“I thought I could have this guy flirting with me and nothing would really ever happen.” Bob & Audrey’s story shows the demise of compromise and the power of forgiveness. Do you have a secret that’s keeping you in sin? Find peace and freedom today: http://GrowDeeper.net. For more stories, watch the full program “Flying Blind” at http://FlyingBlindVideo.org.
Bob and I both love that whole idea of
doing anything for Jesus we were in
ministry I was at Jesus girl we were
rock-solid for Audrey and I serving God
meant everything to us and that involved
you know a lot of long hours a lot of
devotion a lot of sacrifice as a pastor
I saw this young man who just needed
some guidance so we invited him to be a
part of our family activities
I remember feeling so exhausted so
overwhelmed and hiding that and then
this young guy starts coming into our
life and the first thing he says is he
seemed to be doing everything for
everybody they need some help and I was
like yes but the more we hung out
together it turned into you are you are
so beautiful in every way like I wish I
could find a girl even just half as
beautiful as you when I knew I was gonna
be seeing him I made sure I looked good
I felt like I was invincible I thought I
could have this guy flirting with me
nothing would ever really happen
you know sin takes you further than you
ever thought you would go it goes little
by little by little you just start just
one little compromise just a teeny tiny
compromise and then you quickly find out
that there’s no such thing as a small
compromise because that one little touch
of the hand or that one little rubbing
against it did something it electrified
me somehow and so I wanted more you see
sin always craves more and is never
satisfied and wants that next thing the
next thing the next thing and before you
know what you’re on this this thing that
you just can’t get off of I had a sexual
affair with this guy for three weeks and
I knew that it couldn’t continue because
I just felt something my heart say you
have to tell Bob it was the most intense
scary awful moment in the whole world
and I said I actually did I did it I had
an affair
so immediately my mind is flooded images
of her with this person where mine where
were our children this isn’t just a
little you say that you love me but yet
you give yourself like this it makes no
sense the rage and the anger that I had
was so intense I just stormed out of the
room slammed doors stopped my feet I
mean I was a mess
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I really wanted to hurt
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I wanted her to feel what I was feeling
just what I didn’t think the desperation
could get any lower I found out that as
a result of this affair I had become
pregnant and on that day I didn’t think
I could face my life I just felt like I
had blown up my whole family
I cried out to God will you forgive me
and then I went to Bob I said could you
ever find it in your heart to love me
again I knew that in that moment I had
to forgive her but I was only capable of
so much that afternoon I had to forgive
her again later that evening the next
day weeks months even years forgiveness
really was a process for me but we
together chose to press in you know to
each other but really into God because
we were hoping that he could rescue not
just us but rescue our family and my
children when he was born I asked Audrey
if I could name Ian I gave him my name
Robert
I don’t want my son to ever question one
day in his life whose boy he is he’s my
son
the fact that he has his name just is
that complete acceptance it’s such a
picture of what God does for us not only
does he accept us not only does he
forgive us but he gives us his name and
he redeems our life from what was
supposed to be stolen and taken away he
gives us as a gift and you know what
there’s really a revival after
repentance we don’t have to have any
secrets anymore
we trust each other and we love being
married when you participate with sin it
always takes but when you participate
with God he always gives life
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