laban’s

house laban is his uncle

and he is there to

find his wife he finds a woman named

rachel he loves her from the moment that

he sees her she’s beautiful she’s

stunning he says i’ll work seven years

to get her and then when his seven years

are complete jacob said to laban give me

my wife

this is verse 21

for my days are fulfilled

that i may go into her

and laban gathered together all the men

of the place and made a feast

now it came to pass in the evening that

he took leah his daughter and brought

her to jacob and he went into her

and laban gave his main zilpah to his

daughter leah as a maid

so it came to pass in the morning that

behold it was leah

and he said to laban

what is this you have done to me

was it not for rachel that i served you

why then have you deceived me

and laban said it must not be done so in

our country to give the younger before

the firstborn

fulfill her week and we will give you

this one also for the service which you

will serve with me

still another seven years

blinded by one is my title

i want to talk about this moment where

jacob and laban end up

in this moment of deception

because i feel that as i was praying

that there’s something special that

happens here that’s going to bless us

especially as we set our intention so

god

this is your word

these are your people

and i am your servant

when we live in that consciousness

then there should be no room for nerves

there should be no room for anxiety

there should be no room for fear and yet

because i am also human all of those

things are here

and so father i pray that i would

decrease that you may increase

that you would remove from me anything

that would make this about me so that it

could be purely and distinctly you

working through me to reach your people

and god somewhere along the way

drop some crumbs from me

that i may eat and be edified as well

and together

together may we change the world

thank you god for this word thank you

for this atmosphere thank you for this

environment of change

in jesus name i pray

amen

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i have been told that activate is a safe

place

and so i feel comfortable

sharing with you all one of my childhood

i don’t know if i should call it

tendencies problems issues but i’m going

to share them with you anyway because i

have been told everything is safe here

if this is a safe place can you please

type it in the chat this is a safe place

leave me a comment say safe place safe

place safe place somebody type not safe

place and i feel you i get you because

how could anything on the internet be

safe but i’m going to go with the fact

that i’m leaning into it being a safe

place when i was young

like too old but young

i used to carry around sweetened

kool-aid with me

not because i was ready to have a party

at any given moment and i wanted to be

the person who brought the kool-aid but

because i used to take my finger which

it really sounds gross now in the days

of covet and maybe it was a gross thin

but stick with me i’m going to bless you

i used to take my finger and stick it in

the sweetened kool-aid and lick my

finger literally my finger would be red

for me looking kool-aid

i don’t know why i had this issue it was

an addiction for a long time but i used

to do it all the time i know that i am

not the only person who used to eat

kool-aid

the only thing about this sweetened

kool-aid and it wasn’t new it’s just the

moment that i don’t know if somebody

spilled it on the counter and i picked

it i don’t know how this thing started

but all i know is that that sweetened

kool-aid in particular used to be my jam

now for some reason that same sweetened

kool-aid that i could lick with my

finger

a different pack not the same pack was

not sweet enough for us to actually make

kool-aid with everybody has that one

aunt who takes the kool-aid that’s

already sweetened and then dumps about

half a bag of sugar in it to make sure

that it reaches its peak sweetness

it was crazy to me that though the

finished product was supposed to be just

ready to go

that there was still this additional

effort that went into taking a finished

product and basically turning it into a

project

if you’ve been listening to pt’s message

then you know that that’s already

sounding familiar because pt said

something so amazing on sunday when he

started speaking about the conversation

that we have with ourselves

and he said that we are not god’s

project

we are god’s product if you quote that

quote pt i did not say that

pt said that we are god’s product not

god’s project

he said so many powerful things in that

message but that stood out in my mind

because i often see myself as god’s

project

as if that finished product that he put

in his in my mother’s womb on july 17th

was almost there but it still needed a

little extra

here i am walking around like a project

when god really said if you could grab

the consciousness that you are already

complete then you wouldn’t walk around

waiting for someone or something to

fulfill you

when we were created

in genesis the story of creation tells

us that we were created with what

psychologists would consider a

prevention loss mindset

prevention loss prevention

focused means

that it involves the motivation to avoid

loss

so it’s prevention focused and that

involves the motivation to avoid loss

with emphasis on obligations and

responsibilities and a preference for

avoidant strategies

now that is nowhere in genesis i’m just

taking what it means to have a

prevention focus and aligning it with

what scripture tells us in genesis 1.

every time god created something he said

it’s good he created the heavens and the

earth and it was good he created the sun

and the moon and it was good he created

the fish in the sea and the birds in the

air and it was good he gave humanity

everything that he created and he said

it was good which means that when god

gave earth to humanity that it means

that it lacked nothing

our only responsibility as humankind was

to make sure that we didn’t lose what

god gave us

god gave us a manual and he says if you

follow by these instructions if you

follow about the system that i already

have set in place then you don’t have to

worry about gaining anything your only

focus now has to be on not losing what i

gave you

no wonder

when the serpent comes in genesis 3

he’s trying to shift them out of the

mindset that they have everything they

need

that is the ultimate deception that the

enemy plays on us

we have experiences in our lives that

make us feel like we’ve lost something

and when you feel like you’ve lost

something the only thing you can think

about is how can i gain whether it’s

consciously or subconsciously we walk

around with the deficit mentality

thinking to ourselves because i am at a

deficit i now need to gain in order to

get back to a place where i have lost

nothing

but the truth is that if we really

believe scripture if we really believe

that we were created by god if we truly

believe that god knows our in from our

beginning that means that even when it

looks like we’ve lost we didn’t really

lose because god had already taken that

into account when he created us that

means that no matter what you have gone

through whatever your mistakes are

whatever your past memories are that are

haunting you and taunting you you think

that it puts you at a deficit and god

says you can’t change something that has

already been summarized that i already

knew that about you and i created you

anyway i already knew that you were

facing that and i created you anyway

when i set your price nothing you went

through can change your price and now

it’s on you to truly believe that i

still call you worthy that i still call

you valuable that i still believe that

you deserve access to my knowledge that

i still believe that you deserve access

to my spirit to my plans for your life

to the real deal love to the real deal

purpose that you don’t have to pretend

that you can be authentic in who you are

because i created you authentically and

i don’t need you to pretend when god

created us we lacked nothing

the enemy

tricked humanity

into believing that you almost have it

all but you’re missing something

how many of you

have had those same thoughts in your

mind

i almost have it all

but i can’t get this addiction under

control i almost have it all but i just

can’t get myself to really live a life

of integrity i almost have it all but

for some reason i can’t convince myself

to speak up i almost have it all but i’m

still missing a little something and so

we went from being prevention focused

to promotion focused

let’s

read that definition

to be promotion focused

it involves the motivation to achieve

gains with emphasis on aspirations and

ideals and a preference for eager slash

approach strategies

that means that we went from living with

the consciousness that i don’t have

anything to gain i just need to make

sure that i don’t lose what i have

to this idea that all i need to do is

gain and gain and gain and gain

we see it in social media

we see it in careers we see it in

corporations we see it in non-profits

that we’re constantly focused on the

next gain

and when you’re constantly focused on

the next gain you can end up in a

circumstance where i

consider it blinded by want

blinded by want

that is what happens to us when we are

consumed by the idea that i need to gain

that i don’t have enough or that even

though i accomplish this this is a new

day and i’m starting at ground zero i

want us to really not to to go to war

and demystify this idea that i’m

starting at ground zero every time that

i wake up if you’re starting at ground

zero every time that you wake up that

means no matter what you achieve you’re

going to tear it down because you don’t

believe that it is sustainable when in

reality what we’re doing is building

upon what has already been said in

motion that’s why in genesis when god

hands the earth over to humanity he

doesn’t tell them you have to build

anything he says just maintain the thing

that i gave you build on this i don’t

know who you are but i feel like god is

telling you that you don’t have to start

over again that you can just build from

where you were and i know it doesn’t

look like you have enough to work with

and i know it may appear that you’re

down to rubble but i hear god saying

that if you would trust that what

happened yesterday is enough to create

with today then you would start building

in spite of the mistakes that you would

start building on top of broken glass

who are you i hear god saying that this

is the year for you to build with broken

pieces that this is the year for you to

build with what you have left there’s

nothing wrong with you starting with

where you are now and if you’re waiting

for the time to come where you’ve got

everything aligned then you won’t build

anything at all but if you would dare to

believe that even with my broken pieces

i’ve got nothing to lose that even with

my broken pieces i’ve got everything

that i need that even with my broken

pieces god can still build a monument

with my life the only thing you’ll be

worried about gaining is how can i get

back to the consciousness that i’ve got

nothing to lose that i’ve got everything

that i need that god has already

equipped me and empowered me to show up

in the life that i am in god i don’t

want to be pursuing what the world says

i should pursue i don’t want to be

pursuing what man says i should pursue i

don’t need another degree i don’t need

another relationship i don’t need

anything else to make me feel better

about myself all i need is to have the

consciousness that you’ve given me

everything that i need and that if i

would hold on to it and honor it

and see it the way that you see it

i would not be seduced by gain

because when i am seduced by gain i

diminish what you’ve done in my life

when i am seduced by gain i diminish

what you’ve already completed down on

the inside of me god help me to be

content and complacent with who i am let

me max out my potential here without

dipping into something i’m not even

prepared for

that is what it means

to live in such a way where you say i

don’t want to

i don’t want to lose this

god you’ve given me wisdom that i can’t

take away god i don’t want to lose this

you’ve given me a consciousness that

changed the way that i show up in the

world god i don’t even know if i can

handle anything else because i don’t

want to lose what you’ve given me i

don’t want anything to take my focus off

of what you’ve already given me there’s

somebody watching this and you haven’t

even fully cultivated what god has given

you and yet you’re still seduced by gain

and i want you to dare to break up with

the idea that there’s something more and

say god what is this that you’ve given

me here i want to max this out here

because when i max this out here i don’t

even have to worry about gain i’m so in

love with what i have here

that i see it as gain

this is how we end up

so easily distracted in relationships so

easily distracted in our careers and our

purpose

because anytime we see someone moving

quicker than we are anytime we see

someone promoting faster than we are we

start to think there’s something wrong

with what i have

but if we really trust god

then we would trust

that all i need to do is maintain what

god has given me

because to be promotion focused it does

give you gain

the scripture tells us what does it

profit a man to gain the world and lose

his soul you can be promotion focused

and receive gain

but the only thing about receiving gain

is that you don’t always gain the things

that you want

the truth is

that along the way we end up gaining

some things that we don’t want

you know what i’m talking about when i

say the unwanted gains

these are the gains that no one talks

about

sometimes we’re so blinded by what we

want

that we miss out on the unwanted things

that have invaded our desires

that means that we may be

moving along with a career and we may be

progressing and we’re finally making the

money and we’re finally getting their

relationships and we’re finally

positioned in the way that we always

thought that we should be but if we’re

honest there were some unwanted gains

too like i don’t really feel connected

with god anymore

or the unwanted gains of i don’t even

remember why i started this in the first

place yes i am gaining yes i am

promoting but there are some unwanted

gains along the way that i feel insecure

there are some unwanted gains that i

have to lie in order to keep everything

moving because i don’t want to

disappoint people while i’m also

pursuing my career there are some

unwanted gains that we don’t speak about

when i was looking at this text

i recognized that

jacob was all for working those seven

years

as long as it led to gain

but he was not prepared for the unwanted

gains along the way

i want to talk to some real people

who are looking to get to a place where

they are finally moving and progressing

in life and i want you to know that the

cost of progression is not just the

gains that you wanted they’re also the

gains that you don’t want

like i pulled into this one environment

at the expense of not being able to

connect with the friends that i once had

the unwanted gains of i finally got my

spirit right

but now i don’t have anyone to talk to

the unwanted gains that come with

progress are the ones that are rarely

discussed and yet this text demonstrates

for us

that you need

both gains and unwanted gains

for the fulfillment of god’s plan

in genesis in 20 in genesis 28 before we

find jacob in this text he’s on his way

to the comb of where laban lives

and on his way he stumbles across a

place called bethel

many of you have heard this but if you

haven’t this is the place where jacob

lays down and he sees angels ascending

and descending from heaven

and he makes a promise to god there that

because this is the place that god has

met him that he’s going to serve him and

god says to him i’m going to multiply

your generations

i’m going to allow your seed to be

spread i think it was just as many

pieces of sand there are so will there

be your seed you’re going to have

multiplication connected to the thing

that you’re headed towards

jacob is headed to get a wife and god is

letting him know in advance this is

going to be fruitful

jacob is headed to the very union that

will allow for him to multiply and god

wants him to know in advance before he

even steps foot in the territory that

this is going to be able this is going

to multiply you this is going to spread

your name there’s going to be

descendants connected to this moment and

yet when jacob is actually standing in

the moment god lets us into the fact

that there’s going to be an x factor i

feel my help coming

and that x factor is that in order for

you to have the fulfillment of what i

said the fulfillment of you having

descendants the fulfillment of you

having your seed scattered just as the

saying that fulfillment is not just

going to be connected to you pursuing

what you want it’s also going to be

connected to how you handle the things

that you don’t want you see it is the

unwanted things in life that really

produce the increase it is the unwanted

things in life that really produce the

oil the creativity the passion and the

purpose but sometimes we are so blinded

by want that we miss out on the thing

that god is actually going to use are

the things that we didn’t want at all i

wish that i had about 10 people who

would recognize with me and take a

minute to testify about the moments in

their life where the things that they

did not want added up into the

fulfillment of what god said they would

be that there are some people who are

connected to this message right now and

you know more than anyone that it is not

the things that i wanted that made me

who i am it is the things that i did not

want that put me in position if you

don’t believe me let me take you back to

the cross well right before jesus got on

the cross he was in the garden and he

said to god i don’t want this cup this

cup is an unwanted gain i don’t mind

performing the miracles i don’t mind

showing up and healing the sick but the

very thing that i do not want is the

very reason that i was sent and god

didn’t take the cup from him because god

understood the power of the unwanted

things in life who are you you’re going

through a circumstance right now and

it’s nothing you want to deal with i

don’t know how to raise this child i

don’t know how to show up in this job i

don’t want this feeling of insecurity i

don’t want to have to face my past but i

hear god saying until you face off with

the unwanted things that the wanted

things will never be exactly what you

wanted because it is the things that we

did not want that allow us to savor the

things that we do want and when we take

in the inventory of our lives we will

recognize

that the unwanted and the wanted were

dancing together the unwanted and the

wanted we’re creating our oil the

unwanted and the wanted we’re creating

our work ethic you see the star you see

the shine but you don’t see the coal

that produced the fire in the first

place it was the things that i didn’t

wanted that made me show up for work

anyway it was the things that i didn’t

want it that showed me how to stick it

out in a relationship it was the things

that i didn’t wanted that made me the

husband that i am that made me the

father that i am the wife that i am the

mother that i am because i wanted my

father but i didn’t get them i show up

in this relationship differently because

of the unwanted things

the unwanted things

define us

more than the things that we wanted

the things that we want are just cherry

on top

but it is the unwanted

that really produce

who we are in god

and you have a decision to make

that i’m not going to be so blinded by

what i want

that i miss out on the fact that i’ve

gotta wrestle with what i don’t want

you gotta roll up your sleeves and

wrestle with what you don’t want

you gotta willing to go head to head

with what you don’t want

god i don’t want this addiction but i

can’t ignore it you see most of us

ignore the things we don’t want and

that’s why they end up having power over

us anyway but it takes someone with real

intentionality and focus to say i don’t

want it but i’m gonna take care of it

anyway i don’t want it but i’m gonna

wrestle it down to the ground anyway i

don’t wanna have to deal with this

cancer but i’m gonna stand up to it i

don’t wanna have to deal with this

disease but i’m gonna stand up to it i

don’t want to have to go to this

counseling but i’m going to do it anyway

if you only do what you want to do

you’ll never be who you could be because

you never learned to do the things that

you didn’t want but if you ever learn to

do the things that you didn’t want then

you wouldn’t be scared when trouble

comes your way you wouldn’t be scared

when resistance comes your way because

you know how to get your hands dirty i

wish i could talk to somebody in this

room who didn’t mind getting their hands

dirty no i don’t want to have to face it

but facing it is the only way to go

through it and because i will not stay

stagnant when god has got a promise on

the other side of it i’m going to do

everything it takes to make sure that i

can climb over this thing i’ll go under

it if i have to i’ll run right through

it if necessary but at the end of the

day i’m not going to let the unwanted

keep me from becoming

we become because of the unwanted

and poor little leah in this text

the one that jacob doesn’t want

is the one who was going to produce more

seed for him than rachel

i was studying this message

and i was thinking of

the times and seasons that we’re in

and how if we’re really going to be

who god has called us to be

and if we’re really going to stand up

in this world in the way that we need to

stand up in this world

that many of us are going to have to not

just come out of our comfort zone

because we lure people out of their

comfort zone with the promise of gain

we lure people out of their comfort zone

with the promise of promotion

but if we’re really going to be lured

out of our comfort zone we have to do it

with the knowledge that i’m going to

have to do some unwanted things i’m

going to have to handle some unwanted

goals some unwanted

character traits that are down on the

inside of me that need to be cured i’m

going to have to confront the unwanted

that is what jacob does in this every in

this relationship

because in order for him to get the very

thing that he wants

he’s got to first

keep

and handle

and protect

and nurture

the very thing that he did not want

i was studying this message and

wondering to myself what does this

reveal to me about the character of god

and what it showed me is that god often

uses the very thing that we do want as

bait

but it’s only bait to get us to the to

the unwanted to deal with the unwanted

things

you know i’m going to say it i wish i

could say it the way that i feel and i’m

going to say it the way that i wrote

down wrote it down

what you want

and don’t want have to live together if

you’re going to experience the fullness

of god’s promise

felt like this was something worthy of

us discussing it activate

because the idea and consciousness of

activating the unwanted instead of

separating it

is something that many of us don’t have

the tools to do

so many of us feel like if i ignore the

things that i don’t want and only focus

on what i do want

then hopefully what i want will help me

to accomplish the goal it’ll help me to

fulfill the promise but if jacob would

have only focused on rachel he would

have never produced the mini seed

connected to leah

that means that we have to find a way to

take the things that we don’t want and

combine them with the things that we do

want i don’t want to have to stay in but

i also want to save money i don’t want

to have to cut off my all of my

friendships but i do want to create

security in my relationship i don’t want

to have to show up on time every single

day working for someone else but i do

want to save up for my next business

there are so many things that we don’t

want that we have to handle if we’re

going to really lay hold of the promise

connected to our name

god fulfilled his promise to jacob

through what he didn’t want let’s take

some inventory of our own lives for a

moment

when you look at your life

and you consider not just your goals and

your dreams and your desires

those we can usually rattle off a bit

easier

what are you doing about the things that

you don’t want

jacob has to not be blinded by one and

you too are going to have to make a

decision to not be blinded by want

and because we’re going to confront

those unwanted things that’s one of the

commitments that i’m making to myself in

2022 is god i want you to help me

navigate the unwanted additions

that i have experienced in my life

i was speaking to my therapist

and i’m going to tell you all a

discovery that we had i was speaking to

my therapist last week and when i was

talking to my therapist i was telling

her how sometimes i feel so confident

and bold when i’m speaking but then i

get off and i feel so nervous and afraid

and shaken and i don’t know that i could

ever do it again and then i come back on

activate every week because i’m just

like all right lord i’m going to do what

you tell me to do but i wish that there

was a way that i could feel that

confidence every single time

and do you know that she told me that

part of the reason why i was struggling

with my confidence outside of the moment

when i’m just locked in and i have

decreased and god has increased it’s

because when i was confident as a little

girl i ended up in trouble and now i

don’t trust my own confidence which

means that i am walking around with

something that is an unwanted character

trait because of a trauma that i

experienced and i want you to know that

somewhere along the way that many of us

pick up unwanted character traits

unwanted personality traits that we

picked up along the way because trauma

dropped it off but i came here to tell

you tonight that just because trauma

dropped it off it doesn’t mean that it

gets to stay that you have to make a

decision down in your soul that i don’t

know who gave me this unwanted character

trait but because i know that it did not

come to god i’m going to confront it not

so that i could necessarily learn to

live with it but i’m going to confront

it so i can understand how it changed me

and i can put it where it needs to be

and that is back in the pit of hell

where it came from there’s somebody

watching this and i want you to know

that who you are right now was not who

you are supposed to be that just like me

you’ve been showing up as a summary of

the trauma that you experienced the

heartbreak that you went through and i

want you to understand that it is time

for you to no longer keep showing up in

this way and to dare to walk boldly into

the identity of who god has called you

to be and just like jacob had to make a

decision that he was going to continue

to keep showing up in spite of what

happened that someone’s got to make a

decision on the other side of this

camera and that decision has got to be

that i don’t care what life has tried to

contort me into becoming that at the end

of the day i want to be so focused on

the promise of who god says i can be

that i am willing to confront those

things that are trying to define me as

anything other

than who god says i am

what did you pick up along the way that

doesn’t belong to you

what have you picked up along the way

that someone tricks you into believing

was yours

i don’t want to talk about the things

that you want tonight

i don’t want to talk about the goals and

the dreams that you have we’ll do that

next week

right now i want us to go head to head

with the things that have no business

being in your psyche the things that

have no business being in your spirit

and i want to rebuke it in the name of

jesus because it is rebuking you you

have to understand that for it to be

alive in your life means that it is

rebuking who god has called you to be

and if there is going to be a war then

you might as well let the greater is he

that is in you to go to war with that

thing that is rebuking your god-given

identity and you’ve got to start staying

back to it i rebuke you shame i rebuke

you defeat i rebuke you in security i

rebuke you because you are rebuking me

and i’m tired of crouching down and i’m

tired of pretending that i’m not who god

says i can be and i’m tired of

pretending that i’m this insecure and

i’m tired of pretending that i am what

happened to me when i am only who god

says i am and as long as you are being

rebuked

by those things

you can’t lay hold of the promise

man maybe that’s what god was trying to

say to me in my prayer time

when i was focusing on

the unwanted that we pick up along the

way

god wanted me to understand two things

is coming to me as i’m sharing with you

and that first thing is that you needed

that to happen

you needed to experience those unwanted

things that’s how my promise got in the

mix

that’s how my power got in the mix

that’s how my strength got in the mix

but you can’t allow yourself to stop

pursuing just because you got something

you didn’t want

what if jacob would have said i worked

seven years

and i’m just going to settle into this

unwanted thing

when god says you can have both

you just got to work just as hard on the

unwanted as you did on the thing that

you want

that is the message

as hard as you’re chasing after the

thing that you want

i want you to chase down those things

that you didn’t want and demand that the

oil and the anointing and the promise

connected to them

comes out of them

because you’ll never be fully you

without them

jacob who would become israel

he could never fully be who he was

unless he had both of those things

this is the time of the year where so

many of us think about what we want

exclusively

and as i was praying i really felt so

strongly god was telling me that if we

are only blinded by what we want that

will miss what god wants

because what god wants and what you want

may not be the same thing

but if you could live your life in such

a way that you don’t mind saying god

this is what i want

but i can also handle the things that i

didn’t want as well

that is integrity in our relationship

with god that is integrity in any

relationship

is when you say i don’t just want you

for what you have

i don’t just want you for what i want

but i want you for the things that i

didn’t want either

you ask any good parent who’s up with a

newborn baby in the middle of the night

yes they would rather be sleeping but

because of the commitment that they’ve

made they’re willing to take on what

they want and what they didn’t want at

the same time ask any married couple yes

you’re everything i want and you’re some

things that i didn’t want either but at

the end of the day i am so committed to

you that i even want the things that i

didn’t want that’s how important and

valuable you are to me that’s exactly

what god does when he sends us jesus he

says no i didn’t want you to break the

law no i wanted you to be in the garden

but i love you so much that i’ll take

what you want that i’ll take what i

wanted and what i didn’t want at the

same time

but can you do the same in this season

of your life

can you allow yourself to not just be

blinded by the idea that i want to do do

a good job that you miss out on

i’m going to have to be corrected

i’m going to have to be chastised i’m

going to have to be trained i’m going to

have to be conditioned i’m going to have

to get up early i’m going to have to

study harder

what are you going to do about the

things that you don’t want

i want to pray with you

i’m about to close but

i felt so strongly in my spirit

that god is calling

a select few

those who are willing to make a

sacrifice those who are willing to not

make it about themselves

to really

open up their minds

to open up their hearts oh i feel this

so strongly

god wants us to dare to believe

that we are stronger than we think

man you’re watching this and i think

this is the moment for you

you’ve been thinking to yourself

that i only have enough strength and

creativity and passion

for the things that i want

as a matter of fact you’ve been thinking

to yourself that if i waste momentum

and time and energy and vulnerability

on that unwanted thing

then it’ll keep me from maximizing the

thing that i do want

and i hear god saying that the only way

you maximize what you do want

is by honoring that unwanted thing

you may have to restructure your life

you may have to change your timeline

literally jacob was supposed to go home

after seven years but because he now has

an unwanted and unwanted thing living

together he has to readjust his timeline

before he can move at the pace that he

wants to move in

but just because his pace was changed it

didn’t move his destiny

god knew before he even stepped foot in

laban’s home

that his timeline was going to be

extended

that he was going to get some things

that he didn’t want along the way god

knew that about you too

god knew that when you were dreaming as

a little child

that you were going to drop out of

school

that you weren’t going to get the

scholarship

that your parent was going to die that

your friends weren’t going to be there

that you were going to make it to this

city and then lose the job god knew

before he even allowed that to happen to

you

and yet god still made a promise

the promise isn’t necessarily that

you’re going to get everything you want

but whether it’s what you want

or don’t want

i’ll be with you

and when god is with you

he makes all things work together

for your good

what’s in that all

the all is the wanted and the unwanted

i can make it all work together for you

good

i don’t want to ask for help

i want to do it on my own

i don’t want to need anybody

i want to build this thing by myself

i don’t want to go to school i just want

to do the work i don’t want to do this i

just want to do that we live in a

generation that thinks you only have to

do what you want to do

and i can tell you

having became a mom at 13 i learned at a

very early age

that you don’t just get to do what you

want to do

that you have to do what you don’t want

to do

if you’re going to raise anything up

my friend

it’s time for you to do the things that

you don’t want to do

i don’t want to get up

and come to church i want to watch the

video when it’s released

but someone’s got a conviction that i

should get up and watch it when it airs

because that’s my way of showing god

that i’m serious about this thing

i don’t want to write the book i don’t

want to have the hard conversation

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i don’t want to say goodbye

i don’t want to believe that this is my

life

but babe this is what you got

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this is what you have

and if you only allow yourself to be

blinded by want

you’ll miss the beauty in the unwanted

i don’t want us to be so focused on the

pursuit

and the hustle

that we miss out on where the grind

really comes from

it’s in doing the things that we don’t

want

and i’m learning that for myself this

year

and i’m going to say this and then i’m

going to pray

who you become

when you do the things that you don’t

want to do

is more of a gift than what you get for

doing it

you become someone

who is not afraid of challenges

you become someone who doesn’t mind

having difficult conversations you

become someone who doesn’t mind

admitting when they’re wrong you become

someone who doesn’t mind asking for help

because i recognize

that the last time i did something i

didn’t want to do

i became better

i want to pray with you

i’m going to pray a crazy prayer

that we hardly ever pray in church

most of the time we pray that god would

maximize our wants that he would make

them clear that he would allow them to

show up in front of us

no i’m going to pray that god would

highlight the unwanted things in your

life

the unwanted character traits that

you’ve been walking around thinking that

they’re a part of your identity but the

truth is they’re not supposed to be

there

the unwanted conversations the unwanted

ways that you’ve been lying the unwanted

ways that you’ve been addicted the

unwanted ways that you can’t walk away

i’m gonna ask god to highlight those

because what is salvation if we have

nothing to be saved from

salvation

is when we say god here is my unwanted

and my wanted what can you do with

it and that’s where god gets all the

glory

god it is my prayer

that in some kind of crazy way that this

message has helped somebody

lord knows

that there are so many of us

learning to not just be blinded by what

we want

but to trust that we have the strength

and the perseverance

and the wisdom

and integrity

to also live in the unwanted

god i thank you for every person

watching

every story

every memory every drama god i thank you

for them

i thank you because i know that each

piece represents an opportunity for

glory

god i thank you that as they are

receiving this message that you were

highlighting areas in their life

where they have been ignoring the things

that they didn’t want

ignoring that family environment

ignoring those friendships ignoring that

business ignoring those disciplines or

lack thereof god i thank you that you’re

highlighting them not so that they can

feel shame

not so they can feel condemnation

but so that they can feel convicted

and through that conviction god you will

produce

change god i thank you that you’re

highlighting it so that you can give

them the strength to overcome it

so god i pray that you would meet each

and every person right where they are

meet them god in that space

where they’re living in

the memories

of how they became who they are

god allow your presence to meet with

them to sit with them and to guide them

and lead them with strategy

on how they learn to love every part of

who they are

how they learn to believe that they can

show up in every season and every stage

of their life god i thank you that

they’re not alone

holy spirit have your way in their heart

have your way in their mind

and we rebuke god bless you

we plead the blood of jesus over their

hearts

the blood of jesus over their body the

blood of jesus over their mind the blood

of jesus may the blood not just cover

them may it repel anything that is not

supposed to be connected to them may it

repel disease may it repel suicidal

thoughts may it repel depression the

blood god let it repel and let it rebuke

god let it send back anything that was

coming for them we send it back in the

name of jesus and we speak to who you

have called them to be we speak to their

divine identity and we decree and

declare that in the name of jesus no

weapon formed against who you have

created is going to prosper and because

the weapon has been formed but didn’t

prosper we say come forth we say come

forth from wherever you are come forth

from the east coast come forth from the

south come forth from the west coast

come forth from the north come forth

from africa come forth from the uk come

forth come forth come forth the real

identity we decree and declare it right

now in the name of jesus that we will no

longer be rebuked by what is trying to

shrink us but that we will still rise up

and rebuke it in return and when we

rebuke it may it be sent back to hell to

the lake of fire where it could never

come back again

god i thank you for fresh strength and

fresh fire

in jesus name i pray

amen

amen can you just join me in that prayer

and say amen i feel like we should just

take a moment

and just worship from this place

to just take a moment and say god i

thank you that you’re pouring strength

into me i just see a picture in a cup

and i see god pouring out his spirit god

i thank you that your spirit is still

flowing god i thank you that your spirit

is still pouring god let it flow let it

flow let it flow god and the places

where there’s a drought let it flow and

the places that i’ve ignored let it flow

god let your spirit touch down wherever

they’re watching god in their car in

their kitchen in their homes in their

bathroom god let it touch down in the

office let it touch down on the highway

and let it invade the entire home god

let it invade our entire circle till

generational curses are broken until we

have a generation that recognizes that

we can do all things we can do all

things we can do all things through

christ who strengthens us i don’t have

to be afraid anymore i don’t have to be

blinded by one anymore i can handle

seeing it all open up their eyes in the

name of jesus that they may behold all

of their experiences all of their life

and all of their destiny all of their

power all of their anointing all of

their confidence may we not just see

where we were hurt but may we also see

where we have been empowered god let us

take it all in and when it’s all said

and done may you get the glory

god we just worship you

thank you for sending this word for us

thank you for opening our eyes

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thank you for seeing us

jacob couldn’t see leah

but god you saw her

and you see us and you know us

and you have promised connected to our

names

may we live like that

amen family