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hey family this is sarah jakes robertson
i am so excited about the incredible
word that you’re about to receive
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i am
i was holding my man’s hand before i
came up here
because you know i’d be scary when it’s
time to preach
and i told him i was sucking the
strength out of his hand can you all
help me just thank god for
my husband my covering my pastor
my heart my peace
my inspiration
my joy
my hallelujah and my amen my best friend
my encourager my challenger
baby thank you for being home no matter
where i am i’m always home when i’m with
you and i love you for that thank you
for creating this environment for me to
flourish i love you
i love you that’s my
it’s my booth thing
chad i came out here in this black and
white i said god’s trying to get me to
join the worship team i didn’t even know
it
said my god did you see that
he hasn’t given me the voice yet but i’m
dressed the part and that’s all that
matters most at the time
he is doing it i like them already we in
the flow
um
second samuel
chapter 12.
i’m going through one of those seasons
where
you realize you’re not as saved as you
thought you was i don’t know if anybody
i’m being honest sometimes god takes you
through something
and reveals something about you with
your character and your ways of being
that sits you right on down
thought you had it together
thought you knew what you was doing
and god says you still got some learning
to do some growing to do
that’s the season i’m in so if you don’t
mind i’d like to share
from my personal prayer time
what god is showing me about this season
i’m in and my prayers that it will bless
you
my title is
blessed
blind
and broken
blessed blind and broken
second samuel 12
15. for those of you who don’t know or
are unfamiliar with this passage david
is king
and he’s been raggedy
he’s been real raggedy he had murdered
somebody child he didn’t got somebody
knocked up he didn’t done he didn’t done
the things he’s
trying to be on the real husbands of
atlanta i don’t know
he’s auditioning and no one even called
him to do this he’s doing too much
god sends a prophet nathan and says
you’re doing too much and you don’t even
see that you’re doing too much so you
need a prophet to tell you that you’re
doing too much and before we judge we
got to be honest that sometimes we be
doing too much and don’t even know we’d
be doing too much to that bank account
said you did too much
or that child said you did too much or
that spouse says you’ve been doing too
much and so we find david in this moment
where he has learned
that he’s been doing too much
he didn’t even recognize himself
and the prophet nathan comes to him in
verse 15 it says then nathan departed to
his house after telling him he did too
much and as a result of him doing too
much there was going to be a consequence
that consequence is that the child that
was birthed through the affair was going
to die
the nathan departed to his house and the
lord struck the child that uriah’s wife
bore to david and it became
ill
david therefore pleaded with god for the
child and david fasted and went in and
lay all night on the ground
so the elders of his house arose and
went to him to raise him up from the
ground but he would not
nor did he eat food with them
then on the seventh day it came to pass
that the child died and the servant of
david were the servants of david were
afraid to help tell him that the child
was dead for they said indeed while the
child was alive we spoke to him and he
would not heed our voice how can we tell
him that the child is dead
he may do some harm
when david saw that his servants were
whispering david perceived that the
child was dead
therefore david said to his servants is
the child dead and they said he is dead
david did something strange
he didn’t get upset
he didn’t stay on the ground david arose
from the ground washed and anointed
himself and changed his clothes and he
went into the house of the lord in
worship god didn’t do what he asked him
to do
god didn’t deliver and he was laying on
the floor for seven days on the ground
praying for this child and when god
didn’t deliver he still doesn’t turn his
back on god he doesn’t get upset he goes
into the house of the lord and he
worships
then he went to his own house and when
he requested they set food before him
and he ate so now he eaten
worshiping and standing up again
and it begs the question
what was happening to david in this
moment
that he was able to switch
into this posture once he didn’t receive
what he wanted from god how did he
assume the position that god placed him
in in the first place i wish i could say
it the way that i feel it
but when god disappoints us
and we move out of position
we don’t just harm ourselves we harm our
relationship with god and david has the
fortitude in this moment to say that
even though you didn’t do what i wanted
you to do even though you didn’t show up
in the way that i know i’m not asking
you to do something that you can’t do
you could have fixed this thing and you
didn’t do it but he still gets back in
position because that’s where god placed
him and i want to understand
the mentality of someone who knows what
it’s like to be blessed blind broken but
still in position
spirit of the living god
these are your people
and this is your church
so god i pray that the words that come
out of my mouth and this meditation of
my heart that they would be acceptable
in your sight because if they are
acceptable in your sight then they will
be transformational in this room
so god i turn this service over to you
and i say have your way great god that
you are
only you can take a word and make sure
that it meets each and every person in
this room where they need it the most
and so we bless your name god and we say
simply do that thing that you do when
your glory sits in the room
and may strongholds come down may chains
be broken
and may we feel our peace and our joy
and our strength again in a fresh new
way
in jesus name i pray
amen
i was um
looking at my cell phone the other day
and i was thinking to myself how crazy
it is how small phones are now i
remember
i want to see who’s in this room if you
got one of them first cell phones than
brick cell phones when they came out can
you just raise your hand y’all really
thought i was something the bricks
didn’t y’all y’all really thought you
was special with them brick stopping is
isn’t it crazy no no i’m gonna see who
else is in this room if you had a big
screen tv
with a booty on the back like it had
that big o
with the wood grain around it who was in
the oh that wood grain was special
edition
isn’t it crazy how technology just kept
shrinking and shrinking now we got
pancake booty tvs it ain’t even nothing
back there no more they just flat
screens they call them flat screens not
because they flatten the fronts because
they flat in the back they don’t have
that thing in the back no more listen
the more that technology evolved and
changed the more knowledge that
technologists were able to accrue the
smaller and smaller devices became
because the more knowledge now i have
the ability to change the size of what
was once big i
marvel at this with televisions i marvel
at it with
cell phones and there are so many
different computers my god they just get
smaller and smaller the more knowledge
we have and i think that this is great
for technology but i am worried that it
is not so good when it comes to the
things that we don’t want to shrink
like when love is big
and beautiful and bright
then you’d learn a little bit more about
that person
and now all the all of a sudden that
love begins to shrink because i got more
knowledge i didn’t know
everything that i know now and it’s not
that i don’t love you it’s just that
that love is now balanced by what i know
about you
anybody with a newborn baby can tell you
like i when i first held the baby oh
love i love that baby when that baby
woke up every two hours it’s not that i
didn’t love you i just had not known
that you was gonna be waking me up and
changing i can’t even shower something
happens
joy
big amazing laugh out loud
and then the last time you had joy you
got one text message one phone call
that shrunk that joy something happens
that makes us shrink
the things that are supposed to stay big
feel like this happens with our
blessings sometimes too
when we first get the blessing we first
get the job we first get the
relationship we first get the
opportunity that blessing is huge
and then we learn all that is required
in order to maintain that blessing
i didn’t know that it was going to take
this much to maintain the ministry i
didn’t know that it was going to take
this much to maintain the job to build
the church i didn’t realize it would
take this much to build the book and now
the blessing feels like it is shrinking
too but i was studying and i started
wondering does the blessing shrink or do
we shrink when faced with the blessing
the blessing really doesn’t change
i’m still excited i got the job i just
didn’t know that the job was going to
require me to enlarge sometimes we pray
for god to enlarge our territory not
realizing that you talk about houses and
cars and god wants to enlarge the
territory of you so when i bless you
you’re not necessarily the size of the
person who can maintain the blessing but
the blessing is a sign that there is
development inside of you that will
allow you to be increased to the person
who can navigate this blessing
i think part of the problem is that when
we hear the word blessing we see it as a
gift
and i don’t always have to do anything
for a gift it’s just a gift it doesn’t
require anything from me it just falls
into my lap but i was studying the
different definitions of blessing and i
was looking at a hebrew lexicon and i
realized that there is a definition of
blessing that is probably more accurate
to what we experience when we get a
blessing from god
this definition says that a blessing is
a speaking of the excellence of a person
or thing speaking of the excellence of
something
this is no surprise because now we
understand when you say a blessing
before your food i’m going to speak a
speech of excellence over what’s taken
place
so when god gives you a blessing
that blessing is speaking of the
excellence connected to who you are oh
god help me
you may not necessarily be that person
yet
but the blessing is an indication of the
excellence that is down inside of you
that’s why sometimes we receive
blessings and we say to ourselves i
don’t feel qualified we have imposter
syndrome and in a way you’re right
because you’re not really the person who
is worthy of the blessing but the
blessing is an indication that you can
become the person who sees the blessing
as your norm you can become the person
who sees the blessing as a part of what
is organic to who you are because you
grew into that i wish i was talking to
some people in this room who’ve had to
grow into some blessings i didn’t know
that i was going to have to grow into it
but i realized that if i was going to
hang on to this thing god gave me i was
going to have to grow and become someone
i’ve never been before and god used the
blessing as a carrot dangled in front of
me so that i would grow into the person
who could break that generational curse
so that i could grow into the person who
could budget differently so i could grow
into the person who understood that if
i’m really going to be planted that i’m
going to have to become something i’ve
never seen before that blessing was
speaking of the excellence i want to
talk to somebody who keeps rejecting the
blessings because the blessings require
something that you don’t have and i want
you to understand the fact that the
blessing is even in reach is an
indication that it’s inside of you for
you to reach forward the excellence is
in you the creativity is in you the
strategy is in you the power is in you
the anointing is in you and the blessing
is a sign that it is within reach i got
to take a minute there
because god’s not into wasting blessings
god’s not into wasting his glory god’s
not into wasting his identity so if god
allows you access to the blessing the
blessing is meant to help you access you
god
god you didn’t allow something to happen
for me that should never happen for
someone like me i don’t have the
education i don’t have the connection
but this blessing is telling me that i
might be qualified this blessing is
telling me that i may be able to walk
into it anyway and i don’t want to
reject what you’re holding up as a
mirror so instead of rejecting it god
i’m going to ask you what is this
blessing trying to show me about me what
is this blessing trying to pull out of
me what excellence is in me that i’ve
been calling average
excellence
me that i am uncertain of
excellence in me that i’ve never seen
executed before
excellence in
me
jesus has this way
of helping us to understand
that a blessing is more than a gift
a blessing is a mandate to grow
the blessing is a call to excellence
and when god begins to call you to
excellence
if we are not careful we will be so
enamored by the blessing
that we miss that there is a mandate
connected to it
that there’s growth and development
connected to us
and so most of us have to train
ourselves to lose the appetite for a
blessing that feels like a gift
and requires nothing from us
and instead recognize that when i ask
god for a blessing i’m also asking god
for a stretch
that’s all right
when i ask god to bless my marriage
when i ask god to bless my children
when i ask god to speak excellence over
what i’m doing that that means that
god’s going to dissect whether or not
what i am doing is excellent and if god
blesses me he’s going to stretch me into
excellence i feel like that’s a word
within itself somebody’s in this room
and you’ve been losing your mind trying
to figure out what’s going on and i hear
god saying that i’m being stretched into
excellence that you’re being stretched
into the person who can handle the
blessing you’re praying for that you’re
being stretched into someone who can
break a generational curse that you’re
being stretched into someone who can be
married for 20 30 40 years that you’re
being stretched into someone who can
decree a thing and it be established in
the earth you want to break a
generational curse you don’t have to be
excellent in every way you want to break
something off of your family you can’t
sit down and be cute your prayer life
gonna have to be excellent your
worship’s gonna have to be excellent
your heart is gonna have to be pure i
feel like god is calling us to a level
of excellence that we’ve never seen
before but i hear god saying it doesn’t
matter what you’ve seen it matters what
i’m calling you to is anybody wanting to
pick up the phone because god is calling
you to excellence i want to be more
excellent than anything i’ve ever seen
before i want to be more excellent than
my generation can even have room to
imagine i want to be more excellent than
even i can imagine and i feel like god
is calling me higher calling me higher
calling me higher and what i’m going to
have to do is be willing to go blind
because the desire to be excellent
makes me want to have a model
so i know what i’m shooting for
but if you have a model you’ll be an
imitator
[Music]
[Applause]
and if god says behold i’m gonna do a
new thing in you
you don’t get to have a role model for
this excellence
i feel like talking crazy because i’m in
the south but you’re gonna have to put
on your big boy draws
and your big girl panties and say that
i’m gonna be excellent whether i have a
model or not i’m gonna be excellent
whether they understand it or not i’ve
never seen it but excellence is in my
blood i’ve never breathed it but
excellence is in my lungs when he
breathes his breath inside of me he
breathed excellence inside of me so i’m
trying to push out the breath that has
been
breathed into me
how can i be a partaker of the divine
nature of god and not be excellent
so if i am not excellent
it is because i have been deceived that
my excellence does not have value
and it does not have worth
because my excellence has been
contaminated by
people
thoughts
experiences shame
but it’s still excellent
you got to understand
that nothing has happened that has
tainted the excellence of god in you
you are the excellency
of god
so maybe the greatest
mind
paradigm that i need to possess
is that i need to believe that i have
access to excellence
even if i don’t have access to the
people who i thought would bring it out
of me
even if nobody spoke it over me
even if my environment tells me
everything contrary i still got a man to
be anchored
in the lord is to believe that i have
access to excellence even when they say
i’m in a food desert that i’ve got
access to excellence even when i don’t
have the finances i don’t have the
education but i can still be excellent i
don’t have the community but i can still
be excellent i want god to look at me
and say man they were excellent with
what i gave them
so i gotta go blind
because if i don’t go blind
i’ll be frustrated that i’m not becoming
what i’ve seen other people
do and become
man
blessed
blind
and broken
man to be blind
i think a lot of us don’t want to be
blind
because we think it means that we can’t
see
man i’m thinking about moses let me
digress for a moment
moses was blessed
his mother said not my child maybe maybe
somebody else’s but not mine
and she takes him and she creates a
strategy to keep him from being murdered
at a time where the hebrew boys there
was a tag over their head but he was
blessed with a mother who said not mine
and yet even when he is pulled out of
the river and given to pharaoh’s
daughter
that’s a blessing too
but the problem is that he was blind in
his blessing
and that he didn’t realize how he could
be an excellent hebrew
in an egyptian household
the blessing was
something everyone else would have
envied but because he couldn’t see how
to be an excellent hebrew
in an egyptian household he resented the
blessing
because he’d never seen how to do this
before
he didn’t have a model so he rejected it
and he pushed himself away from the very
thing that was supposed to save him
because he didn’t realize there is no
crime in being blind
it’s that you have to be willing to
admit that you were blind
so that you can see how god has set up
sight
because just because you’re blind
doesn’t mean you don’t have sight
god’s never going to allow you to just
be blind
god’s always going to make sure that
there is a strategy that will allow you
to have sight
so when god has to come get moses
because he has rejected the blessing of
his position he goes to get moses and
moses says i can’t go back because i
don’t see how i’ll be able to stand up
to the egyptians i don’t see how i’ll be
able to speak and he said so i’m going
to pull aaron in because aaron’s going
to be your sight for the area that you
cannot see you got to thank god for the
people in your life who god uses to give
sight for the areas where you’re blind
we talk a lot about haters we talk a lot
about the people who couldn’t see us but
there are some people who can see us in
the areas where we are blind and when
god allows you to have access to someone
who can provide you sight in a dark
season you got to know that that’s all a
part of god’s strategy that the strategy
of you means that god took into account
the areas where you would be blind you
don’t have to see everything to be
all that you can be
david is blind
blind as they come
he just didn’t know it
so god sends the prophet nathan to give
him this story and he gives him this
story and when he gives him the story
he realizes in this moment that he’s
been acting outside of his character
he’s been acting outside of his position
because he was just resting on the fact
that he was king and when you’re king
sometimes the crown covers your eyes and
you can’t see anymore
when you get the position sometimes you
can’t see the areas where you still need
growth and development the crown is
heavy so heavy that it can blind you
from seeing who your friends are and who
they really aren’t the crown is so heavy
that it can keep you from seeing where
you’re getting too arrogant where you
don’t have enough wisdom where you need
a little support the crown is so heavy
everybody wants the crown but not
everybody realizes that when you wear
the crown you can’t hardly keep your
head up sometimes because that crown is
so heavy everybody wants the followers
everybody wants the name and i’m here to
tell you that sometimes this crown is
heavy sometimes this crown feels like a
burden sometimes this crime feels like
inadequate sometimes this crown makes me
feel blind and i don’t always lean into
god when i feel blind and whenever i
don’t lean into god when i feel blind i
have to start feeling things out and
when you start feeling things out you
start touching things you shouldn’t
touch because you didn’t realize that
that crown was
i wish i was talking to somebody in this
room
who knew what it was like to have to try
and fill things out
because i’m blind in that oh god
somebody’s got to forgive themselves
for the things that they were trying to
fill out
because they didn’t realize
that they were blind
so i touched some things that i
shouldn’t have touched
and i said some things i shouldn’t have
said but nobody realized how heavy this
crown was
that i didn’t know what i was doing
david wasn’t supposed to be king
and we shout over that that he became
king
but nobody tells you the cost of being
king means that you can’t
always figure out what you’re touching
because the crown makes you blind
and you need people in your life
god is sending people to your life
to help you
understand who you are
and where your limits are and where your
boundaries need to be
when we find david in this text
he just realized that he’s blessed
and blind
and that creates a level of humility
that not many of us
really dabble in we want to be blessed
mainly so we could you know show
everybody you would sleep on me wake up
look what this blessing then showed you
about me
david gets blessed
but in this moment in the text he’s
dealing with the reality that he’s blind
we say this all the time i’m too blessed
to be stressed
but david is blessed and stressed
because i didn’t realize
that this blessing was going to require
so much from me
i’m blessed and i’m stressed
because i don’t want to mess up this
blessing
and i don’t want to lose this blessing
but i don’t know what all is in me
anymore i can’t trust myself anymore
because i didn’t know i was blind i wish
i could say this the way that i feel it
in my spirit but the cost of being
blessed and blind does often create
stress because there is a part of you
that wants to make sure that i maintain
the blessing god has given me but i want
someone to understand tonight that it is
not your job to maintain the blessing
that god gives you that god has given
you the blessing and all you have to do
is make sure you stay surrendered to god
and if you stay surrendered to god it
doesn’t matter the areas where you’re
blind it doesn’t matter the areas where
you don’t have a role model it doesn’t
matter who’s with you or who’s against
you it doesn’t matter what they say at
the bank and it doesn’t matter what they
say at the school because when you’re
really blessed by god god’s already
taken into account the areas where you
don’t have enough and because god took
that into account he gave you the
blessing because you’re the only one who
could take that blessing and turn it
into generational blessings you’re the
only one who could take that blessing
and bring it to the full manifestation
of who god has called it to be i don’t
know what blessing is either coming into
your life or already in your life but i
hear god saying that if you think you
have to maintain it you’re going to lose
it the only thing you have to do is pay
more attention to who gave you the
blessing than the blessing itself it is
not my job to come up to here and make
sure i wreck this place it is not my job
to come in here and make sure that i
break a generational curse it is not my
job to come in here and wage war with
the devil it is my job to stay
surrendered so whatever god wants to do
in this place god can do it through me
it is my job to stay pure so whatever
god wants to do whose job is it to
represent a tunnel in your family
there’s a way out of this thing but you
got to be the tunnel and you got to stay
clear to do it
somebody’s gonna break that generational
curse
somebody’s gonna pull that stronghold
down somebody’s gonna break those chains
and it’s not gonna be something you
thought of and it’s not gonna be a
strategy you’re hustled up on and it’s
not gonna be something god gave you it’s
gonna be because you got on your face
and you said god i’m blind god i don’t
know how you’re gonna do it god i don’t
see how you could take a mess like me
and build anything on it but because you
gave me the insight that there is a
blessing in my family i want to be the
one who works with you i want to be the
one who works for you
i want to work for you not against you
and my thoughts been waging war against
you and my fears been waging war against
you and my sight has been waging war
against you so the best thing that you
can give god right now is your eyesight
because your eyes are messing up god’s
plan your eyes are messing up god’s
strategy and god says i can do it but
you’re gonna have to be blind i can do
it but you’re not gonna be able to see
it cause every time you see you get
jealous and every time you see you think
i’m behind and every time you see you
think i forgot about you and every time
i see you think that i can only do that
in one person’s life and not anyone
else’s every time i see you think
somebody else is in your lane but god
says if you really want breakthrough if
you really want me to be the one that
shows you how it can be done you will
have to go blind
you’re not
you’re not going to see this one
oh i feel like doing something here
jesus
i hear god saying you’re not gonna see
it coming
hear god saying that’s why you’re gonna
have to go blind
because right now you’re trying to look
and see how i’m gonna do it
god how you gonna fix this family god
how you gonna fix this marriage and i
hear god saying close your eyes and open
your mouth close your eyes and open your
mouth close your eyes and open your
mouth because when you close your eyes
you start decreeing my word over a thing
when you close your eyes you stop
complaining about what i did in somebody
else’s life and all you have to hold on
to is the promise and if you would
release the promise into the atmosphere
if you would release the promise into
the environment that’s when hell would
start to get nervous because you’re
using your words as a weapon against
everything that is being formed in your
life so i’m going to prophesy even
though i don’t see it yes my child is
saved yes we got a building yes this
marriage is going to last yes i’m going
to build this ministry yes i’m gonna
write this book i gotta close my eyes to
say it but it’s gonna be sad because if
i got to close my eyes see
hold on i’m trying to collect myself
cause don’t nobody fight with their eyes
closed
unless you realize that i don’t have to
do the swinging i don’t have to do this
strategy i don’t have to worry about the
weapon you got against me i’m a bad
mamma jammer i fight with my eyes closed
because this battle’s not mine
this battle is the lord so all i got to
do is allow god permission with my mouth
to do what he’s already strategized in
the earth god i give you full permission
god i give you full permission
to release your excellency over my
trauma to release your excellence over
my childhood wounds to release your
excellence over my marriage and i gotta
close my eyes
gotta close my eyes cause
what i see scares me
what i see is trying to break me
i can be blessed and blind
i gotta be blessed
and
blind or what i see will sabotage the
blessing
sometimes what i don’t see
will sabotage the blessing
if i’m going to declare my healing
i can wink at the doctor’s appointment
i can wink at that doctor’s report
but i can’t ruminate on it
i can’t meditate on it
gotta prove what i meditate on
man cause blind
worship
blind worship
reveals who’s really in
charge when my eyes are open i worship
my worry
when my eyes are open i worship my
success
when my eyes are open i worship my
heartbreak
when i close my eyes
not only do i become blind but i also
feel my brokenness
blind
broken
have you ever been somewhere
and somebody was trying to keep from
crying and they
started waving their eyes
cause if i close my eyes
if i really go blind
i’m gonna feel this
i don’t want to feel this
david
realizes he’s blessed
but blind
and he dares to close his eyes
and in that moment
he realizes he’s broken
and that’s where we find him in the text
living
in the aftermath
of realizing that i’m blessed blind and
broken most of us
feel like i’m just blessed
or i’m just blind
or i’m just broken
but this text proves to us that you can
be blessed blind
and broken
at the same time
david’s still king but blind
still king but broken still leading
but blind and broken
still standing tall being there for
everyone else in the family i’m the
pillar of strength in the family but if
anybody knew that underneath this
strength underneath this blessing of
strength i’m blind and broken too
but because life makes me feel like i
have to choose i’ve never given myself
permission to be all three at the same
time yes i’m i’m blessed on the job but
i’m blind in the marriage and i’m broken
with the children yes i’m blessed in the
marriage but i’m blind on the job you
see blessed blind and broken you want to
know the story of us the story of us is
that we are blessed blind and broken all
at the same time and while everyone
thinks that blessed is to arrive those
who are blessed recognize that i am
blessed but it’s still some blindness
over here i am blessed but there’s still
some brokenness over here and maybe that
is the divine strategy of god so that
you never feel like you were completely
one thing but you allow yourself to be
all things at the same time
david
is dealing with this after aftermath of
being broken
he knew
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in this moment in the text that because
of his brokenness
there’s now a generational consequence
because the prophet nathan says to him
because you were blessed and blind and
didn’t know it because the problem isn’t
that he was blind it’s that he was blind
and didn’t know it the greatest gift you
can give yourself is to say i don’t know
nothing
and i’m blind and i don’t know how i’m
going to do it so i’m going to depend on
the lord but david was out there living
and the prophet nathan says to him
your son that you can see from this
affair is going to die
because when we are blessed
and we are blind but don’t know it
we produce generational curses
generational consequences
and so now because david realizes i am
the one responsible for this
generational consequence
i’m also the one who was going to have
to run up on this generational
consequence
yes see when we have generational curse
conversation what we’re really talking
about is a consequence
of what happens when it has been passed
down from family to family to family
that we just talk to each other any kind
of way even though it hurts one another
that’s just how we are that’s the
consequence of someone not receiving the
love and so someone right now was in
pain over a generational consequence
that didn’t even start with them and
david is trying to break a generational
consequence off of the next generation
because he recognizes that it started
with him and it’s got to end with him
but i want someone to know this isn’t
even a part of my notes that it doesn’t
have to start with you to end with you
that david recognized that just because
the consequence has been set in motion
it doesn’t mean that i don’t have a
chance at breaking it when god says that
he’s going to strike david’s son david
should have said you know what if that’s
what you’re going to do that’s what
you’re going to do i’ma back up off of
it but when they say that david was a
man after god’s own heart we see it
exemplified in this moment because he
realizes just because god has said this
it doesn’t mean that i shouldn’t be
praying decr declaring and decreeing
that it can be broken even though it’s
set in motion god i wish i could say
this the way that i feel it in my spirit
because i feel like someone needs to
understand that as long as that child is
alive as long as that generational
constant consequence is still up in
limbo there is still an opportunity for
it to be broken if the generational
curse is still alive it means that it
can still be broken but it is not just
going to be broken because someone said
i’m going to wait on someone else to do
it david says i started this mess i’ve
been brought into awareness that this is
a mess and i’m not going to let the mess
continue just because there is a word
out against it he says instead i’m going
to seek the lord about this thing oh i
feel my help coming because i want
someone to understand that it is not
over yet and if you would dare to get
bold like david got bold and says i know
you said you was going to strike it but
it ain’t struck down yet and because it
ain’t struck down yet i’m going to keep
praying and i’m going to keep on
believing i know god you say that this
was going to be the end but the end is
not here yet and because it’s still
alive i’m going to throw everything i’ve
got at it because i’m the only one who
sees it as a problem the elders couldn’t
do it the priest couldn’t do it stop
asking somebody else to break your
generational curse if that generational
curse has your name on it it ain’t a
message in the world that can break it
there’s got to be a hunger down on the
inside of you that says god i want to
break this generational curse off of my
family and david starts praying and
david starts warning because one thing
or another something’s gotta break god
you either gotta break this generational
curse or you gotta break this thing in
me that started the generational curse
to begin with
oh no
something’s gotta break
god if you’re not gonna pull this threat
off of my child then help me to not
produce another threat through my
actions god something’s gotta break when
you go into your prayer closet saying to
yourself something’s gotta break it’s
not just that you want your targeted
item to break but you gotta say god you
either gotta break my desire or help me
to understand how to overcome this
heartbreak something’s gotta break i
can’t keep living like this i can’t keep
thinking like this i don’t wanna see
another generation suffer from the
things that i’ve gone through
something’s got to pray blessed blind
and broken god i don’t know what you
want to break in my life i don’t know if
it’s going to be the generational curse
or it’s going to be the mindset that
started it in the first place but i have
decided that something has got to break
david is in his prayer closet because
it’s breaking time it’s breaking time
it’s breaking time i feel like it’s
breaking time in greenville south
carolina i feel like it’s breaking time
at relentless church i feel like
something’s gotta break in this room i
feel like there’s a devil somewhere
that’s gotta be broken off of your
family i feel like there’s a threat
somewhere that’s gotta be broken off of
your mind you call it fear you call it
insecurity i hear god saying it’s a
generational curse and something’s got
to break you call it just the way we are
i hear god saying the way you’ve been is
trash and i called you to be treasure
and something’s got to break you call it
the way it’s always going to be i hear
god saying behold i do a new thing shall
you not know it something’s got to break
in this room
holy ghost
holy ghost there’s only one thing that
breaks there’s only one thing that’ll
break a chain there’s only one thing
that’ll pull a stronghold down and
that’s when i come into agreement with
what god says about it and when i come
into agreement with what god says about
it it has no choice
it’s got no choice but to break
break it god break it break it god i
feel like angels are swarming around
this church i see it in the spirit realm
and heaven wants to know whose house is
this grace for whose house is this
anointing for something’s got to break
i’m tired of the way we’ve been living
i’m tired of the way we’ve been
worshiping i’m tired of the way we
become religious but don’t have
relationship something’s gotta break
i’m tired of the way these kids are
acting i’m tired of not having the words
i’m tired of not having the humility
something’s gotta break that trauma
happened 20 years ago i’m ready to move
past it something’s got to break
i’m tired of it you tired of the devil
i’m tired of me you tired of the devil
i’m tired of the way i’ve been acting
you tired of the devil i’m tired of
passing this down from generation to
generation the devil ain’t even got to
do nothing no more i’m working for him
i’m doing his handiwork for him talking
crazy about my family crazy about my
possibilities crazy about the gift of
god that’s down on the inside of me
devil clocked out long time ago boo this
all you
and i feel like god says it can break
though if it would come out of your
mouth it could break if it would come
out of your belly it could break if you
would get hungry again it would break if
you started thirsting after
righteousness again it would break
blessed blind and broken what’s going to
break in this room
and broke it
david said i gotta break it for the next
generation
david said i gotta break it cause i
don’t want my child to have to fight the
very thing that i’ve been wrestling with
my whole life is there a david in this
room who feels like i may have started
some stuff but i’m going to end it too
oh yeah
it’s got a break
it’s got to break it’s got a break
it’s got to break it’s got to break
spirit of the living god for when you
ask the power of god to fall you’re
asking for something to be broken
because there is no way the power of god
can fall on you and not break something
that’s not supposed to be there in the
first place
the power of god is not for dancing
it’s not so we can go home and say we
had church
the power of god is meant to break
everything that ain’t god
so that everything that is god can stand
up
god if you don’t break this generational
curse
i may not be able to stand up but if
your power would fall over my family if
your power would fall over my mind if
your power would fall over my business
then maybe just maybe
the power of god would be the only thing
that’s there
in this moment
david
is what ends up broken
but not broken in that way
that makes you feel worse
it’s not broken
in that way that makes you feel
inadequate and less than
i’mma tell you what they don’t tell you
on instagram
there is a good brokenness
it’s the kind of brokenness that solomon
had where he said i’m just a boy
i’m blessed
but i can’t see
and because i realize i can’t see
i’m broken before you
because when i break before you
i don’t have to do this on my own
when i break before you you fill the
gaps when i break before you
the brokenness
that tried to kill me becomes the
brokenness that builds me
jesus
i don’t know why but i feel like god is
i must say calling just me
to a broken spirit
not puffed up
not full of pride
not knowing everything or saying all of
the right things
but a broken spirit
that allows me to say i don’t have
to be ashamed of the fact that i don’t
know it all
and i don’t have to be afraid that i
can’t have it all because i don’t know
it all
i can live in the truth of where i am
and allow god’s presence access to me
through my brokenness
which means there are seasons when the
time for pretending
literally will keep you from growth
man i feel this prophetically for
somebody
god has given you access
to rooms and opportunities and
relationships that you should not have
access to
and if you aren’t careful you will try
to act the part
and you will become a character
instead of a vessel
you don’t have to act the part
because acting is not what gave you
access to the blessing
go in there blind
go in there broken
but go anyway
that’s why the most powerful part of
this text is that when david didn’t get
what he would ask for he still got up
he washed himself off
he anointed himself he went into the
house of the lord and worshiped and then
he sat down and ate like the king he was
because he recognized that at the end of
the day i had to be blessed blind and
broken in order for me to understand the
magnitude of what god has called me to
and now that i understand the magnitude
of it i won’t shy away from it i’m not
going to talk myself out of it instead
i’m going to stay in position with the
awareness of what all is sitting in this
seat when i sit down and because i know
what all is sitting in this seat when i
sit down
i don’t go into a room without god
i don’t trust this position without god
anymore
i don’t trust this position without
knowledge of of what god can see that i
can’t see because i know
that honestly
i’m just a girl that’s blessed
blind
and broken
and that doesn’t scare me the way that
it used to scare me
and that doesn’t keep me from position
the way that i thought it would keep me
from position it won’t keep me from
being a good partner it won’t keep me
from being a good minister as a matter
of fact the knowledge of it
is what equips me to be in the position
because it’s how god is going to
continue to speak through me
there’s this verse that
david i’m finished let me just read the
script and then i’m done
there’s this verse that is in psalms 51
and this is where we get the text
creating me a clean heart david felt
some kind of way
in this blessed blind and broken season
but psalms 51 and 17 says the sacrifices
of god are a broken spirit
a broken and contrite heart these are
god
you will not despise
right before this it says it’s not about
gold it’s not about jewels
you can give those things but those
things don’t really move god
what really moves god
is the sacrifice of your broken spirit
in this room
relentless as you may be
it would be difficult for some of us to
admit that i have a broken spirit
god says you can give all you want to
but until you give me that broken spirit
you haven’t given me what really moves
me
until you give me
that inadequacy until you give me
that fear until you give me that broken
spirit
we play in church
we coming in
we worshiping
it’s just for show
because what i really want
is that grief you’ve been holding on to
what i really want is that anger
what i really want is that pride and
that ego where can’t nobody tell you
nothing and somebody trying to tell you
blind but can’t nobody tell you nothing
so you keep running in the walls what i
really want
is that trauma what i really want is
that abandonment what i really want is
not the addiction but the pain that
started the addiction in the first place
everybody else wants you to be cured of
the addiction i want the broken spirit
that made you want something to numb you
in the first place
and so
before i go
i just want to ask
if we could turn the last five minutes
of my time into an opportunity
to build an altar
for those with
a broken spirit
broken
jesus
broken in a way you haven’t admitted in
a long time
but i want to dare you to break it open
in the presence of the lord
to really give god what he really wants
i don’t want you to just be a good
church-goer
i don’t want you to just be a good
worship leader
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i want that broken
spirit if you can’t find
the broken spirit inside of you
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you’ve been numb for too long
so i’ll take your numb
if you can’t feel the breaking anymore
geez you in this room
and you’ve been disappointed so many
times
the disappointment has become your norm
it doesn’t even hurt anymore
when somebody lets you down
you’ve come to expect it
betrayal
i’m used to that
being in it by myself
even though i’m surrounded by people
i’m used to that
life of the party
to keep from seeing that i’m dead inside
that’s me
i want
your broken spirit
not who you pretend to be
not who you became to protect yourself
i want the little boy in grown man
clothes
to dare to have a moment
and create your own altar
abraham
created his own altar
he didn’t have anybody go ahead of him
he didn’t get there and the altar was
already there
noah
gets off the ark he builds his own altar
maybe we’ve been asking someone else to
build an altar for us to sacrifice on
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and that’s why it hasn’t broken off of
us yet
because we’re waiting on someone else to
build the altar
but the truth is you build the altar
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you build it first with the
acknowledgement
that something’s got to break
something’s got to change something’s
got to burn
because it’s burning me alive
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and when you acknowledge that something
has got to break
we build the altar to set it on
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so if you don’t mind i just want to give
us
30 seconds
to reach down and grab that broken
spirit
with the knowledge
that god wants it
you don’t want the broken spirit but god
wants it
you don’t want the pain but god wants it
you don’t want to face those memories
again but god wants
the broken spirit i want your anger i
want your
fear i want your rejection i want your
abandonment i want
i want your broken spirit i kind of want
to do an altar call but i think there’s
something about you staying
right where you are you can’t move your
way out of this you got to stay right
where you are and build this altar you
got to stay right where you are and
that’s going to be a favor for someone
who would never have the courage to come
down and admit that you have the broken
spirit
god says i’ll meet you right where you
are you don’t have to come down to the
altar i want that broken spirit right
where it is full of pride full of fear
worried about what other people will
think of you god says i’ll take it right
there on the back road god says i’ll
take it right there leaning up against
the wall god says you could build the
altar call right where you are you don’t
have to come down to the stage this time
you are the stage you are what i want to
build on you are what i want to put on
display i want your broken spirit
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god it broke me
god had changed me
god it hurt me
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god i disappointed myself
god how could they how could they help
could they
why did they what did they what did
god i can’t take
one more thing
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i don’t know if i can live like this
anymore you want my broken spirit here
it is i don’t know if i can live like
this anymore
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this is my sacrifice
that i’m really not
okay this is my sacrifice that
i don’t want to live with this
brokenness anymore i don’t want it i
don’t want it i don’t want it i don’t
want it i don’t want it for my children
i don’t want it i don’t want it in my
soul i don’t want it in my dreams i
don’t want it in my prayer life i don’t
want it i don’t want it i don’t want it
i don’t want it i’m bringing it to the
surface not so that i can relive it i’m
bringing it to the surface so that you
can extract it i don’t want it i don’t
want it i don’t want it i want to change
i want to be transformed from the inside
out i don’t want it i don’t want it i
don’t want it i don’t want it
god what do you give in exchange for a
broken spirit
when the word says that you make all
things new god
could it be that my spirit is a part of
that too
could it be that i could become what
i’ve never seen could it be
that even though it broke me it doesn’t
have to change me
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holy spirit
this is a job that only you can complete
and holy spirit this is a job
that you desire to complete
because it was not your plan for us to
be shattered
it was not your plan for us to be
walking dead it was not your plan for us
to just let somebody else tackle this
giant to let someone else break this
generational curse it was not your plan
for us to be so tired that we quit
fighting this was not your plan
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and yet this is where we are
but holy spirit if you would breathe in
this room
if you would move as only you could do
you would take that broken spirit
and pull it in close into the presence
of the lord
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and we would realize that when we cried
you cried too
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but that your plan included restoration
for those broken pieces
and when i hide the brokenness i hide my
redemption
when i hide the brokenness i hide the
restoration when i hide the brokenness i
hide the power to break the generational
curse no wonder i feel like i don’t have
power to break it the breaking is in the
broken
the breaking is in the broken
the breaking of the generational curses
and the broken spirit you’re trying to
hide the breaking is in the broken i
want to prophesy in this place over
every broken spirit that the reason why
that broken spirit has plagued you for
so long is because the breakthrough is
so powerful that if you could ever comes
to terms come to terms with the fact
that brokenness is not the end you would
be like david and assume your position
again
i hear god saying i still got a crown
with your name on it
i hear god saying that brokenness is not
the end i hear god saying that
brokenness is only the way it is not the
end but it is the way and it is only
through your brokenness that you will
experience change it is only through
your brokenness that that generational
curse will be broken it is only through
that brokenness that the anointing will
spring forth it is only through that
brokenness that the child will be saved
it is only through i wish i had some
worshipers in this place because if i
had some worshipers in this room i could
break something off of my bro if i had
some worshipers in this room i could
break something off of my city if i had
some worshipers in this room i could
break something off of this church i
could break something off with my
community i could break something off of
my family if i had some worshipers i
would come to a place where i realized
it when i worshiped from the broken
place when i worship from the broken
place it makes hell loose its whole when
i worship from the broken place the
devil can’t use anything against me
anymore when i worship from the broken
place god says now i can build you up as
someone who cannot be shaken your season
of not being shaken is coming up your
season of being steadfast and unmovable
is coming up and it’s not going to come
because you avoided the brokenness it’s
going because you sat in that brokenness
and you told that brokenness you gonna
build me up you tore me down so the
least you could do was build me up you
tried to break me down so the least you
could do and turn me into who god has
called me to be you may have torn me
down but because i received a word from
god everywhere i’ve been broken is an
area where i will be built i’m
prophesying over somebody’s life
everywhere everywhere
everywhere there was brokenness there is
a monument
i’m finished
but god’s going to take the broken
pieces
and restructure them to make them
something that cannot be broken again
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you’ve been afraid to be built again
because you’re worried you’ll be broken
again
not realizing the fact that you can be
built again
is a sign that even if brokenness comes
that brokenness is not the end
but there are some david never is broken
in this way again
because of what he learned from building
and brokenness
i want you to start building again
god this is your word
these are your people
and i am but a child
and yet i stand in awe of your glory i
stand in all of your greatness
god i thank you for every broken spirit
i thank you
i thank you for every broken spirit
i give gratitude to you god for every
broken spirit
i have gratitude because i recognize
that brokenness is not the end
i have gratitude because i recognize
that brokenness is just the beginning
beginning and where they see brokenness
i see you already working i see you
already building god i see businesses
where there was brokenness i see bounty
where there was brokenness i see beauty
where there was brokenness i see
blessings where there was brokenness i
see restoration where there was
brokenness god i thank you for the areas
where i was broken because had it not
been for the areas where i was broken
there would be no anointing god i thank
you for a savior who understood the
power of being broken god i thank you
for the power of
brokenness and that through that power
you build
you heal
and you restore
god i thank you
for the hedge of protection around these
your great
people that the brokenness was only
allowed because the brokenness could be
used
god may we make it our mission
to use every shattered piece
every broken piece
every blind part of our lives for your
glory
may we dare to be dangerous and bold and
stay in position even when it hurts
because we recognize to be blessed blind
and broken
is the cost of being chosen
and we will pay the price
even when we gotta borrow it from
someone else’s faith
because it would be better to stay in
position
than to push away the very blessing that
was meant to build us up
god i thank you for the families that
are going to be healed
the marriages that will be saved the
businesses that will spring up
and the spirits that will be unshakable
because we dare to go back and say
brokenness is not the end in jesus name
i pray amen i love you relentless
you