Joyce invites you to her favorite place for a pity party.
when I used to get into these self-pity
fits I always had my party my party
always ended up in the bathroom for some
reason I don’t know why in particular
but I’d mope around the house and feel
sorry for myself because dave was
watching football the kids were out
playing and everybody enjoyed their life
but me
come on though I got any relatives out
here tonight
everybody man I just I work all week
cleaning this place up you guys come
home on the weekend you just lay over
there and watch football games and play
golf and the kids playing who care who
cares about me nobody cares about me
what about me what about me
and I would always when I started
feeling sorry for myself I would work
loudly come on do I have any women here
no you work say loud you slam doors and
drawers
you vacuum in front of everybody and
when I was finally at the point of being
ready to weep now I would go to the very
back bathroom in the back of the house
get in the 400 Tyler
and yes I was already teaching the word
by then still in my living room floor
with my twenty five people that I had
for five years one time I heard the Lord
say what are you doing what are you
doing nobody little bitty can see I one
time I was doing this I was like seven
months pregnant with my last child down
the floor crying my head off what do you
think you’re doing you know how
ridiculous you look why do women cry in
the bathroom because when we’re done
it’s also ridiculous I mean the mascaras
running the eyes are red they’re mud
shot you look so bad
you got your hair going in four
directions now and you didn’t and then I
would do this I would go back to the
house where Dave was
now I was trying to preach and be a
woman of power you can’t have power in
the pulpit and be pitiful at home
and I actually remember this happening
honey if you’re going to the kitchen
could you bring me a nice tea
there’s nothing that makes you matter as
a woman and when you’re trying to get
attention
and you know what I wanted I wanted to
hear one thing honey is anything wrong
and then when he would finally say I’d
say no what makes you think something is
wrong
pity is always accompanied by negative
thoughts always it’s always about what
you don’t have what people are not doing